He promised to forget it and promised not to be Nan Si's retreat, but even now he has never let go.

The two of them were silent along the way. Bai Yan kept looking forward, while Nan Si looked out the car window, but his peripheral vision kept lingering on him, knowing clearly but pretending not to know.

Just the hands holding the steering wheel, veins jumping faintly.

Sometimes when I think about it carefully, I really don’t know who to hate. They obviously love each other but they are destined not to be together. They cannot tell others. It seems that telling others that they love each other is a sin and an unforgivable sin.

But what's wrong with them? They just love each other!

The neon lights outside the car window quickly passed over Nan Si's gloomy face, and the hands on his knees secretly picked up his clothes. The car was very quiet, so quiet that it seemed that he could hear the heartbeat and breathing next to him.

There was a second of extravagant hope, extravagant hope that this road would never have an end, and that they would just go on in the space that belonged to each other.

It is an extravagant wish, and it will definitely not come true.

Because it was late at night, there was very little traffic, so it was more time-saving than during the day. As the car was about to arrive at Nan Si’s residence, a sudden voice sounded in the car, “Are you and her planning to get married?”

"...Suffer?" Bai Yan was startled for a moment. After understanding what he said, he felt a sting in his heart. He didn't deny it, but just gave a vague "en".

I know that Nan Si has misunderstood his relationship with Banxia, ​​and if he doesn't want to explain, let him misunderstand.

Nan Si was not the only one who misunderstood. Most of the people around him felt that his relationship with Ban Xia was unusual. They went to work and off work together, and occasionally saw them dining together.

Someone teased them ambiguously, but there was no explanation or clarification.

He was very embarrassed at first and wanted to clarify that it didn't matter that he was a man, but Banxia was a woman after all and would get married in the future.

Banxia saw through his thoughts and smiled lightly, "If he believes the rumors and doesn't believe me, then it's okay not to want such a man."

Lu Banxia is emotionally arrogant.

She has the capital to be arrogant, Bai Yan thought. Banxia is right. If that man would rather believe the rumors, how can he be worthy of Banxia's love?

He was speechless again, Nan Si's eyes became even more lonely, they had finally reached this point.

The car stopped at the door of Nansi's corridor. Bai Yan turned to look at him and said, "We're here."

I can only send you here.

Sitting in the car, Nan Si didn't move even after hearing the sound. Even under the dim light, he couldn't figure out what he was thinking in his dark eyes.

"...Nan Si."

"Can I hug you one last time?" He suddenly looked up at Bai Yan, his eyes as sharp as knives.

"Huh?" Before Bai Yan could react, Nan Si had already unbuckled his seat belt and leaned over, hugging Bai Yan tightly with his long and powerful arms.

If this was destined to be their end, what could he say?

Bai Yan's body couldn't help but stiffen, and his hands hanging by his side suddenly tightened into fists. His reason was telling him that he should push him away and not sink any further.

The body does not listen to the command of reason. It cannot be denied that it misses his breath, body temperature and everything about him deeply. There is no way to push him away.

He can't do it.

The hands that were clenched into fists loosened in despair, and the corners of his mouth curled up in a self-deprecating arc...

Bai Ziyan, you are destined to fall into the hands of this man in this life.

Nan Si's hug became tighter and tighter, so tight that no space was left, so tight that I couldn't breathe, so tight that my bones hurt.

"Don't forget me...Don't forget me completely." His voice sounded faintly in Bai Yan's ears, revealing humility and pleading, "At least...keep it in a corner of your heart, and occasionally think about it secretly.

I want to not be discovered by anyone."

Bai Yan smiled bitterly, "I'm sorry... I can't do it."

Nan Si's body stiffened and gradually became cold. He couldn't help but let go of him, and his eyes gradually met Bai Yan's eyes with affection and helplessness.

I can't just put you in a corner of my heart and miss you secretly.

Bai Yan's eyes were wet and his lips were trembling, "Because... my whole heart is thinking about you."

Nan Si was stunned, his heart suddenly tightened, he could not restrain his trembling, heartache and pain intertwined together. The blood all over his body was boiling, and something seemed to burst out from his body.

At that moment, he unexpectedly kissed Bai Yan's cold lips.

The more suppressed emotions become hotter when they burst out, like an overflowing river embankment. Once a gap is opened, the torrent will immediately surge.

She hugged him tightly with both hands and kissed Bai Yan roughly, domineeringly and irresistibly.

What he loves is Bai Yan, and he really loves the man in his arms.

