When I heard this, I hurriedly lowered my head, turned around and ran away.

The person next to the window in the room had immediately ran to the window and looked outside. I didn't look back and hurriedly turned around the corridor of the backyard, but suddenly crashed into the front hall in a panic.

The man's shout just now scared the people around him. The people in the yard stood up in panic. Several people in the backyard also found me and ran in. They frightened the women in the building. They thought something big had happened, so they ran away.

At this moment, I don’t know who was so scared that he shouted: “My wife is here, run away!”

This sound was a bad thing, and everyone in the brothel was in chaos, screaming and screaming, the women were all yelling, and countless doors of the room were suddenly pushed open, and many people ran out before they even had time to put on their clothes, and some people shouted behind them—

"Hey, give me money, don't run away!"

"Damn, your wife doesn't want me when you come to your house, right? I'll beat you a careless man who is not promising!"

"Young Master, you want to come again, I'm waiting for you!"

The guests ran away and the girls made a fuss. The entire Suanxiangyuan was in chaos. The guards had no time to catch me. It was too late to protect the chaos on the scene. I took the opportunity to mingle among the crowd and hurried out.

Just as I was about to go out, I turned around in a chaotic crowd.

Just in the deepest part of the yard, the scholar wearing a foggy shirt stood quietly in the corner. Although there was chaos in front of him, his face was as calm as before. He looked at all this calmly, and his eyes looked at me like lightning.

I felt panic and my steps were immediately confused. I was pushed by the person behind and staggered and fell down, but I just avoided that gaze.

At this moment, a strong arm stretched out and hugged me.

I opened my eyes wide in horror. When I looked up, I met Liu Saner's dark eyes.

At this moment, there was a look of surprise on his face, as if he couldn't believe that I would appear here, but without hesitation, he carried me into his arms and pushed away the people around him.

The moment I threw myself into his arms, I was in a trance.

There is a kind of nightmare that will come into reality. No matter how far you go or how clean you forget the past, it will still break free from the ashes of time and strangle your throat.

Sometimes, even if you use the price of your life to escape, it appears that it is always behind you, like a shadow.

Just now, when I almost thought I was going to be swallowed by that nightmare again - he appeared.

I grabbed his clothes and hugged him tightly: "San'er!"

He hugged me, his hands were strong, but they were also trembling, and his voice trembled slightly: "It's okay, it's light, I'm here."

After saying that, he hugged me with one hand and pushed away the people around him with the other hand, not letting anyone hit me. He stumbled all the way, and finally came out in the crowd.

.

The fuss at the Suanxiangyuan continued until the evening, and it was said that many jokes in the town were also caused. The brothel girl and the wives and concubines who rushed to the news grabbed the man and fought in the street. Some girls even chased her and asked for money to the mansion.

Half of the town is in chaos.

But the initiator of all this, Liu Saner and I, were extremely quiet.

Along the way, neither of them spoke again and returned home. He hugged me and gently placed it on the bed. I still lowered my head and didn't say a word.

Liu San'er sat slowly on the edge of the bed and kept looking at me. After a while, he finally spoke and said in a low voice: "I'm sorry."

“…”

I looked up at him.

There was still a trace of shock left on his face, as if he was afraid of something, and reached out to grab my hand. I tried to pull it away slightly, but he grabbed it even tighter: "I'm sorry."

“…”

"Qingying, I know I shouldn't lie to you."

“…”

"I know, you will definitely not agree to go to that kind of place."

“…”

"But I really just go to work, and the wages are paid there. Although I wasn't willing to go to that kind of place in the past, but - I really like to hear what those people say."

“…”

The fingertips he held were cold. When I opened my mouth, the cold feeling dyed my voice in my heart: "Why?"

“…”

He fell silent, and I didn't ask anymore, just kept looking at him.

After a long time, Liu Saner finally said to me as if she had made up her mind: "Qingying, I wanted to read since I was a child because I didn't want to be blind; later, after you came, I wanted to learn literature to make myself worthy of you. You know so much, and being with you, I feel that I am really useless."

He said, with an embarrassing smile on his face.

My throat suddenly became hoarse and I couldn't speak.

I never thought that Liu Saner would be like this in her heart. After all, only one in ten thousand scholars in the Celestial Empire, there are many illiterate people, and more people are not learning literature, and not many people will be sad because of this. Even if I read thousands of books, have seen a lot and understood a lot, I may not necessarily make myself happy, or even suffer more than others.

