In fact, Matou Zouken had forgotten her image a long time ago, and even for a period of time, Matou Zouken had completely forgotten her outline in his mind.

It wasn't until one day when Matou Zōyan saw the woman named 'Lise Feil' that those memories that had been chosen to be forgotten gradually came back to life in his mind.

"Justeza, if you see me now, I'm afraid you won't recognize me."

Matou Zangyan whispered: "As I get older, the changes are getting bigger and bigger. Compared with myself when I was young, I can be two different people..."

At this point, Matou Zangyan suddenly showed a mocking smile.

I am deceiving myself again.

How could she not recognize herself? It was just that she was afraid in her heart, afraid that she would see her like this.

With her personality, the so-called changes in appearance are always secondary, and the most important thing is the changes in the heart.

But I, Matou Zangyan, am no longer the same person I used to be.

Matou Zōyan recalled something he did when he returned to his family after leaving Germany.

Although at the beginning, he restrained his actions because of his "really true thoughts" and insisted on using fair and honest means to maintain the operation of the family.

But as time went by, until the burden of the entire family was piled on him alone, he had to use some special means to accomplish certain things.

"Only this one time."

This is what my younger self thought.

But things often happen only once and countless times.

Once you draw the bow, there is no turning back.

"Justeza, I'm sorry, I always seem to make some mistakes that I shouldn't make."

A bitter smile appeared on Matou Zangyan's face.

"That guy Kotomine Kirei is right. People like us have stood up at the expense of others. What is fair and what is justice, as long as we stand in this position, those things have nothing to do with us.

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Let’s read again the experience of Matou Zangyan in the play.

Extremely ridiculous and extremely sad.

Matou Zouken had read the story of the dragon slayer who finally became a dragon. He didn't know how many times he had read it, but this time, he felt more in his heart than before.

Is it because of Justeza?

Or is it because of the familiar experience between Matou Zouken and me?

Matou Zangyan felt a little scared when he thought of this.

After all, humans are animals that easily forget their original intentions, and once they forget, it is difficult to pick them up again.

Just like back then, because I saw a little bit of myself in Emiya Kiritsugu, and because of Justice, I gave Emiya Kiritsugu a chance and pulled him out of the whirlpool of dereliction of duty.

He stood up and even tried his best to shape him into an almost perfect hero to comfort himself.

But even so, his decayed soul still didn't cause any ripples, as if it was completely dead.

"If I had chosen to stay in Germany, choose to stay with her, grow old with her, and die with her, wouldn't it be a very happy thing?"

Matou Zangyan stared at the half photo in his hand speechlessly.

It would be great if I could see you again...

I have obviously made an agreement with you to return to Germany to see you when I finish my work.

Now that I have broken my promise, you will definitely blame me.
Chapter completed!