Chapter 364 I'm Not Worthy
"What I want to tell you next is a painful past that I couldn't bear to look back on, and I once paid a heavy price for it and committed a sin that I could never forgive myself for the rest of my life."
Song Meixin's tone of this was choked, but she seemed to be just infected by her emotions and did not care about the questions and questions posted by netizens on the screen.
After covering her face with both hands and trying to adjust her breath, she raised her head again and said to the camera: "This is an unbearable past that I have always wanted to forget but will never forget for the rest of my life.
When I was seventeen, I was qj by a few...who I thought was good friends, in a dark alley...
I cried and shouted, but they didn't let me go.
I went home the next morning. After being bullied, I didn't dare to tell anyone or say anything.
Later, I was pregnant before marriage and the baby was born, but I... don't know who the child's father is!"
As soon as Song Meixin's words came out, the entire live broadcast room was about to explode.
The melon-eating crowd was caught off guard and was stuffed with a big melon. What is going on?
Song Meixin was a little girl before she was seventeen years old. She was once qj and gave birth to a bastard who didn’t know whose biological father was?
Oh my god, this information is too much, right? I have never heard of it before!
This is simply shocking!
On the screen of the live broadcast room, the barrage almost filled the computer screen.
Jiang Ruotong, who was watching the live broadcast, subconsciously clenched her fists, looking shocked, and could not believe that Song Meixin had suffered such a terrible and painful injury.
So, her half-brother Ji Yunting was born after she was pregnant and born?!
Jiang Ruotong's mind seemed to be subjected to a violent impact from some kind of force, her eyes instantly turned red, and tears involuntarily fell down.
Seeing this, Wei Chun just gently held her shoulder and carried her into his arms.
At this time, Jiang Ruotong's half-brother Ji Yunting was also sitting in front of the computer and watching Song Meixin do live broadcasts.
Ji Yunting had never heard of his origin from Song Meixin. He didn't know who his biological father was, nor was he interested in knowing who the other party was.
When he was young, he knew that he was not loved or needed. His biological mother, Song Meixin, wanted to never give birth to him.
Because he was abandoned since childhood and regarded as a burden that should not exist, he only had resentment towards Song Meixin, and abandoned Song Meixin but left his biological father without any expectation or desire.
He thought he was just an irresponsible product of Song Meixin's hang out with a man when she was young, but he didn't expect that his birth was so unbearable!
He is a qj criminal who left behind!
No wonder Song Meixin hates him so much and abuses him so much!
Ji Yunting's whole body was trembling, and his heart seemed to be on the verge of explosion. He was full of hostility. His eyes, covered with bloodshot eyes, seemed to be brewing in the center of his pupils, and he could absorb people in anytime and anywhere, and then smash them hard.
In the live broadcast room, Song Meixin's confession continued.
She told the story of her frequent abuse of the innocent child because of resentment after giving birth to that child. Later, she suffered from depression because of the unfortunate death of her biological parents and once wanted to hold the child to die together.
Song Meixin said that she almost strangled her son to death, but at the last moment, she returned the rationality and stopped her hand.
Later, in order for the child to grow up in a healthy environment, she gave her own son to a distant relative to adopt. She said she knew that at that time, she was completely unable to raise a child well and give him a good life and education. The child would only endure hardships when he followed her.
Later, Song Meixin said that she had changed her mind and went to find a job. She worked as a cleaner in a teahouse, distributed flyers on the street, sold beer, and movie tickets.
By chance, Song Meixin saw a TV station in Haicheng recruiting actor training class. She went to the interview with a try-through attitude, but she was lucky to be selected.
Afterwards, she became a contracted supporting actress on the TV station and began to play small roles on some crews.
Gradually, Song Meixin became a supporting role from a supporting role, and began to play the important role of the third and second female role in some dramas.
When I met Liu Shengzhe, I was working with him to make a movie. At that time, Song Meixin didn't know that Liu Shengzhe was a family man.
The two played a couple in the movie, but because they were too immersed in the play, they ended up doing real things and began to develop a lover relationship in private.
Liu Shengzhe is a Malaysian Chinese actor. When he was working hard in Haicheng, he did not bring his wife and children.
Therefore, when Song Meixin developed an intimate relationship with him, Liu Shengzhe was not honest with her, and indirectly caused Song Meixin to bear the reputation of "third party intervening", and was abandoned all the time, banned and despised by TV stations and media audiences, and had no place to gain a foothold in Haicheng.
Song Meixin said that she wanted to commit suicide by jumping into the sea at that time. She felt that her life had no hope and no light. She had been ruined by men throughout her life.
She said she was standing on the shore and was about to jump down when the child kicked her hard several times in her stomach.
It was because of these few kicks that she finally gave up on the idea of suicide.
She couldn't bear to kill the innocent life in her belly, and then she went to Suicheng and gave birth to her second child in Suicheng, which was exposed, her biological daughter Jiang Ruotong.
Song Meixin said that she was actually mentally prepared to raise her daughter herself, but at that time, she did not withstand the temptation.
There was a mother in the same ward who gave up a quota for studying abroad. Song Meixin learned that the school was studying the performance department and the opportunity was rare. After some weighing the pros and cons, she made up her mind and decided to give up the child who could tie her hands and feet, restrict her development, and prevent her from turning over. She asked someone to find a relationship and went to M Country alone to study.
Song Meixin cried bitterly when she talked about her actions back then. She cried in tears at the camera in the live broadcast room: "I have always felt guilty...I am very...I regret it!
The sins I have committed in this life will cause me to go to hell, but... I deserve it. If Tong is right, I don’t deserve it, I don’t deserve it!”
Song Meixin cried bitterly in the live broadcast room, and the original doubts and abuses of her by netizens gradually disappeared on the screen, replaced by sympathy and comfort!
Chapter completed!