If you really feel sorry for me, you should hope that I will live a happy life. Why bother to disrupt my relationship with Tang Ye? Do you think my happiness can only be compensated by you?

Han Shu opened Tang Ye's hand. At this time, many dining guests had already looked over in the romantic Western restaurant. The two waiters passing by them stopped, exchanged their eyes and lowered their heads and stumbled.

Tang Ye is definitely not a person who can ignore others' sidelines. His character and upbringing make him rarely do things. Xie Juinian and Han Shu, one is his "girlfriend" borrowed today, and the other is his stepmother's godson, and he has many entanglements in business. Even the slowest person can see the undercurrents between the two. Juinian was brought by him, and he had the obligation to protect her and leave properly, but the scene in front of him made Tang Ye wonder whether it was wise to trek into the muddy water again.

Han Shu said that this was a matter of "between them". After leaving a harsh word, his eyes never left Xie Juinian, and Juinian always bowed his head silently.

Tang Ye whispered: "Ji Nian, are you okay?"

Ju Nian's mouth seemed to have curled, and she smiled bitterly, but she didn't say anything.

So Tang Ye spread his hands, "My car is parked far away, I'll pour it out first." Before leaving, he patted Ju Nian's arm gently and said softly, "I'll wait for you at the intersection."

It was not until Tang Ye's figure disappeared at the door that Han Shu's hand relaxed a little. He couldn't help but worry that he had no sense before and that he would hurt her. But she didn't say anything from beginning to end, and she didn't frown. He could never guess her feelings, and even the pain could only rely on his own guess.

Maybe he finally realized that he had become the focus of everyone's attention, and Cai Jian, who had been sitting alone in his original position, was still staring coldly. Han Shu said: "Can we talk in another place?"

Ji Nian didn't know what she was thinking, but she didn't realize it and ignored it.

Han Shu had no choice but to grab her arm and pulled her up to the door. Ju Nian stumbled with him like a doll.

It was not until Han Shu stopped until he let go of her hand and hesitated to leave for fear that she would turn her head.

The place was a wind vent, and it was like a two-day transition from a warm restaurant like spring. The orange year wore a gray coat, and the collar was not tightly protected. As soon as I stood there, the cold cold air on the winter night poured in from her neck. She wrapped herself around and shook slightly.

Seeing the situation, Han Shu immediately took off his coat and wanted to put it on her shoulder, but was blocked by her hand.

"No need." Ju Nian's voice was helpless and exhausted, "It's time to make enough trouble, Han Shu."

This is the first sentence Ju Nian said to Han Shu after this unexpected meeting.

Han Shu slowly lowered his hand holding the coat, and the colder colder than the night wind instantly made his blood clot into ice.

He put his clothes on his hand and saw the Santa Claus doll used to attract customers at the door of the clothing store. He suddenly felt like a sad clown in front of her.

He tried to smile and began to laugh at himself, "I don't understand why I always stand in front of you with a silly glorious image."

Ju Nian didn't laugh, what was expected. Han Shu laughed alone, sending herself to the extreme of discomfort. Finally, Panasonic's stiff lips raised, no longer making things difficult for him.

"I just said nothing to Tang Ye. It's nothing to ask me to kneel down and beg you. As long as we speak well, as long as you feel better... Do you want me to kneel down and beg you?" He held Ju Nian Bing's hands like Bing.

No one can warm the two people in the cold wind.

Ju Nian thought it was ridiculous. She was afraid that Han Shu would be able to do it if she could speak. She hurriedly struggled and took a few steps back, "Don't... After I left, you can kneel if you can kneel, you can do whatever you want."

"Then give me a word, what should I do?" The clown who couldn't please the audience didn't know how to end the curtain. In Ju Nian's impression, Han Shu was full of confidence, with a little cynical pretentiousness. He was very arrogant and his usual politeness was condescending. But at this time, he was like a child who walked and couldn't find a home. A second before dark, he found that there was no road in front of him, and he was so frightened that he couldn't get any more.

Ju Nian is not a stern-hearted woman. Of course, she can't forget the past, but she has never thought of punishing Han Shu to make herself happy and relieved. Because she and Han Shu are two people, Han Shu's pain is Han Shu, and Xie Ju Nian's pain is Xie Ju Nian's pain. This increase does not mean that the other person will disappear, why bother?

"I said I forgive you, not just talk. You really don't need to do this. Han Shu, you live your life and let me live my life. This ends is the best way for us."

