I joined the VIP on the 30th, and it has been 12 days since now. I have started to update the public version again, as if I have a different life, and I have said a few nonsense.

I have seen a lot of things recently. Because a famous online literature competition was not very open, I went to help with the preliminary review. I read many love stories and learned a lot of ideas from others. Suddenly I felt that I was a little unreasonable and some ideas were too extreme. Perhaps what most people want may not be what I want. More often, we have to consider the integrity of life, including the connection with others.

The novel has written more than 200,000 words, and I am very dissatisfied with it because it has not successfully restored some details of life. It has only one-sidedly retraceed some memories from the 1990s, and these memories may not be correct. But I believe that in each of us, there have been some beautified things in our hearts, and maybe these things will follow our lives. What I am writing now is only a small part, I just hope it can draw even a corner of your memory, allowing you to follow the clues and find your past.

A friend mentioned a special case of psychology to me. A person was removed from his memory organ during a brain surgery. All memories remained on the day before he was removed. Every morning, he woke up in a strange room and saw his strange face in the mirror. He looked at his gradually aging face in horror every day.

I think memory is still a good thing after all, it lets us know who we are, what we have done, and what concerns we have when we stay in this world.

People need memories.

Then, people need love, this is the conclusion I have read countless love novels recently.

People often don’t know what they want in life, so every choice is extremely painful, and our growth is often caused by this painful temper. I think it is a huge gain for me to be able to revisit some choices that have been passed down in life in writing. The stories are fictional, and the characters are also fictional, but I believe that many details are real, just as we can see passion and loyalty in fiction novels, and separation from life and death and love and hate in the ancient world. Over the past thousands of years, human beings have built some cities and organized some long journeys. At the farthest, they have taken a few steps on the moon, and they are still very close, and have no progress in their emotions. Therefore, novelists usually proudly announce that they find that human emotions are common. Every time they see such words, they can’t help but stretch their middle fingers in their hearts - isn’t this nonsense?

The various emotional similarities in our lives led to us being moved by the same content. A few days ago, a friend who lived abroad saw me online and mentioned the past. After everyone sighed and sighed, he went to read my novels. Finally, he didn't sleep all night in the book review area to finish all the reviews, threatening me that if I didn't complete the novel, I would turn to a seller and fly back from Europe to kill me. I was a little happy after being frightened. He was the same age as me, and even said that this kind of thing could still make people of their peers feel a little bit identity. I myself also think that the memories and feelings of those people in the book review area are much better than the broken novel I wrote... I would like to occasionally think that we should just write a post and not write it down... Well, if I say that, someone will definitely hit me, so I'd better update it honestly.

In short, I was moved by my friend's feelings that I had to talk to me in the middle of the night, so I decided to try to turn this novel into a creature that can promote women - but wait, I reduced the time difference by 7 hours in the middle of the night, isn't he just daytime? This liar who deceived my feelings...

The novel is indeed not very good, but I will work hard to complete it. I always feel that people have reviewed their lives countless times in their lives, but few people are willing to leave some bookmarks to prove that they have ever been in love. Now I am trying to try it because there are some people accompanying me, and I feel it is more interesting and happier. I hope this mood can accompany me until the novel is completed. Writing is undoubtedly lonely, but life is also lonely. That's why we gather here.

Starting tomorrow, VIP will be unbanned from time to time, and VIP will be updated at a faster pace. Please accompany me to complete it.

I hope.

Zhou Xingwen
Chapter completed!