"Actually, I like you very much."

"It is not the love between friends, nor the love of mutual salvation, but the love of lovers."

"It seems that this is the first time I'm so concerned about a girl."

“So…”

"Although it's a bit sudden, are you willing to be my girlfriend?"

“···”

It's really sudden.

I never imagined that the seniors would be willing to confess their love to me after they were now alienated by me.

“Woo…”

I thought I had long cried and tears fell again.

The senior did not do anything else to me, just got into the bed and hugged me gently.

whispered in my ear.

"I haven't been idle for this period of time."

"I've gone to explore why you suddenly kept your distance from me."

"Sorry... I did these things without authorization."

"But I finally figured out what you have to do with alienating me."

"That's all right?"

"I confessed my love and it has nothing to do with you."

"Ah... It's not right to say this."

"I can only say that I took the initiative to confess my love and you accepted it passively. You are not the only sinner, I am the mastermind."

"But I want to know, too."

"Do you have to take care of so much when choosing the person you love? Although I think Jasmine is very good, I always treat her as a good student with both good character and academic performance."

"If she confesses to me, I will probably refuse before meeting you."

"I can be like this because I have accomplished two-way redemption with you."

"The plan I gave you to die was actually prepared for me. Rather than saying that I saved you, you pulled me out of the abyss."

"First become friends, then gradually find that you are cute, interesting and attracted by your inner self in daily life."

"Promise me, don't be stuck in my heart anymore. As long as we work together, there will definitely be more solutions than difficulties."

"us···"

"But the companions who crawled out of the abyss that almost died are now lovers."

“···”

I didn't say anything, but just gently rubbed the senior's back with my hands that were still wrapped in bandages.

"Don't it hurt?"

I still didn't answer, just blocked the senior's mouth with my lips.

He guided his hands to the cafeteria of my not huge. I want to get more warmth from my seniors.

——

I still feel guilty.

But with the encouragement of my senior, I began to face myself. I couldn't tell Jasmine in person, and the senior suggested that I write an email.

Under the gaze of my senior, I confessed everything about me to Jasmine.

The letter was delivered, I checked the read receipt, and she would receive a prompt after reading it.

I received the prompt, but didn't receive a reply immediately.

I came over for half a month in trepidation before I received Jasmine's reply again.

【I see.】

[Silly, what's the big deal about this kind of thing? Since the teacher likes you and confesses to you, that's of course a good thing.]

[Don't take it to heart. It just seems that I just fell in love with someone else and immediately broke up.]

[Why would you ask the teacher for me if you want to consider dating two girlfriends at the same time? I think it would be no big deal to share a boyfriend with Xiaoqing?]

[Ha, kidding. In short, don’t take it seriously. If you interact with the teacher well, he is indeed a good person, I feel relieved.]

Jasmine is really good, she didn't blame me at all.

I started to keep a regular contact with her again.

When did it start?

When the senior entered the workplace, I successfully reached my sophomore year. I found that the senior was very close to a female senior, and I found that a junior girl other than me was very close to him.

My ugly possessiveness caused me to ask my senior to replace the wallpaper on my phone with her photo, and let him post photos of me and him on a date with my friends circle at work.

This alone does not prevent me from loathing women who are very close to seniors. Although I clearly know that seniors have never done anything out of the ordinary.

What exactly is it like?

I still can't build an ordinary friend relationship with others. I care more and more about seniors. I'm thinking about seniors no matter whenever I'm at it.

"You can't do this, you still have to open up interpersonal communication and make more friends."

"I am very happy if I am the only one, but at least there must be a few friends who can speak like Jasmine, right?"

“···”

Jasmine said she was busy with graduation project for a long time and hadn't contacted me.

The senior worked very hard and spent less time with me.

Finally, I endured it and entered the workplace.

But I was not going well everywhere and had the ability, but the reason for being fired every time must be to say that I was not good at handling interpersonal relationships, which affected the company's atmosphere.

But soon I tried to work in Jasmine style with the comfort of my senior, and soon I also achieved results.

I restrained myself, buried my extremely ugly possessiveness, and worked hard to become a cheerful woman in the direction I said. I imagined that my senior and I finally got together and I could become better.

Um.

It was on a very normal day when I suddenly received a call from Jasmine.

But it was not Jasmine on the phone, but her family.

[Jasmine left you a last word, and I hope we will hand it over to you after she dies.]

【Also, even if Jasmine wants us not to blame you.】

【But it is really difficult to deal with. If it weren’t for you, our daughter would have lived for at least several more years.】

【···】

It was only then that I realized that the wounds on Jasmine's face had never healed because she was always staring at her face with a terrifying wound in the mirror.

Jasmine didn't go abroad to study, but stayed at a top-level A hospital in China for treatment.

She had a disease and had to undergo surgery in advance for my reasons.

Before she died, the only gift I received before her surgery was the news that my senior and I were about to get engaged.

She finally responded to me in a gentle tone on the phone, "You must live a happy life, come on~fighting~"

"ah···"

I read it all in the suicide note.

She told me not to blame myself.

She told me that she couldn't live long, and if she really died, it would be nice to be able to meet her best friend before she died to be happy.

She told me that she was happier than someone who didn't live long like her. She was actually very selfish.

She said that she was very glad to be my friend, to watch me get better little by little, and to see me get happiness.

She said, hoping that after she died, I could occasionally go to her tombstone and tell her the story of me and her senior.

···

It's still a normal day.

【Be careful on the road, and the road is smooth.】

[By the way, I will pick you up in the afternoon, and I will take you to a good place. I have prepared a surprise for you.]

Although it was a surprise, I had known for a long time that my senior planned to take me to try on the wedding dress, and bought a proposal ring to give it to me. I also spent a lot of money to hire a small band.

"The senior is really nice to me and very gentle."
To be continued...