Lips and teeth were fighting, deprived of breath, biting each other like wild beasts. Bai Yan knew that what he was doing was wrong and could not restrain himself.

A clear and rational willpower has always been weak and shattered in front of Nan Si.

Maybe it's like Nan Si said, the last time.

Please allow him to indulge his feelings like this for the last time.

Nan Si was too familiar with Bai Yan's sensitive points. His big palm extended to his back through his clothes and slowly moved down his spine. At the third node, the strength of his fingertips suddenly increased.

"...Well." Bai Yan couldn't help but make a voice, and the silver thread at the corner of his mouth was charming.

He greedily kissed the corners of his lips and sucked the silver threads from the corners of his mouth clean. As long as it was white language, he liked everything.

The big palm went all the way down the strong waist. Bai Yan's hand suddenly grabbed his hand, breathing heavily, "...No, Nan Si, we can't do this."

We agreed to let go, and we agreed to live our own lives.

His wife was pregnant upstairs, but they were doing such shameless things in the car downstairs. Bai Yan couldn't forgive himself.

Nan Si's Adam's apple rolled up and down, but he didn't move again. He kissed the corners of his lips affectionately and said in a hoarse voice, "I just want to touch you."

I want to remember every part of his body, I want to remember his body temperature, and I won’t forget it even until I die.

"Nan Si, that's enough." It was really enough between them.

It will do no good to anyone if we continue to get entangled like this. It will only aggravate the harm and even hurt innocent people.

Bai Yan didn't want to see such a scene.

Nan Si held him in silence for a long time, never speaking. In the silent carriage, only each other's breathing and heartbeats seemed to be in sync. Feeling each other's body temperature through their clothes was as warm as a dream.

They kept this posture for who knows how long, but the hot feelings could not cool down as time went by. It was just an intuition that they didn't know where they came from, and a bad premonition arose in the hearts of both of them.

When the two people looked at the front of the windshield at the same time, their minds were shattered in an instant like a thunderous explosion on the ground, disbelief filled their eyes, and the blood on their faces suddenly disappeared.

The figure under the moonlight looked slightly bloated, and the facial features could not be seen clearly under the backlight, except that the garbage in his hand suddenly fell to the ground. It was like falling into a cold ice cellar, and he was so cold that he couldn't breathe.

Bai Yan's stunned body slumped on the seat, his lips that were bleeding from being bitten by Nan Si were slightly open, and his white teeth were still stained with blood...

At this moment, it was as if he was a shameless third party who had finally been discovered, and his ugliness was nowhere to be seen.

Nan Si was also shocked. He never expected that Rongrong would come down to throw away the garbage so late at night.

Rongrong didn't say anything. When her cold and desperate eyes turned away from them, she ran upstairs, her back looking as if she had seen a ghost.

She saw it.

At this moment, Nan Si couldn't tell whether he felt solemn or relieved. He had not wanted to lie to Rongrong for a long time, but he just didn't know how to say it, not to mention that she was still pregnant with a child.

Bai Yan reacted and looked at him in panic, "Chase! Qin Nansi, hurry up and chase her!"

Nan Si looked at him with a vague look, and did not move.

Bai Yan had already stretched out his hand to push him, almost gritting his teeth, "If something happens to Rongrong or the child, I will never forgive you, let alone myself."

Nan Si's heart skipped a beat, as if his soul had returned to his body, he immediately opened the car door and ran upstairs.

Bai Yan watched helplessly as his back disappeared into the darkness, his body moved back in exhaustion, and his fingers fell on his face...

Bai Ziyan, you are an unforgivable sinner after all.

There was an uncontrollable dampness in the eyes.

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Nan Si ran to the door of his house, and Rongrong just opened the door, "...Rongrong!"

Rongrong turned to look at him, and couldn't help but step back. Because her belly was so big, her steps seemed clumsy. Her eyes staring at Nan Si were full of hatred, nausea and disgust...

"Listen to my explanation..." Nan Si approached her step by step, lowering his voice because he didn't want to wake up his resting parents.

"Don't come here..." Rongrong stepped back and avoided his hand, "Don't touch me!"

"Rong Rong..." Nan Si paused.

Rongrong's heavy footsteps were almost unsteady. She grabbed the sofa unsteadily and forced herself to stand firm. The scene she just saw was echoing in her mind, like a sharp knife cutting her heart.

Her reason.

She almost suspected that she had seen it wrong.

How is that possible.

They are all...all...men.

"How could you, how could you..." The trembling lips collided with each other, and tears fell uncontrollably. The last four words were gritted teeth and full of hatred: "So disgusting."

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