The old days(21)

"What do you think she thinks?" How could she do that with a man so easily? Chang Qiuyun couldn't figure it out at all, and asked Lin Baichuan: "Does she have any difficulties? Isn't it voluntary?" In an instant, his mind

Many big scenes were made up, "...otherwise these two strangers..." Why did they roll on the kang and get into bed together?

Lin Baichuan shook his head: "It's not as complicated as you think. Besides, they are not strangers."

ah?

Did you know each other before?

Lin Baichuan sighed, and then rubbed his forehead: "They are all from the old army. If Hong Gang had been running smoothly, his rank would be higher than that of Lao Zhong and me... It would be even less likely that he would leave the front-line army and work in logistics.

"

what does it mean?

Lin Baichuan seemed to be recalling a long time ago: "Hong Gang was injured that year and was recuperating in the rear army. It is said that he fell in love with a medical staff, but the lesbian was married and had a husband. This kind of thing was nothing.

But during the rectification campaign, he was exposed, saying that his thoughts were corrupt, his lifestyle was problematic, he was entangled with married lesbians... I can't remember anything else, that's about it. What they said about him at that time

The punishment is not light. Not only was he demoted, but he was transferred directly from the front-line troops to the ordnance repair shop. If it weren't for these bad backgrounds, it would not be Lao Zhao's turn to be the top leader of 115."

Chang Qiuyun seemed to understand something: "Xiao Fan, she used to be a field nurse, right?" It seems that she heard that she followed Baichuan to the battlefield, and said that she was afraid that Baichuan would be injured so she could treat him at any time. Then she must have had such an identity in the past. Now

According to what Baichuan said, it is not difficult to guess what he meant, "...you want to say that she was the woman Hong Gang liked back then."

During the rectification movement, Hong Gang was isolated and examined, and the materials used to explain the problems did not mention who this woman was. Many people admired him at that time. They thought she was still a man and did not drag others into trouble.

So everyone knows that Hong Gang had such a past, but if it's not Fan Yunqing, then we don't know. I have never thought about this aspect before.

The person who reported Hong Gang should have known the inside story, but it is unknown who the reporter was and whether he is still alive now, let alone verified.

Besides, as for the past, even if it is verified clearly, there is no point in pursuing it. However, according to speculation, there must have been a period back then. Otherwise, it would not make sense! Even if Fan Yunqing and Hong Gang are old comrades, they can still

It cannot be said that this man and woman drank as soon as they met. But if the two had a deeper relationship... that would be different. The inconsistency seemed to be explained.

Hearing what Lin Baichuan said, Chang Qiuyun snorted: "But my wife had only died a few days ago!?" Are you so impatient?

That's not how this matter is discussed. If you go further according to this logic, when Hong Gang fell in love with another woman, he still had a wife and children at home. It would be even more immoral to continue pursuing her like this.

Therefore, there is no point in thinking about whether there is something or not. The fact is that the two of them have already gone through this and that and have a child together.

What Lin Baichuan was thinking about now was how to tell Xiaoxing. But how could the father open his mouth?

But no matter how hard it was to open his mouth, Lin Baichuan still had to bite the bullet.

I was very busy during the day, and I knew that foreign language courses could not be delayed, so I chose an evening and went there after dinner.

Su Jin was surprised why Lin Baichuan came here first. According to the general procedure, the father-in-law went straight to Danyang. After seeing the children, he was going back. When he passed by their door, he asked them a few words and asked them for daily care.

. But today he seemed to be heading straight to his house. After he was stunned, he quickly greeted him with a smile: "Dad, come in and sit down."

Lin Baichuan didn't go in: "Ask Xiaoxing to come out and go out for a walk with you."

So is something wrong?

Lin Xiaoxing came out of the room with a 'hmm', "What's wrong? It's very cold. If you have anything to say, please tell me inside."

"Come out. Taking a walk after eating is good for your health." He said.

Lin Xiaoxing took her coat and winked at Su Jin. She didn't know what it meant. Did she come to ask her to take a walk when she had nothing to do?

