There was a Korean movie "Sowon" based on a real case. The protagonist of the movie is a five-year-old girl named Sowon. One day, she was kidnapped and sexually assaulted on her way to school. She suffered multiple trauma and lacerations in her large intestine.

Part of the small intestine was necrotic, and after it was amputated, there was an extra stool bag around the waist.

However, Suyuan, who suffered such a nightmare, did not receive tolerance and gentle treatment from society. The media swarmed into the hospital, took pictures, and conducted interviews, forcing Suyuan's father to hold her and hide in a corner of the hospital. Suyuan watched.

Father, with tears rolling down from the corners of his eyes, he asked a question that made those who heard it cry.

She said: "Dad, did I do something wrong?"

My dear child, there is nothing wrong with you, just like there is nothing wrong with being kind, innocent, beautiful, and Jin Cunxu, whose hands were forced to be stained with blood, was nothing wrong.

What is wrong are those who did not protect him, what is wrong are those who continue to inflict harm on the victim, and what is wrong are the murderers who intensify all the evil consequences on the child!

Kou Jingwan was not killed by him, but died because of him!

He is alive, but life is worse than death.

Until he was ten years old, he had never spoken a word, and there was no expression on his pale, almost sickly face.

Fu Xiange and Jin Xishuo invited the best doctors, psychiatrists, and psychotherapists for him, but to no avail. He lived alone and desperately in his own world, accompanied by the despair and loneliness in his heart, and the scars on his body gradually

Well, my heart is already rotten.

When he was eleven years old, the servant broke a vase and went downstairs to get tools to clean up the broken pieces. He walked over the broken pieces with bare feet, feeling no pain, and was extremely numb. The bloody footprints under his feet were shocking.

Fu Xiange knelt beside him, crying and confessing for the umpteenth time. Tears fell on his hands. His expression was numb and indifferent.

Late at night, Fu Xiange was forcibly taken back to the room to rest by Jin Xishuo.

Jin Xishuo sat in Jin Cunxu's room, stared at him for a long time, and murmured softly: "If living really makes you suffer like this, I am willing to free you."

Jin Cunxu looked at him with calm eyes, which seemed to have some fluctuation. Jin Xishuo said again: "Do you know why your name is Cunxu?"

"Xu means light and warmth. She hopes that no matter what happens in your life, you will always have light and warmth in your heart!"

Many years later, Jin Cunxu finally understood why she never reached out to hug him.

Because her hands...are disabled.

If you can't even pick up the most basic tableware to eat, how can you pick him up?

If you know it, what can you do?

There is no way to turn back time, and nothing can be done over again. The disasters he has experienced, and the nightmares he has had, have been ingrained in his bones, and will follow him through the marrow until he stops breathing, and will disappear with time.

Since then, he seems to be normal and living a good life, but he has never really felt better. He has never hugged Jin Xishuo or Fu Xiange, has never been close to anyone of the opposite sex, and has even been exposed to some news about child abuse.

He will be unable to control his thoughts and actions, and often performs extreme behaviors when alone.

He looks more and more like Fu Xiange, with a smile on his lips all the time, but his eyes are unfathomable. No matter the city or strategy, he is exactly the same as Jin Xishuo. He begins to have his own strength, avoiding Jin Xishuo's people's attacks on him.

A peek into the inner world.

The years after he left Jincheng and studied in England were the loneliest and most painful years for him. He was struggling between life and death. Whenever he lost control of his emotions and couldn't control himself, he could only rely on drugs.

The medicine he took had serious side effects. The longer he took it, the greater the harm, and he might die of heart failure before he was thirty.

Lu Xiangbei knew it, Jin Xishuo knew it, and Fu Xiange knew it, but no one could stop him.

Taking medicine can help him calm down slowly. If he doesn't take it, he may kill himself in the next second. In order to let him live one more day, everyone pretends not to know and choose to deal with it in a white-washed manner.