I never knew that this would embarrass him.

"San'er, I--"

I subconsciously wanted to say something, but he gently covered my mouth and said, "But later, it was different."

"..." I was stunned and looked at him with wide eyes.

Liu Saner looked at me seriously and said, "Qingying, you were right before. The more you understood, the happier you might not be, but I didn't learn it just to make myself happier. Because I know more, people will not suffer without knowing themselves, and mistakes without reflecting on themselves. I don't want to live a confused life."

“…”

"Even if you don't have a good life, at least you know why you are not doing well."

“…”

When I heard him finish this sentence, a smile appeared on my face.

But at the same time, tears also spread from the heart.

I finally knew that I had always lived so dull and happy life, but I always felt uneasy in my heart. Where did that uneasiness come from?

He...he looks so much like his father and brother.

The same sober and the same persistence, even if they are in the mud, will not damage their tenacious souls.

Perhaps, all the pain and love sorrow I experienced in the first half of my life gave me the best luck in the rest of my life. I picked up a treasure and happened to meet the right and good person when I was in a desperate situation.

But this person has decisively embarked on a path that does not know the future.

I am happy and not willing to accept it.

Tears were almost spreading out of my eyes. I held his hand with my back hand, holding it tighter than him, and choked and said, "Liu Saner, right? Even if I want you to stop going there, you won't agree?"

"..." His face froze slightly.

"Will you still go there and continue to listen to those people preaching?"

“…”

"San'er..."

I looked at him almost begging, and Liu Saner's face twitched slightly. In those dark eyes, the most pure and direct eyes that were usually the purest and direct at this time, it seemed to be torn and struggling by some force.

After a long time, his lips opened slightly, his voice was a little dull, and he said, "Light."

“…”

"I want to live a little more sober."

As soon as I heard this, I felt like some obstruction in my heart collapsed at this moment. I closed my eyes almost helplessly, and hot tears immediately poured out of my eyes and wet my cheeks.

Liu Saner suddenly panicked and hurriedly squatted down. While calling my name, she wiped my tears with her rough thumb. But the tears seemed to flow continuously, and the more they wiped, it became more and more violent. In the end, he was almost flooded. He was helpless. He held my face and shouted in panic: "Qingying... Qingying, don't cry, what's wrong with Qingying... Qingying... Qingying..."

I couldn't speak, just shook my head, but the tears never stopped.

.

late at night.

Everything is quiet.

I lay on the bed, listening to the tranquility, as if everything in the world had disappeared, only the person beside me was left, and he sighed faintly.

He couldn't sleep either.

I turned my head gently and looked at Liu San'er on the ground. The moon was as cold as frost, shining on his clear eyes. Even in such a night, it was still shining brightly, even brighter than before.

What's wrong with him?

I knew that I was not a good wife. I married him with an unfaithful reputation, which made him look down upon a lot of people like this honest and straightforward person. After marriage, I had not finished my family and had nothing to do, and it was impossible to be intimate, but he did not mind at all. Instead, he followed me in everything. Although my life was not rich, it was the happiest time in my half life.

What he gave me was much more than what I gave him.

So what? After depriving him of so much, do I still have to force him?

"San'er..."

In the quiet night, although my voice was as low as a mosquito, it was like a thunder. He sat up and hurriedly lay down to the edge of the bed: "Light!"

I still lay on my side, looking at his face with a straight outline in the dark light, and said softly: "Go, I won't stop you."

A ecstasy light flashed in his eyes: "Light--!"

"But you have to promise me one thing."

"What did you say?"

I reached out my hand gently, grabbed his hand, and said, "No matter what they say or do, you are just a listener and don't have any connection with them."

“…”

"No matter what the world becomes, no matter how much you know, San'er, I hope you are my husband first, and then others. Is it OK?"

I don't understand what I said, and he is not stupid. What those people preach is not the "right way". Everyone knows what this means.

Liu San'er nodded quickly and said, "I promise you."

But I didn't say more about these four words, nor did I let him say more. I smiled faintly, held his hand and slowly closed my eyes.

But it was Liu Saner, who was still a little uneasy in her heart, lay on the edge of the bed and pressed against my cheek. After a long time, she said softly: "Qingying, are you really not stopping me anymore?"

I opened my eyes, looked at his eyes that were so close to me, and smiled.
Chapter completed!