Chapter one hundred and eighty suicide
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"Brother, do you want to drink water?" A Xue's soft voice came, and I was lying on the hospital bed with my face covering my face.
"No." I said tiredly.
Hearing my rejection, A Xue seemed to hesitate for a while, but after a while, I still heard the clear sound of pouring water. In a moment, A Xue's gentle voice came again:
"Brother, drink a little. The police just found you to record your confession. Although you didn't say much, you must be tired and thirsty..." Then, I felt a cold glass touching the back of my hand.
The smooth, cold glass touched the back of my hand, but suddenly reminded me of the scene where the dwarf named Chou Ge splashed on my face with a bottle full of sulfuric acid. I couldn't help but swung my entire arm out uncontrollably.
"I—say—no—want!!" I roared angrily, and knocked out the water cup that A Xue handed over.
Bang.
The crisp sound was accompanied by the sound of water splashing on the ground.
Suddenly.
The whole room was in a suffocating silence.
It was not until ten seconds later that A Xue suddenly let out a delicate and powerless cry, breaking the peace.
A Xue began to cry loudly, and she was out of control. She cried so helplessly and so powerlessly, as if she had opened the river bank where the gates were opened.
When I heard A Xue's crying, my heart ached, but I had no choice.
"I'm sorry, Axue..." I murmured with guilt, "Brother is in a bad mood...Brother, he is already a useless person..."
“Mmmmm…”
Axue still sobbed and cried so sadly that my heart was as if it were a knife.
I gritted my teeth and supported my body, leaning against the back of the hospital bed. I turned my head slightly, trying to reach out, grab Axue's wrist, and comfort her like before.
Comfort her like a brother who can shelter her from the wind and rain.
But, it is no longer possible.
His fingertips hovered in the air, then slowly retreated, never touching the warm and soft little hands again.
When I withdrew my hand, I found that the trembling of my fingertips could not be stopped.
"Axue, go home." After a long silence, I finally said this gently.
"..." A Xue's voice paused for a second, but then the crying became louder. "Brother, why did God treat us like this... Why did Sister Yanyan leave first... Now even brother, you are like this... And mom... Even my mother's condition has worsened... Why did God treat our family like this... We have all been like this! Ummm..."
Listening to A Xue's almost desperate cry, my heart trembled. Especially when I heard the news that my mother's condition had worsened, I felt like I was struck by lightning.
"Mom...what is wrong?" I asked in a low voice, but my heartbeat began to accelerate. "Axue?"
"Brother... Mom, since the day you were kidnapped, your condition has been very serious. You are half-dry every day, and you can't even get out of bed..."
boom.
My brain buzzed. Unexpectedly, because of me, my mother's condition had worsened to this point. Usually, due to brain tumors, although my mother was drowsy most of the time, she could at least get up and eat, or walk around the house, and even go to the toilet to clean and do simple housework. But now, according to A Xue, she can't even get into bed. Such a situation is probably a sign of the worsening brain tumor condition...
"My mother's condition has worsened? Then...she knows my situation now?"
"No... I just got home when I received a call from the doctor's phone..." A Xue's voice lowered a little.
However, I also heard that Axue's meaning was just that my mother didn't know the situation for the time being. If it took a long time, she would definitely guess that something happened to Axue. Moreover, she couldn't be left without someone to take care of her.
"Go home. I can take good care of myself. Axue. Go home to take good care of my mother. I am in a much calmer mood now and can take good care of myself. You can go home first." I tried to slow down my voice and comforted Axue. "Don't tell my mother what I am now. If my mother knows, she will be even more sad, and her condition will only worsen."
While talking, I pretended to be calm and said:
"Axue, you are no longer the little girl who needed my comfort and my brother to take care of you. Can you take good care of yourself, right?"
"Brother...you...?"
"Go home first. My brother has figured it out now. Life is more important than anything else. I will live well. Although I am blind, my limbs are healthy, but my mother cannot be taken care of. The Fox Fairy is gone, Axue, you are the only one. You can't take care of us both, right?"
A Xue kept silent, and after a while, A Xue nodded lightly.
"Then go back." I said seriously to Axue. "Call me after you get home."
"Brother... are you... Are you serious? Why...I think you are... so abnormal." A Xue asked me with some concern, as if she noticed something from my words.
"Haha, what's the abnormal thing? There is no obstacle that cannot be overcome in life. Brother, I just saw through it. I am still so young, but I'm just blind. Maybe I have a chance to transplant the cornea in the future, haha. Go back."
I pretended to be like a mountain that was never green in my life, inspiring Axue and giving her little confidence.
Axue was silent again.
"Brother, what are you thinking?" Axue asked me with some concern.
"What can I think? Don't think too much, go home and look forward to my mother first. Come again tomorrow." I waved my hand and drove Axue away.
"But……"
"What if something happens to my mother? I'm in the hospital, at least there are doctors, what about mom?" I sternly said.
In the end, maybe because my posture was quite tough, Axue was finally convinced by me.
"Then brother... you must take good care of yourself. You have to hold on, I will find a way to inquire about the cornea for you... I will come to see you tomorrow morning... It must!"
"Well. Bring me some white rice porridge and add some shredded eggs." I smiled and nodded. Although I knew that my facial expression was extremely difficult to see at this moment.
Axue promised me. Almost twenty seconds later, I heard Axue getting up to sort out the objects. After about five seconds, I heard the door of the ward being turned open, and then Axue's footsteps were gone.
When my heart suddenly sank when Ah Xue's footsteps were gone.
The sound of A Xue leaving was the biggest signal for me. After hearing this footstep, I immediately got up from the hospital bed, and then reached out and stretched out the needle inserted on the back of my hand to touch the little hanging bottle.
I carefully removed the hanging bottle.
After confirming that there were no outsiders near the ward, I pulled out the needle on the back of my hand, and then used the needle to pry open the bottom of the soft plastic drop bottle, and drank all the saline inside without leaving a drop. Saline is the purest saline, and drinking it is not much different from drinking ordinary water. It is also difficult for the hospital to find evidence of my crime.
After the salt water bottle became shriveled, I pointed my mouth at the mouth of the drip bottle, and slowly blew the turbid air in my mouth, making the drip bottle bulge again.
Afterwards, I used my fingers to touch the artery in my right arm and inserted the needle into my artery. The palm of my left hand carefully blocked the bottom of the bottle to prevent the air from leaking out.
A simple and perfect air needle was completed like this.
Injecting 60-150ml of air or carbon dioxide into the human artery will cause bubbles to enter the pulmonary artery and embolize them in small branches of the pulmonary artery. Small bubbles can also pass through small branches of the pulmonary artery and capillaries to the left atrium, causing some organs of the systemic circulation to be embolized, which will eventually lead to poor blood circulation in the heart and death of myocardial infarction.
In this way, I can create a perfect illusion of medical accidental death.
And long before today, in order to prevent accidents, I had already purchased 2 million Xinhua high-insurance insurance for myself. The beneficiaries were Axue and me.
As long as I die unexpectedly, A Xue can get 2 million yuan in funds, plus about 100,000 to 200,000 yuan in hospital medical compensation.
This is the money I will never make even if I do blind massage in the rest of my life.
I'm going to commit suicide.
A Xue, I can’t take care of my mother and me at the same time.
2 million, this is also the last legacy that I, as my brother, can give A Xue.
【Third update】
Chapter completed!