Ye ZiNong asked: "Where to go?"

Dai Mengyan said: "Go back to Beijing."

Ye Zi Nong said: "If you go back to Beijing to avoid risks, what's the difference between it and hiding in this house?"

Locking them up is a rat hole, and they cannot bear the consequences of being released, nor can they be sent back to Beijing. Dai Mengyan was angry, and she wanted to say: What should I do? It's my turn this time, please show me a way out.

, just give me a chance to atone for my sins. But I thought it was too verbose, so I grabbed my bag and threw it fiercely: "Do you want to force me to death?"

She left angrily, but the "calmness" that Ye Zi Nong deliberately prepared before the discussion still didn't work.

Can't close it, can't let it go, can't let it go.

Dai Mengyan has a strong personality and has always dared to take action, but this time she has fallen into an unprecedented dilemma. This is not a difficult choice, but there is no way for her to take it.

After leaving Param Apartment and getting out of the direct conflict, Dai Mengyan gradually calmed down from her emotional state. She drove back to her residence. She regretted what she said before she even got home.

―Why didn’t you say this before coming to Paris?

Walk.

―Do you want to force me to death?

She particularly regrets these three sentences.

Why didn't you say this before coming to Paris? If Zi Nong told her this in Berlin, with her mentality, she would definitely think that Zi Nong was looking for an excuse to reject her, and she would even scold him for being hypocritical.

Let's go. Once these words came out of her mouth so easily, was this what she really thought? No.

Do you want to drive me to death? A leaf farmer didn't even complain to O'Brien, can you blame her?

When she got home, she wanted to take off her shoes and dive into the sofa. She no longer cared about elegance, let alone researching clothing stores. Her mind was already in a mess. She needed to think. She had to get out of this dead end.

Find a solution to the dilemma.

She doesn’t understand politics, but she believes in Ye Nong, and she believes in her own eyes. China has indeed chosen the path of Marxism and socialism, and China is indeed getting better day by day.

Although Ye Zi Nong did not ask her for freedom, but did not want to listen to a concert with a theme like "My Motherland" with an inferiority complex, in fact she could no longer lock him up. Because a pair of stockings hindered Ye Zi Nong

This attitude makes a person who has studied Marxism for many years dare not admit the legitimacy of Marxism and the legitimacy of the Chinese people's choice of the socialist road. Moreover, he is the son of General Ye Hui. This fact has an illustrative effect.

Yes, this negative influence can also be exploited by others, and she cannot afford the consequences.

It was she who asked Zi Nong to come to Paris. If Zi Nong was killed in Paris, she would not be able to bear the consequences.

Force Ye Ye Nong back to Beijing? Chinese people hate traitors the most, and there are also ultra-nationalists among the Chinese. Who can guarantee that there will be no risk in Beijing? There is another possibility: Ye Ye Nong is harmed by extremists who hate the social system.

Then pass it on to the government to create political troubles... All the assumptions seem to be illusory, but they cannot rule out the theoretical possibility. The only difference is that the life and death of Ye Ye Nong has nothing to do with him from now on. This means that Ye Ye Nong

It doesn't matter whether she dies or not, what's important is that as long as she doesn't take responsibility... This assumption caused a layer of cold sweat to break out on her back when she thought about it deeply, because this was not her true heart at all. Her true heart was: she

She is not afraid of death, she is afraid of Ye Zi Nong's death.

Being forcibly sent back to Beijing meant that she and Ye Zinong had broken up, which she couldn't accept. Even if they had to break up, they had to do it clearly, not this way. It would be too unqualified for them to separate when disaster strikes.

"Well, that was not what Dai Mengyan did. In that case, it would be better to let her die now.

She even made the most extreme hypothesis: If Ye Zinong was killed everywhere, would it be better to be killed in Paris? Or be killed in Beijing? It would be better to die in Paris, at least he would not be executed as a traitor. Paris

How to judge the risk factor between Beijing and Beijing? Does this matter belong to the judgment of "risk factor"...