If he hadn't met Long Ziqi in the United States, if he hadn't fallen in love with her irresistibly, Jin Cunxu might have continued to eat and rely on medicine, but everything became an established fact, and he seemed to have found a reason to live.

While alive, he could love her, but after death, there would be nothing.

In order to continue to love her, he began to slowly reduce the dosage of medicine. His emotions were out of control and his behavior was uncontrollable. He would miss her and try hard to calm himself down. His nine-death struggle was just to make himself normal.

, at least like a normal man, loving a woman.

No one has ever known that he was once almost unable to become a man. He has never had any desire for any woman over the years. If he hadn't met Long Ziqi, what would be the difference between him and a sexually impotent person?

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Jin Cunxu's chest was burned by the hot tears, and he was anxious inside. Her tears made him at a loss, so he had to lower his head and kiss her tears dryly, kiss her lips, "Don't cry-"

I never knew that someone as cold as Long Ziqi would be even more unbearable when she cried. I wished I could give her the whole world and my life, as long as she stopped sobbing.

Her watery eyes were red and swollen, and she didn't know that one day she would be so crying. She couldn't stop her tears, and her voice was hoarse and trembling: "Shall we go to the hospital?"

His body really made her worried and uneasy!

Jin Cunxu hesitated for a few seconds. He really didn't want to make her cry in worry, so he nodded: "Okay."

In fact, he had already checked with a doctor beforehand and confirmed that the medication had a certain impact on his body, but stopping the medication now and cooperating with treatment would have no impact in the future.

But if he tells her directly, he is afraid that she will not believe it. Now everything can only go according to her. In order to make her feel at ease, he is willing to do it even if it is unnecessary!

…

Long Ziqi saw the doctor's report and confirmed that the medicine had not continued to cause more harm to his body. She also carefully asked the doctor what he should avoid in daily life. When the doctor said it, she looked calm and focused for fear of missing something.

Character.

Jin Cunxu sat aside, looking at her nervous side face with gentle eyes, his heart was warm, and his palms kept wrapping her catkins. He was very happy in his heart that he chose to give birth and continue to love her...

Otherwise, how could we be happy now?

Long Ziqi kept the doctor's words in mind, and when she got home, she took out all the incense from the bedroom and put it on the balcony. She also bought a lot of books about medicinal ingredients and recipes.

Because Jin Cunxu has been taking medicine for many years, he is poisonous by medicine. The medicine has already penetrated into his body functions and he has developed a drug-resistant body. Currently, it is not recommended that he continue to take medicine, but instead switch to diet therapy. From his living environment, food and

Mental state improvement issues.

But this is a very slow process, and it cannot be completed overnight. It may take five, ten, or twenty years longer...

Long Ziqi doesn't care how much time it takes. She has a lifetime to do these things, but the premise is that he must live well!

Jin Cunxu saw everything she did without any dissuasion and cooperated with everything she did. What was she worried about and afraid of? He understood what she had to do to ensure that he was safe!

During the day, everything was as usual. She never mentioned the past, but every night she would hold him tightly involuntarily. Even after falling asleep, her fingers would clutch his pajamas tightly, not daring to relax at all. It seemed that as soon as she let go, he would

will be gone.

It's night.

The LCD TV was playing the evening news. It was rare for Jin Cunxu to have no work, so he watched the news with her.

News about young children being sexually assaulted was playing on the TV. Jin Cunxu frowned slightly and used the remote control to turn off the TV. However, Long Ziqi held his hand in an instant, with clear eyes and pupils watching him quietly.

,"It's fine--"

Jin Cunxu looked at her for a few seconds, then turned off the TV. The living room suddenly became quiet, and he could hear each other's heartbeats, high and low.

"I'm sleepy, go to sleep."

He stood up and reached out to pull Long Ziqi to stand up. She put her hand on his palm but did not stand up. She looked up at him and said in a calm voice: "Some words may be selfish to say, but I still want to tell you!

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Chapter completed!