It's only the fifth day of the first lunar month, and winter has not passed yet. Especially at night, with a small breeze blowing, the taste is not very good.

"Dad!" Lin Xiaoxing stopped and shrank his neck: "If you have anything to say, just say it. Did I do something wrong somewhere?"

Lin Baichuan shook his head: "No... I just want to tell you that your mother and I are both failed parents. Especially me as a father. Don't look at your brother and sister who are not as unruly as you.

Don’t criticize me, but it’s mainly because of your presence. Since I was little, your presence has been saying good things about me in their ears. But in fact, I also know in my heart whether I am a good father or not.

But fortunately, they have their biological mother here. And you? It’s because your biological mother is not around." He seemed to be unable to find any logic in talking about so many nonsense, and he didn’t know what he said. After a moment of silence, he said

: "I just want to say, if you still have resentment in your heart, come against Dad. No matter it was then or now, the main fault is all my fault. It has not been easy for your mother to follow me these years... But we

The things between the two of us are a bit complicated, and we wouldn’t understand it unless we were involved. If we continue to struggle, some things will make us sick in our hearts, so we divorced. We owe you a debt for this matter. Where are your mother and I?

It's because of the weak relationship between husband and wife! I dragged your mother down to what she is now, divorced and all alone... Thinking about it, I felt really sad. I just thought about it, she is only in her thirties, if she can be in this situation in the future

If you live to be over eighty years old, there are still fifty years left. This life of a person can only be said to have just begun. Once you get married, she can’t go back to the Fan family, which will have a bad impact. There is only one person left... I will

He said, it's time to find someone. Find a suitable partner and start a family." He said, not daring to look at the child's expression, so he continued: "But what kind of partner should I find? Uncle Zhao and I are not the same.

Do you have a good relationship? You and Hong Gang, the deputy director of your factory... are also old comrades from the army..."

Lin Xiaoxing understood: "So, you brought my mother and Hong Gang together. But he just died of his wife! Don't you take this seriously?"

"What's the point of diaphragm?" Lin Baichuan said sternly: "We have seen more dead people than living people. We live a life with today and no tomorrow. Cherish every day while you are alive... Although it is a bit too fast...

…but……"

"But what?" Lin Xiaoxing gritted her teeth: "You are not afraid that my dead wife will leave uneasily..."

"What's peaceful and unsettling?" Lin Baichuan asked: "We are all firm materialists and don't believe in that... But your mother considered your emotions and said she didn't know how to tell you... After all, you

Mom still takes you more seriously. She is also afraid that you will not be a good person in the factory. So I said, if it doesn't work out, let's change jobs." He said, stopped and asked, "Otherwise,

Can I give you another job? Dad’s old face is still good. Didn’t Su Jin publish articles? Provincial newspapers can’t do it, but municipal newspapers can. What about you? Find a school and teach. It’s also pretty good.

."

Lin Xiaoxing stamped her feet: "Don't force my mother, I'll ask my mother tomorrow and let's talk about it later." After saying that, he turned around and ran back.

But I couldn't sleep that night. I took the whole morning off the next day and ran away.

Su Jin only knew that Xiaoxing's mood was not right, but she couldn't figure it out after asking. Now that she ran away again, she was even more worried. She asked Lin Yutong: "Sister, do you know what happened to Dad looking for Xiaoxing last night?"

This morning, Chang Qiuyun came over to deliver goat milk and briefly discussed the matter with the old lady and Lin Yutong. Lin Baichuan went to Xiaoxing and talked about Fan Yunqing's remarriage.

How to tell Su Jin about this?

He said: Your mother-in-law is remarrying! The one who is remarrying is still the deputy factory director. Don’t worry, you will also have someone to support you in the future.

How unpleasant this is to hear!

I'm not sure how to pay attention to people's backs?

She said, "It's okay. There was no trouble last night, right?"

That's true.

Lin Xiaoxing called Fan Yunqing out of the office, and the two went to Fan Yunqing's dormitory. Lin Xiaoxing asked first: "Have you really decided?"