She didn't know how long she lay on the sofa, thinking a lot, but never found a solution. She also thought of calling Liang Shiqiao to listen to Brother Liang's opinion, but this idea only flashed in her mind.

It was over. She knew Liang Shiqiao's opinion without asking her, either to send Ye Zi Nong back to Beijing forcibly or to continue forcibly protecting her. From Liang Shiqiao's point of view, his first consideration could not be Ye Zi Nong, but her. She had a headache thinking about it.

, she even forgot to eat lunch and didn’t know she was hungry, so her bones hurt from lying down for too long. She got up and walked back and forth in the room several times, and stood blankly in front of the window. She didn’t know that the view outside the window had broadened.

It was at this moment that she suddenly woke up from her train of thought. She suddenly realized that her train of thought was wrong. There was a contradiction between confinement and release. If she just thought about the situation, she would never be able to solve this knot.

If you don’t know how to live, don’t you know how to die? You idiot! She cursed herself in her heart.

She changed her mind and made a deduction based on her own logic: Zinong's life is more important than mine, and the thing that can make Zinong's life must be more important than my life. Since she can't afford any outcome, she can't afford it.

No more worries.

She suddenly felt relieved and relaxed.

She walked to the phone and wanted to inform Ramono Security Company to cancel the escort plan. Since there was no need for protection, the security company should not let the security company work in vain. She just picked up the phone but put it down again, because according to the contract, even if the plan was canceled, it would not be in vain.

A refund is offered, but the other party may misunderstand that she is seeking a refund. She is someone who cares about her own image, and she cannot do anything that damages her image.

She looked at her watch and saw that it was already past one o'clock in the afternoon. At this time, she felt hungry, but she didn't care about eating. She took her car keys and handbag, went downstairs, and drove to the Maria Music Theater.

At the box office of the Maria Music Theater, she bought two tickets for May 19, which was the last performance of the Capital Symphony Orchestra in Paris. The two tickets were no longer boxes, but the seats were both side by side and side by side.

The latter economy ticket, regardless of the performance venue or seats chosen, took care of Ye Zi Nong’s low-key character.

After buying tickets for the concert, she went to Pyram Apartments again.

Zi Nong was still reading a fashion illustrated magazine at the dining table. He looked up at Dai Mengyan who came in, smiled and said, "Hey, don't take a break before fighting again. This continuous fighting method is not suitable for resolving irrational conflicts." Dai Mengyan also said.

Without saying anything, he put down his bag and cleared the dishes on the dining table, then went into the kitchen, washed the dishes, made coffee, then brought two cups of scalding coffee on a tray, pushed a pile of fashion pictorials aside, and put them down.

Ye Zi Nong looked at the coffee and asked with a smile: "What do you mean, ease up? Or is the battle escalating?"

Dai Mengyan sat down and said apologetically: "I am not calm. Let's talk again."

The coffee was too hot. Ye Zi Nong took a sip of it and said, "Can this coffee of yours be used as a basis for conversation?" Dai Mengyan said, "Yes, I really showed my courage this time. I will listen to whoever's reasoning is valid."

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Zizinong looked at her and made sure that what she said was not angry, and then said: "Okay."

Dai Mengyan said: "No matter what, life comes first."

Ye Zi Nong said: "Then Zhao Yiman and Zhang Zizhong are in trouble. You have to say that the lives of the masses are the first. If everyone is first, is there any first? This is a question that varies under different conditions.

The concept is applicable and cannot be abused. The first priority in the lives of the people is based on the sacrificial spirit of the police and soldiers. For soldiers and police, mission and honor are the first priority."

Dai Mengyan said: “In the past, the Communist Party used to engage in underground struggles by drilling into rat holes?”

Ye Yinong said: "Struggle and life, political groups and individuals, political struggle forms and personal life attitudes, attributes and rules are all different, and there is no analogy."

Dai Mengyan said: "Okay, what I said doesn't hold water, it's your turn."

