Holding a dead person like me tightly, there is no warmth in my body for her to absorb.

I also had a relationship with her.

It's more comfortable to be with her than with that mature woman, because she really looks like Youye.

She also uses a variety of different styles to please herself.

But the only thing that can't be compared is that she is not as perfect as You Ye imitated. She also doesn't touch my heart that much. In other words, I don't have a heart now.

I don't want them anymore.

But it's strange, no matter what I say, they still love me as always.

Even if I say——

"I saved you because you look just like the person I love."

"Well, my wife."

"That's why I'm willing to sleep with you now."

"You're right, I did think of her even when I was doing it with you."

Why are you looking at me with such sympathetic eyes?

——

To be honest, I thought I would never fall in love with anyone.

But I thought wrong.

My feelings are simply superficial.

Even though I know that I still love Youye in my heart, I have fallen in love with them now.

What is gratifying for them is that they have asked tremblingly more than once, have they fallen in love with me now?

I answered yes.

But they didn't know I was sad.

I faced the same problem that You Ye once faced again. Who lives and who dies?

I will be honest about this issue.

They are all old.

"There's no need to feel bad about that."

"I...want to ask."

"Have you healed a little bit of the wounds in Master's heart?"

I answered yes.

She also died satisfied.

The person I love most after Youye is my apprentice. In addition, the mature woman has used her body to get to the top in the killer organization from the beginning, and is a second-hand commodity.

It's not that I dislike it.

It's because she has long been unable to love me wholeheartedly like the apprentice I taught step by step. She always believed that the greatest weapon a beautiful woman has in the world is her body. Of course, she did the same thing in the beginning, using her body to win over me.

Therefore, whether she betrays me or dies in front of me, I don't feel much.

But my apprentice died.

On that day, my heart probably became even more completely broken.

——

I froze her body and placed it in a foreign research institute for storage. I have a lot of money, not only from the murders I have saved over the years, but also from the huge wealth You Ye left behind.

I returned to China and had relationships with many different women in China.

To them, I seem to have a different kind of charm.

But when I look in the mirror, I just feel like a boring man.

How long did you live?

Anyway, the war broke out, and I had no intention of participating, so I found a place to hide.

When I came out again, the world had changed.

——

When I came to my senses again, I had become the leader of a gathering place.

But I don't understand anything.

The only thing I can understand is one thing.

I lied to my apprentice.

In fact, I never loved her at all, and I wasn't sad at all in the end.

The reason why I love her is still because she is very similar to Yu Ye.

I thought she might know that, so she would always ask me what kind of girl You Ye was.

This is cruel.

I buried her body and apologized at her grave.

——

I have been wandering for at least four hundred years.

Until I accidentally discovered the remaining facilities, that thing was really nonsense.

What can I say to go back to the past?

Really?

But my heart began to boil with the research report that was like child's play. Others could ignore it, but I, who read the file, as a monster, was willing to believe it with a glimmer of hope.

Now that I think about it, where did the monster respond to Lin Jie?

Probably, it was me who responded to Lin Jie in the world four hundred years later. But I am also a monster, so it is not wrong to say that a monster responded to him.

——

Anyway, I did go back to the old days.

Back to the past that haunts me.

But so what?

I saw my useless self hiding here and there, and I saw my useless self crying and saying that I didn’t want to continue.

Because he is me, I can understand. So I want to kill him.

The first thing I did when I went back in time was that I actually killed myself many times.

I didn't think about grandma's rebuttal or anything like that, I was just venting.

But my future self is not dead.

But from that time on, there were many ‘Is’, both false and real.

Some were made by my interference, and some were made by him on his own.

I communicated with those remaining shadows in the world after his death. Why are they called shadows?

Probably because I don't want to call them real things at all.

I want to treat her as the real thing, but I can't.

It seems she can't do it either.

She didn’t think I was ‘him’. So I killed her too.

I followed myself through many routes, just like reading toilet paper novels that were obviously not interesting, but kept clicking because I didn’t want to look for anything else.

——

At first, I interfered just for fun.

Because I met my old friend, Xia Xianyue.

I want to see what will happen to my ‘me’ with a little change?

The result is a love triangle.

I find it interesting.

‘I’ published a novel, and I became an editor, which was a wonderful relationship. But it was rare for me to be interested.

I watched myself grow little by little and gradually began to become a completely different person from myself.

to be honest.

I'm jealous.
To be continued...