However, the forgiveness that Ju Nian said was not the forgiveness that Han Shu wanted, nor the redemption of his nightmares every night. He asked the question that had been lingering in his heart for the past eleven years, "If the person who fell and died on that day was me, would everyone feel better?"

But he still didn't dare to ask, if it was me who died, would you forget all my mistakes and remember only my only goodness? But has he ever had a "good" in Ju Nian's heart? No? That doesn't matter, she can remember him. If he dies, will she remember him?

Ju Nian turned her face to look at the vehicles whistling by the main road. The festival lanterns and the exquisite and bright windows on the side made her look pale. He said the word "death", which was shocking and forced her to recall the separation between heaven and man at that time. If the person who died was Han Shu... Is there any if in the world? Can he rewrite his destiny? Can he exchange her for her little monk?

"Han Shu, you still don't understand. I haven't understood it for a long time, so I was far more sad than you at that time. I blamed my fate for me. When I stood in court and listened to the verdict, I hope that all of you will go to hell and will not die well... But I don't hate you so much now, do you know why? Because in these eleven years, I finally figured out one thing. Do you think you are the culprit, but you are not, and you are not, not your godmother, even Chen Jiejie and her parents, the owner of the hotel, and Lin Henggui, are not... You are not that important. In fact, it is us, Wu Yu and I who have reached the current situation step by step. Even without you, would I be happy forever?"

After saying this, Ju Nian burst into tears in front of Han Shu. Over the years, she rarely looked at her tears in this way. Isn’t every day accumulating countless yesterdays? She and Wu Yu walked through youth step by step, are they all wrong? If she was not so cowardly and stubborn, if Wu Yu was not so young and impulsive, if they were not eager for that little bit of insignificant love, if they believed that they were not caterpillars but but butterflies, would the tragedy be rewritten? There may be many kinds, but there is no if.

As she said to Han Shu, there is no if in life. The people in "if" are not Wu Yu and Ju Nian. This world is so realistic, and they have always been too naive. Ju Nian wants to deceive herself and make herself believe that it is almost a little bit short. Without Han Shu, Chen Jiejie, and all the meaningless people, she and Wu Yu will never be separated. But that can only be a vacuum world in the dream. Two caterpillars underground, one just wants to snuggle silently in silence, and the other yearns for another world. Perhaps from the beginning, one is destined to look back and be in a shoreless way, and the other is unable to run in the darkness; and the pomegranates on the martyrs' cemetery and the loquats in the yard are finally looking at each other, that's all.

Han Shu didn't expect Ju Nian's tears. He wanted to reach out to wipe it, but he didn't dare, just as he was afraid that Ju Nian would hate him, and she wouldn't hate him.

Han Shu's words were extremely bitter, "Is it that difficult for me to have an opportunity to make up for it?"

Ju Nian cried and said, "What can you give me? I've been living a good life for eleven years. If you really feel sorry for me, then you should hope that I will live a happy life. Why bother to disrupt my relationship with Tang Ye? Do you think my happiness can only be compensated by you?"

Han Shu was speechless. He always told himself that only by being kind to her could he make up for his mistakes back then. Then he plunged in, but Xie Junian woke up the dreamer with one word.

Can I only rely on your compensation for my happiness?

The short car horn sounded, Ju Nian and Han Shu looked over when they heard the sound, and Tang Ye's car stopped far away on the other side of the road.

Ju Nian was scrubbing the tears left on her face in a hurry, "I'm leaving."

Han Shu remembered the jokes she had made before, yes, Tang Ye lost to him again? At the dinner table, how tacit and intimate they were, why did he never think that another man could also give Ju Nian a good life?

Ju Nian pulled out the hand that Han Shu had grabbed, and the sound of horn sounded again. Perhaps Tang Ye noticed Ju Nian's predicament, and worried, he pushed open the car door and walked out. Han Shu was panicked and confused. When the only "compensation" he could give became extremely pale, he didn't know what else he could do. In desperation, he tightened his hand and grabbed Ju Nian's hand in vain.

"Listen to me, listen to me..."

The endless stream of vehicles blocked Tang Ye's pace of crossing the road.

His sweaty hands made her forget the coldness.

Ju Nian calmed down at this time and looked at Han Shu steadily.

"Okay, you said..."

Han Shu opened her mouth, but found that she was speechless. What should he say? Every possibility that a woman like Xie Juinian could say was blocked by her at the beginning.

But Han Shu had no choice but to blame her. She stood there quietly and gave him enough time to express everything.

Say it, Han Shu.

Tang Ye finally trotted through the gap between the car.

Say, say, what do you want to say?

What exactly do you want to say?

Another man approached step by step.

