I suddenly became nervous: "I was in my dream - what did I say?"

Liu Saner hesitated for a moment and said slowly: "You have been saying in your dreams - why don't you let you go, and you still say you are yourself-"

Looking at his eagerness to speak, I asked softly: "What else am I talking about myself?"

“…”

He looked at me with his eyes flashing, looking so naive and full of unbearableness. After a long time, he said in a hoarse voice: "You said yourself, why aren't you really dead?"

My face suddenly turned pale.

I don’t know what dream I had. All the dreams were blurred, but in the blur, I could feel my fear and helplessness, but I didn’t expect that I would say all my fear and helplessness, and all of them were heard by San'er.

Will my past, those unbearable pasts, still be presented to him?

Thinking of this, I just feel like my heart is twisted.

Liu San'er looked at my pale face, hesitated for a while, and slowly said, "Qingying, why? I think you seem to be afraid of Mr. Yuan."

“…!”

As soon as I heard his words, my heart beat hard, and the blood in my body suddenly solidified, looking at him with a hint of horror before the collapse. Perhaps because the two of them were closely attached to each other, he could feel my heartbeat, so he didn't say that sentence any more.

But, there is no need to continue.

My expression seems to have explained a lot of problems.

The atmosphere became a little stiff.

After being silent for a while, he seemed to have made up some idea, slowly sat up, supported his hands on both sides of my body, leaned down and looked at me with his dark eyes: "Qingying, I have never asked you about your past, because I know that you must have suffered a deep injury. Let you think about it again, just let you suffer another injury. So I never ask you because I don't want you to think about those things again."

I slowly raised my head, looked at him, and my voice trembled slightly, "Now, do you want to ask?"

“…Are you willing to say it?”

I looked into his eyes, and my heart was trembling.

I never want to tell him my past, even now, because those pasts are too unbearable, I don’t want him to know about my past injuries, and because I want to be a brand new person.

But now, my past is right in front of me, with only a layer of window paper left, which can be broken with one stab. Maybe I should tell him.

But when I recalled that night at the gate, Pei Yuanhao looked at me and the last sentence he said-

"It is not a good thing for everyone to speak out my identity."

I know very well that this sentence was said to me. He threatened me not to talk nonsense, otherwise there would be no good things, that is, there would be something that would make me regret.

He will make me regret it, he has countless ways to make me regret it, make me suffer, and make me despair!

When I thought of this, I couldn't say anything in my heart and slowly lowered my head.

Seeing me like this, Liu Saner seemed to understand something. I heard his gentle sigh, then let go of me. As soon as I left his arms, a cold air immediately came and penetrated into the human skin. I could almost feel it in my heart. I gently stretched out my hand and hugged my body.

Is he... disappointed?

At this moment, he stretched out his hand and gently pulled the quilt up to me and tucked it. I was slightly stunned and looked up at him. He also sat by the bed and looked down at me. His eyes were still warm. Even when his hand gently stroked my cheek, he said, "Forget it."

“…”

"I also know that if a person's memory is too painful, he should not be allowed to recall it."

“…”

"Since you don't want to think about it, forget it."

“…”

After saying that, he put on his clothes and looked at his depressed back, I suddenly said, "San'er!"

He turned around and looked at me.

I took a deep breath and said, "I will tell you my past."

“…”

"But now, it's not time yet."

“…”

"When it comes time, I will tell you everything I have experienced."

He stood there quietly, looking at my eyes that were constantly flashing. After a long time, he finally showed a faint smile: "Okay."

I was relieved, too.

At this moment, I held up and wanted to see the small bed next to me, but it was empty inside. I hurriedly asked, "Where is Li'er? Why is Li'er not here?"

Liu San'er put on her clothes and said to me: "You have been sick these days and can't feed her, so I found a familiar elder sister in the town to help take care of her."

I was about to get out of bed as soon as I heard it, but for a few days, I was so weak that I felt a strong dizziness as soon as I sat up, and almost fell down. Liu Saner hurried over to help me and said, "Don't get out of bed."

"I, I want to see the child!"

"I will pick her up." He said, pressing me back to the bed and letting me lie down, pressing my shoulder and saying, "How do you go now?"

"I--"

"You will see it when I take the kid back, don't be anxious."

"……Um."

"I'm going, you have a good rest at home."

Although I was anxious to see the child, my body did not allow it. I could only nod and said, "Come back soon."

"Um."

He nodded, covered me with a quilt, and then went out.

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As soon as he left, the room became quiet, leaving only the breath that belonged to him, gentle and clean, as if the gentlest pair of hands were surrounding me.

