For a moment, I felt like I couldn't stay here anymore. Ah, it sounds like claustrophobia, right?

Strong emotions drove me to pick up a cigarette and a lighter, desperately open the door and leave the one-bedroom apartment.

It wasn't like this at first.

At first...Xia Xianyue lived in a high-end apartment. She said she wanted to move here because of her work. With her salary level and family, she would never live in such a place. It was just because of herself.

"Crack."

I lit a cigarette, as if I was desperately trying to get warmth because it was too cold.

Someone sent me a message on WeChat.

[Brother Yao, there is a football match today! Why don’t you come and take a gamble? 】

[There is insider information saying that Barona will win! It’s absolutely true!]

Because I am garbage, I know all kinds of garbage people.

Why didn’t I realize this until now?

I cleared WeChat and my contacts.

After smoking four or five cigarettes, I returned to that house and tidied up the house with an uneasy mood. Although she had done a good job with the housework and had washed her clothes before going to work, I just put the remaining

The dishes and chopsticks were cleaned to this extent.

She is very busy at work.

He only comes back to have lunch with me when he has free time. Other than that, we eat breakfast and dinner together.

Whenever I don't come back, I will be given a generous lunch fee.

I used to use this money to buy the cheapest fast food, and then use the remaining money to buy Shuangseqiu.

I did the same thing today, and even bought meals, biscuits and mineral water that were cheaper than fast food.

I also passed by the lottery shop, and the owner inside greeted me with a fake smile.

But I know that he looks down on me.

He knew that I lived off women and used women's money to gamble.

I had never cared about such a gaze before, but today it seemed to sting me especially. I didn't have the confidence to talk to him any more, so I just left on the pretext that something happened.

"Today...is this?"

Xia Xianyue came back slightly tired and was a little surprised to see the table full of dishes.

"Ah, I unexpectedly found out that I still had some money left, so I was thinking if I could reward you or something."

"Reward me?"

His obviously happy face also made me uncomfortable.

In the end, it's still her money and she's still a parasite.

"By the way, didn't Ah Yao say that we need some money?"

"I tried to advance my salary today, and the manager agreed to advance it to me."

She took out her phone and transferred the money to me without hesitation.

"you--"

I didn't look at my phone, but swallowed hard, "Aren't you worried that I will gamble with it again and it will be in vain?"

"A Yao said he wouldn't do it, so he definitely won't do it."

“Sweet and sour pork ribs are delicious, right?”

"Ah Yao's level is so high, I feel like my fatigue is gone in no time."

“···”

I held my phone and never looked at the transfer information. I was silent for a long time.

"Ah Yao?"

She finally stopped her chopsticks and looked at me intently, "Are you worried about something? If you have any pressure, just say it. Don't hold it in your heart. It will be very tiring."

You are the one.

Don't you really feel tired?

Is there really hope for someone like me?

Do you understand that your boyfriend is a scumbag who has fallen into a bottomless pit of filth?!

"I will look for a job starting tomorrow."

"Really? That's great. I'll cheer for Ah Yao."

"I will really find a job, and I will never gamble again with money."

"Well, I absolutely believe in Ah Yao. If you have any questions, you can tell me."

Got it.

Before I said it, I knew that she would answer with the same words as before.

But how many times did she say she would really go there, and how many times did she send her hard-earned money into a bottomless pit afterwards.

Only this time it’s true. Even I don’t have the confidence to say this myself.

I kept silent and ate the dinner with her in silence.

The next day I took the money and the thought of going to a certain store seemed to come to my mind uncontrollably.

"Crack."

I gave myself a slap in the face.

I carefully looked at the recruitment website and selected and contacted several interview locations.

"You... can't do this."

"My work experience is a bit lacking. Have you not worked in the past few years?"

"Ah, because... someone at home is sick, so I have been taking care of him before he came out."

"Although it is very commendable, what we need here is people with preferably more than three years of work experience. I'm sorry."

"It doesn't matter···"

“···”

I'm 27 years old.

But my work resume is blank, and I’m past the age of a fresh graduate. Even if the salary requirement is lowered, no one is willing to hire me easily.

I failed the interviews for three consecutive days.

I don’t know if I’m the type who gets more courageous as I get frustrated, but now I want to escape, and I think of the mentality I had when I made a bet.

"Pah, pah, pah—"

"Cuckoo-"

I slapped myself wildly and gritted my teeth.

The empty wardrobe came to mind again, as well as the gentle sight and movement.

"Don't be too tired? It won't be good if your body is exhausted. You don't have to worry about work."

"I'm still here."

The more tenderly she treats me, the harder it is for me to face it.

Although I don't know how long I can persist this time, I never want to give up now.

I put aside my pride and face and asked my friends for help.

They say they are friends, but actually, where do I have any decent friends?

The only male friend I still have contact with is Mo Yiyi, Lin Xiaowan's boyfriend.

He once frankly persuaded me to turn back my prodigal son and introduce me to a job, but I only agreed verbally and continued later. He stopped paying attention to me.

Speaking of which, Lin Xiaowan hated himself very much.

"It would be better for a trash like you to be hit by a car and die sooner."

Because of me, she and Xia Xianyue had many quarrels. But I knew in my heart that that person really cared about Xia Xianyue.

I don’t know if Mo will still consider me a friend now, but I really asked him to.

fortunately.

He really came and didn't look at me like he looked down on me.

"No matter what, he is Xiaowan's good friend."

"If you are asking me to borrow money, I will definitely refuse. But if it changes for the better, I will be happy to help."
To be continued...