In fact, when I was halfway through the typing, I suddenly received two messages. The first one was from QQ, wishing me a happy 20th birthday. The second one was a text message on my phone. My dad told me that my grandmother passed away yesterday. So I was in a complicated mood. Finally, after thinking about it, I simply stopped updating it for the time being. Let me tell you what I want to say now.

To be precise, I am a relatively unlucky person. When my grandfather died when he was six or seven years old, my grandmother began to fall into trouble after suffering a stroke. From the original big family, she gradually became deserted. In the end, only a few people were left quarreling about some messy things. Then, my parents divorced. My father was a very cold-blooded person. He told me that I should go to my mother. Then he disappeared in front of me with his box, and I never saw him again. My mother is a very kind person. No matter how bad I performed at the time, she still did not give up on me. It can even be said that I have not revenge on society now and it is entirely up to my mother. But no matter what, family relationships still affect my real life.

I became a flirting with school from the original winner of a five-good student certificate. I started to learn to fight, skip school and go online, pretending to be very powerful and acted like a little bitch with the children in the lower grades. Finally, I left the campus because of the beating and myself. At that time, I was in my first year of high school, and what I thought about was that I finally left the cage. Now I feel very regretful.

In fact, it is different from what many people think. For some reason, I am very unpopular by the people on my father's side. In fact, I am indeed a biological child, but just like I am not a biological child, I either beat or scold me. No matter what grades I do, I spent it in cursing. Even when I was young, I still vaguely remember that the reason my father's relatives beat me was because I did better than their children. By the way, the person who beat me was my grandmother.

My mother's side is the opposite. It can even be said that she is obedient to me and according to my preferences. During my rebellious period, I persuaded me with great sincerity, and even said that even if my son didn't go abroad, I would still support me in going abroad. So compared to my father's side, I hope to be on my mother's side.

Well, it’s better to go back to the topic of dropping out. After dropping out of school, I tried various jobs half a year after dropping out. But due to academic qualifications, all I could do was do odd jobs. In fact, this was very unstable, and it could even be said to be a complete deception. After dropping out, those so-called brothers began to disappear in front of you one by one, and you couldn’t even borrow a penny. People who claim to arrange jobs for you also rude for various reasons. In short, there is nothing good about it.

I dare not tell my mother because I think I have to make a fortune. So I gradually ran around and had a full meal. Every time I saw a luxuriously decorated home and looked at my own work outside, I felt a sense of shame torture me. It was like a poisonous snake gradually gnawing on my heart. So after an opportunity, I decided to start writing novels and embark on the road of professional novel authors.

After about half a year, I started to write novels while working. I gradually tasted the sweetness from novels because this thing can really be paid. In other words, the only thing that is given is the most enjoyable. I will not default or have no wages, so how much should it be. This is really charming for me. I started to raise my chest and look up at home, and even bought New Year's goods. I no longer just took money from home, but made contributions to my home. That day, I thought this was the beginning of my new life.

But I was actually wrong.

When my father started calling and asking me why I wasn't in school, an indescribable anger broke all my plans. I began to be manic and uneasy, and my mental state, which was not stable, became even more unstable. Even at work, I began to be a strong aggression. For these reasons, I began to be a resident at home who was living a life of scattered life. But some people didn't have to start writing and barely had enough food and clothing. And because of my childhood confidence in investing in stocks, I began to look for jobs everywhere, trying to escape from my home, invest, and then ran around China.

So an investment without a plan is a failed investment. I lost about 50,000 yuan, which is my own money. All the money I saved for a year disappeared. What’s even more annoying is that I spent a year on it. Money is still a small problem, but time is my main problem. During this year, I did nothing and everything was zero. Negatively, I started writing fandoms, writing fandoms when I had nothing to do, and writing fandoms when I was depressed, and using this place as my comfort center.

After I learned about my grandma's death today, I was not sad. Because I could even say that I hated her. She was a double-faced person and interfered with it to make my parents divorce. Maybe I thought the child didn't understand anything, but I really heard it clearly. But after all, I didn't arrange anything anymore. I just thought it was a bit interesting.

This day was my birthday, and the day before she died in her bed. It felt like someone was planning it. On the day before my birthday, my relatives and enemies died on that day. Is this God's ridicule of me or a gift from some mysterious person to me? I don't know, to be precise, I still feel a little confused now.

I don’t even know that I should be happy, or express my sadness slightly. Because for me, that person has become a symbol. After all, I haven’t seen it for ten years. In the face of time, all feelings are very weak, really weak. It can even be said that the kind of feelings that I felt hated in the past were just strange now.

Even when I received a call from my father, I didn't feel any strong emotions. What I thought in my mind was, 'Ah, so that's it.' It was like seeing someone reported on the screen die, completely indifferent. At that time, I was playing LOL with my phone holding it in the hands of the phone and didn't even move my eyelids, and I directly won the decisive team battle. By the way, I only lost one game in the grading match, and now it's Golden Five. It was the last game when I received the call.

I think I should be sick.

When I saw what I wrote before, I couldn't help but ask myself, do you really hate these characters? Now I should be sure to say, yes, I really hate these characters, and I can even say I hate them.

Because they suffer too little pain and malice, they see too little things, and they experience too little failures, but they resist the people around them, but they deny everything around them. They even admire themselves and think they are powerful and elegant. So I hate these people.

I don't want them to be happy because I can't even feel happiness itself.
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