I curled up in such a breath. It was supposed to be a quiet and happy moment, but I could not be quiet.

The appearance of that person was like a nightmare that suddenly woke up. When he woke up, the nightmare became true. What scared me even more was that he did not treat me like in every deepest nightmare. He was not even angry, not angry, nor what I feared the most - it was not good for Liu Saner.

But the more this happens, the more I am afraid.

He is not a slut, at least to me, but now he is like a sword hanging above his head. It has not fallen yet, but he doesn't know when it will cause a catastrophe.

I thought uneasy, and I don’t know how long it took, but the uneasiness in my heart made me unable to lie down again. So I slowly got out of bed, my hands and feet were weak, and it took a long time to clean myself up. After washing up, I slowly walked out with the wall and pushed open the door.

As soon as the door opened, a bitter cold wind blew.

The sky outside looked very gloomy, and the thick dark clouds above the head covered the entire sky, giving people a very depressing feeling. The wind was filled with a biting chill, which blew into people's hearts.

I felt a little overwhelmed, so I retreated and wanted to close the door.

But at this moment, a rapid sound of horse hooves and wheels came from the wind. A carriage was heading towards my home. It was the carriage that sent me and Liu Saner back that night.

When I saw it, I felt nervous, and the carriage stopped outside and got off from it. It was Changsui beside Pei Yuanhao. He pushed open the gate and walked in, walked to me, and said respectfully: "Madam."

I just felt that I couldn't stand steadily, so I held the door frame and looked at him pale: "What are you doing?"

"Master, please come over."

When I heard this, my heart suddenly sank. A more bitter wind blew, and I seemed to be a little unbearable. My nails pierced on the door panel and hurt a little: "He, what are he going to do?"

The man said lightly: "Master said, please go over and talk about the past."

Reminiscing the past?

When I heard these two words, it was like there was a needle in the wind, which made people feel pain in their hearts. I bit my lower lip and said, "I have nothing to say with him. I want to wait for my husband to come back, you go."

After saying that, I went back and prepared to close the door.

But just when I was about to close the door, the man said, "Since the lady doesn't go, I can only go and invite Mr. Liu."

My hands froze and I suddenly raised my head: "What did you say?!"

"The master ordered that if the wife didn't go, I'll go and invite Mr. Liu to the mansion."

My hands holding the door were almost trembling with spasm, and my joints were white, as if my fingers would break the next moment. The face, which was long and indifferent, seemed to be frozen by such cold temperature. I looked up at me without any ups and downs, took a step to the side, and said, "Madam, please."

I bit my lower lip tightly, finally slowly opened the door and walked outside step by step.

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The wind blew harder.

Sitting in the carriage, I was like a ghost who had lost my traction. I didn't know where the wind would blow to the next moment, but the biting temperature pierced into my heart. Even if I curled up in the corner and held my knees hard, I couldn't stop it.

I don’t know how long it took, but the carriage stopped. I was helped out and slowly walked into the mansion.

I have been here before, but maybe because there were no red lanterns that night, and no warm hands holding Liu Saner, I just felt that it was very cold here. It surrounded the mansion with the cold and hard breath of that person. When I walked in step by step, it was like walking into an ice cellar.

Then, I saw that person.

He was wearing a pitch-black robe, tied it casually behind his head, showing a bit of leisure and even lazy atmosphere. He sat next to the round table in the middle of the hall, but seemed to have not noticed that I had walked in, but looked at the hand he placed on the table, and his fingertips were gently rotating something.

The candlelight in the room swayed, shining on his fingertips, reflecting almost dazzling golden light.

My steps suddenly stopped.

That's - orchid buckle.

He gave it to me before, but I left it to Li'er, but was buckled by the orchid made of gold that Li'er refused.

He was looking at the small button in a daze, and even I had walked to the door without even seeing it. The hall was very quiet, as if because of him, the wind could not even blow in; the room was empty, with only a few candles, which seemed to have solidified at this moment. The candlelight shone on his face, half bright and half sunk in the shadow, but gave people an illusion of almost gentleness, especially when his eyes looked at the orchid, it seemed to be as gentle as water.

But I just feel cold.

The wind is getting colder and colder, and I am trembling slightly while standing in the wind.

At this time, he finally noticed my existence, turned his head to look at me, and a trace of smile appeared on his face.

"Qingying."

“…”

I stood stiffly at the door, looking at the orchid buckle on his fingertips. The orchid buckle that once touched me, but now only made me feel badly trembling.
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