Fan Yunqing held her daughter's hand: "Has your father told you?"

said.

Lin Xiaoxing nodded: "...I also want to change jobs for Su Jin and me..."

Fan Yunqing's eyes lit up: "Your dad is right! If you can change your job, change your job first. Director Hong and I are actually old comrades in arms. We have known each other for more than ten years. But others don't know, so...

He thought we had sex just after his wife died. I don't care if this spreads out... But you... you are in the factory, I'm afraid you will get some gossip." She sighed, "I don't

Thinking of you, I agreed so easily. I was too embarrassed to tell you before, so I asked your dad to tell him. Actually, I should tell you in person. You told me before and asked me to tell you.

As an individual, I want to start a new family and find my own happiness. I thought you were acting on a whim... I didn't expect that my daughter knew how much she cared about her mother, and what she said was true..."

Lin Xiaoxing was a little confused when she heard: What does "getting better" mean? Wasn't it introduced by dad? What does "looking for your dad specifically" mean? Didn't dad come to do his job because his mother was hesitant about marriage?

She smiled reluctantly, interrupted the other person's words, and asked tentatively: "When did you... and our Director Hong... get along?"

Fan Yunqing pursed his lips in embarrassment and smiled: "Didn't I tell you? Director Hong and I are old comrades in arms. We have known each other for fourteen or five years. At that time, he was injured. He was in the rear hospital and I was in charge.

Take care of him. Later he developed a crush on me and wrote me love letters. One letter every day... Not many people knew about this. At that time, he didn’t know that I had married your father. I made it clear to him

He said, I'm married... He didn't believe it. Did he think I was looking for an excuse to reject him? He still insisted on writing me a love letter. I didn't dare to say anything. Your dad was on the front line again. This matter was discussed with a doctor from the hospital.

The eldest sister said it. Later, the eldest sister transferred me away... Later, I heard that he left the front-line army and went to the rear because of this incident... In the end, he didn't pull me out... After so many years, I feel

I was quite embarrassed to see him. I had contacted your factory director Zhao once before about transferring your work, and I met him unexpectedly. The way he looked at me... I knew that he had not forgotten me, and he had always been in his heart.

He still has me... But, they are all people with families... I know that he has a family, and he also knows that I am really married... What can I say? He only asked me about my life these years.

Okay... I heard that I was divorced, but he sent me things a few times, but I didn't confiscate them. This is not the last time he was censored... and he released it so quickly. He secretly found his old comrade. This

I didn't know it at the time. It wasn't until winter came last year and his wife died. I heard his comrade's wife say, "You are not a good person. They have helped you so much, but what about you?"

You didn’t even go to my wife’s funeral! I just found out now! I was too embarrassed to ask him for your cousin’s job before. Seeing that he is willing to help me like this, I said to myself, I will go and thank him. If the time is right, by the way,

Let’s talk about your cousin’s work.” She touched her belly vaguely, feeling even more embarrassed: “…I went there at night that day, and I was not empty-handed, so I took a bottle of Moutai… Where is he? His wife just died, and he was in a bad mood.

Not good. Just say, we are old comrades, let’s have a drink together. As soon as we drank the wine, we couldn’t help but talk about the love letters we wrote back then..."

He said: "...My wife and I had an arranged marriage. Not only was it an arrangement, but she was also a child bride...There was no emotional basis... Later, the revolution happened, I went to the battlefield, I was injured, I thought I was going to die.

But when I opened my eyes, I saw you. I really felt like an angel at that time... After all these years, I can't forget that look... I even remember the spot where the red pimple appeared on your nose..." He stretched out his hand.

, and clicked on her nose.

The fingers were covered with thin calluses, as if sparks had ignited dry firewood, and the whole body was burning.

Fan Yunqing calmed down, but he couldn't tell his children these things.

She just wanted to tell her children that she didn't just decide to get married casually. She was able to get married because the two of them had a certain emotional foundation.
To be continued...