Ye Zi Nong said: "Berlin doesn't allow me to stay in Beijing and I can only go back to Beijing, or I come to Paris to work for Sister Meng. It's all my normal life. I don't hide anything. If I have to die, you have already given me more life."

For a few days, this is the truth. We don’t deny or magnify the theoretical dangers. We don’t have to flatter ourselves, we are not that important.”

Dai Mengyan asked: "A theoretical danger is not a danger?"

Ye Zi Nong said: "Car accidents, alcoholism, suicide, natural disasters...any of them kill more people than political murders, so humans can't live anymore? It's not like I have to live with it. I also walk on zebra crossings when I cross the road, and I don't do it when there's an earthquake."

Run away. As a person, if you are alive, you will have trouble, so you have to be responsible. No one wants to be in trouble, and not all troubles can be avoided. Avoid what you can, and suffer what you deserve. This is life. For the rest of your life.

If you despise yourself, then life is worse than death, so why live? That is death, without even a chance to try your luck. Walking out of the rat hole does not necessarily mean death, at least there is a chance to try your luck.

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Dai Mengyan said: "Don't think I'm verbose, I'll ask you again: Is attitude more important than life?"

Ye Zi Nong said: "Everyone lives in his own attitude and measures various relationships according to his own standards. What relationships carry what content and how much responsibility is determined. Some people want money rather than their lives, some people want peace of mind rather than their lives, and some people want to commit crimes.

You can cross the street without risking your life, you can see all kinds of people, so it’s called the world. Dai Mengyan took out the two concert tickets he just bought from his bag and put them in front of Ye Zi Nong.

Ye Zi Nong picked up the ticket and looked at the date, seats, and price. He understood and was stunned.

Dai Mengyan said: "I don't understand politics, but I believe in you. If you think something is more important than life, it must be very important. We are all Chinese, who doesn't want China to be good? I don't want you to do anything that is detrimental to the country. matter."

Yizinong put down the ticket and said: "If you only have a backpack because something happened to me, then I'd better stay in the house."

Dai Mengyan stood up and walked to the door, took off the stockings, stuffed them into his bag, and sat down.

Ye Zi Nong asked cautiously: "What does stuffing in a bag mean?"

Dai Mengyan said: "I have another one over there, let me wear it."

Ye ZiNong substituted coffee for wine, picked up the cup and said, "Don't look for death, don't look for work, just live a normal life."

Dai Mengyan said: "I'll listen to you. I'm not looking for death or life." Then he picked up the cup and clinked it.

Ye Zi Nong nodded gratefully and said, "Thank you."

Dai Mengyan said: "I am free, go out and see Paris"

The leaf farmer said: "Eat."

Dai Mengyan said: "Which meal of mine made you hungry?"

Ye Zi Nong said: "Eating to survive is different from eating to eat delicious food."

Dai Mengyan thought for a while and said: "Then I will show you a few restaurants first, all of which are famous in Paris. Let's just take it for a ride. You can choose which one you like to eat."

Ye ZiNong said happily: "Okay."

After Zheng Nong came to Paris, his entire impression of Paris was from the airport to the Pyram apartment. For more than a month, he had not taken a step out of the door, or even touched the door handle. When he stepped out of the door At that time, he felt relieved to break away from his depression. As a member of society like him, he assumed the social obligations that he thought he should bear.

The security guards at Param Apartment all knew that there was a Chinese man living in No. 9 who never went out. When Dai Mengyan and Zi Nong walked out of the apartment together, the security guards at the stairs and the gate looked at Zi Nong with strange eyes.

Dai Mengyan was driving on the streets of Paris, and Ye Zi Nong was smoking happily, breathing the free air and enjoying the broad view. From this moment on, their relationship, which was not lovers, turned another page of life and death. .

Dai Mengyan drove the car and said abruptly: "I hate O'Brien."

Ye Zi Nong said: "I can't say I hate you. Just talking about it doesn't make people respect you very much."
To be continued...