The eloquent Han Shu hated his slutty words so much for the first time.

This time, if Ju Nian broke apart one by one, Han Shu grabbed her fingers.

Her eyes were slightly red, which was the trace of tears shed before.

When Ju Nian's hands finally regained their freedom, she said, "Han Shu, just let yourself go, let me go."

Before Tang Ye walked to Ju Nian and Han Shu hesitantly, Ju Nian turned his head and walked towards him.

"I'm sorry." Ju Nian realized that his crying eyes attracted Tang Ye's attention, and he slightly turned his head away and whispered.

Tang Ye smiled and walked across the road with his hands protecting her shoulders. Before getting on the bus, he looked back in the direction of Han Shu. On the chilly night, Han Shu held his coat with one hand, and such a proud man, as lonely as a street light.

Ju Nian sat in the passenger seat beside Tang Ye, listening to the sound of him starting the car, silent for a long time, and said, "I'm sorry, I messed up today's dinner."

Tang Ye focused on the road conditions ahead, and after a while he replied, "Why did you think this way? You did nothing wrong."

Ju Nian stared at her fingers, "I'm a woman who has been in jail."

Tang Ye glanced at her and said straightforwardly as she was, "I am a man who loves men."

After they finished speaking, they didn't say anything for a while. After a while, Ju Nian laughed dryly. Tang Ye was stunned and even laughed. Under this absurd self-introduction, they seemed to have a new relationship.

"Are you in a hurry to go back?" Tang Ye asked Ju Nian.

Ju Nian shook her head, she didn't live in the school tomorrow, so she wouldn't go home tonight.

"There are many people everywhere tonight, so why not let's go to a quieter place."

The car carried them all the way to the outskirts of the city, and there were brisk Christmas songs on the radio. The place where Tang Ye took Ju Nian was not beautiful. There were construction sites around him, and his car was parked by a small mud pond.

Tang Ye seemed a little surprised, "Last time, the water in this pond was still very green, and there were a lot of fish inside."

Ju Nian looked around the pond and gradually felt familiar, and she understood a little.

"This is 'Looking at the river pond and sleeping against the wind'?"

Tang Ye laughed, "I saved a lot of effort to talk to you. Yes, I used to come here to fish... Of course, it was not alone..." He knew that the Ju Nianhui understood, so he didn't explain much, and then continued, "It won't take long to be converted into a hot spring resort."

"Is this here?" Ju Nian was also a little surprised. She was actually not unfamiliar with this area. There was a river just two kilometers ahead. After crossing that river, it was a small temple. In the past, she and Wu Yu had asked for it in that temple. No, they had signed it secretly. At that time, the vicinity was still very desolate. The change of things and people were not enough to describe this change, and the city also changed.

Tang Ye nodded, "I personally submitted this land for approval." He said and laughed again, "I originally planned to take you to try the taste of night fishing. I brought all the fishing gear. It seems that there is no fish. But since I have come, it's better to breathe fresh air and look at the stars."

He rocked the seat and half-lying to look at the sky outside the windshield. Seeing that Ju Nian was sitting in a daze, he put down the back of the chair for her and signaled her to lie down.

This half-lying posture made Ju Nian feel uncomfortable at the beginning. She stared at the sky outside the glass with concentration, and then smiled as she looked at it. There were no stars, but nothing except the looming clouds.

Tang Ye was a little embarrassed and explained: "The last time I came, there were many stars... I was probably a hopeless pedantic person."

Ju Nian closed her eyes and said, "No, I saw a lot of stars, and the Milky Way."

"Is that true?" Tang Ye also imitated her and closed his eyes.

"Do you know why the plane doesn't hit the stars when it flies in the sky?" Ju Nian asked.

"Um?"

Without waiting for Tang Ye to answer, Ju Nian continued to say, "Because the stars will 'flash'."

"Oh...so that's it." Tang Ye nodded.

Ju Nian smiled and opened her eyes to look at him, "Please, I'm telling a joke."

"Haha, it's quite interesting." Tang Ye smiled a few times with shame.

On the contrary, Ju Nian finally laughed at her shockingly cold joke. She remembered Wu Yu. Wu Yu was always slowing down on Ju Nian's cold jokes. Sometimes he didn't know what it meant, and he laughed very well. Sometimes many days later, he laughed "splash" in front of Ju Nian and said, "I know what your joke means, hahaha."

Tang Ye looked at Ju Nian's eyes that were softened by memories, although there were still tears. He closed his eyes again and asked slowly: "Do you think the stars we see when we close our eyes are real?"
To be continued...