The place where life runs like a huge wheel, shattered all over the ground, and never gave a chance to choose. Of course, except for chaos and sober choices, the difference between the two is just one more painful. For the result, they are all powerless.

After Fei Ming learned that he could not be discharged from the hospital, he cried for a long time. He cried until the end of the day, and only a small face was flushed purple and red. The movement finally attracted the doctor and nurse. He was afraid that her condition would worsen further when she was excited, so he had to use the medicine again, which made her fall asleep after being hoarse.

During the whole process, Ju Nian always stood a few meters away, staring at this scene in a daze. She couldn't help with anything. The life running was like a huge wheel, shattered all over the ground, and she never gave her a chance to choose. Of course, except for the chaos and sober choice, the difference between the two was just one more painful. For the result, they were all powerless.

The doctor said that it is not possible to determine whether the tumor in Feiming's brain is benign or malignant, but at least one thing is certain that it is not a short time for the existence of this tumor in Feiming's brain. It may even be innate and closely related to the inheritance of the previous generation. At this point, the doctor repeatedly asked Feiming's family history. After learning from Ju Nian that the child's biological father did suffer from congenital epilepsy, he even affirmed this inference. Because epilepsy is one of the typical signs before the attack of glioblastoma in the brain.

Ju Nian really wanted the doctor to give her a pleasure. What should I do to save Fei Ming, but even the seemingly experienced doctor could not give her a clear answer. Whether the tumor was benign or malignant, it had grown to its current size, it would inevitably press on the brain tissue and cause a series of physical reactions, such as more and more frequent headaches, vomiting and epilepsy seizures, and the tumor is very likely to be further expanded. When it occupies a certain space, even benign, it will endanger life, and the terrible consequences of malignant tumors are even more unimaginable.

The only way to see is surgery. If the operation is successful and does not recur after the operation, it is a great blessing in misfortune, but no one can predict whether it recurs or not. The most embarrassing thing is that the lesions of Feiming tumor are in a very dangerous position, that is, the risk of surgery will be very great. Once the operation is performed, she may recover, and she may die immediately on the operating table or leave sequelae or leave lifelong disability.

The doctor asked Ju Nian that she was just the child's aunt, and she didn't know if she could make this life-threatening decision on behalf of the child. In the face of this question, Ju Nian was indeed speechless. In name, Sinian's cousin was Fei Ming's adoptive father and legitimate guardian, but Xie Sinian made the decision to adopt the child completely to fulfill Ju Nian. He had no substantial connection with Fei Ming. In those years, he would occasionally give Ju Nian from different places to him.

He Feiming sent some gifts, which was enough to make Ju Nian grateful and could not ask for more, because she also knew that Sinian's cousin was unruly by nature and disliked the most. After the death of the person he loved, he had no place to live. Even if Ju Nian was desperate now, the idea of ​​asking for help from Sinian, he would not be able to contact him for a while. In recent years, she could only know which small countries my cousin had stayed in on the other side of the ocean with a few postcards.

As for another blood relative of the child who exists in the world, it is not difficult to find her. However, based on the current situation of Chen Jiejie mentioned by Han Shu that day, Ju Nian could not take this risk. How could she expect a young lady who is in a devastating family and who relies on her husband's family to add new worries to the past. Whether it is for the poisonous oath she made or for the stability of the present world, Chen Jie Jie could not recognize Fei Ming. Ju Nian knew this very well. If Fei Ming knew that her biological mother existed but refused to accept her, the consequences would be absolutely fatal, which was far worse than letting her desperately fantasize about perfect parents.

Ju Nian told the doctor: "We need time to think about it, even if it's just one night." And who are we?

When she made this answer, she also felt deeply powerless and cowardly. At the most desperate moment, did she still understand that she was an outsider. No matter how many years she had raised Fei Ming, Fei Ming would never be her child.

The night was getting deeper, Fei Ming was sleeping very well, and there were still tears on his cheeks. Ju Nian tucked her quilt and stood alone in the small yard at the entrance of the hospital department. From the entrance of the hospital, you could see the lively street opposite from the distance. It was almost the end of the year. Even at night, there were still many people busy buying New Year's goods. Ju Nian couldn't see clearly, but you could imagine the festive expression on those people's faces, and all this was just a street intersection from the bleakness in the hospital.

Wu Yu, what would you do if it were you?

Ju Nian asked silently in her heart when she looked at the invisible place.

Chen Jiejie is healthy. Fei Ming's evil disease comes from Wu Yu's inheritance. If the doctor's inference is correct, it is very likely that Wu Yu's epilepsy was also caused by this hereditary brain tumor. Unfortunately, no one cared about this at that time, and this secret was buried underground forever with him.

Ju Nian spread her palms and looked at the patterns in the palms again. If his departure was inevitable, her loneliness was also destined. Should this be a little better for a person who believes in fate?

Ju Nian remembered that he had seen Wu Yu's graffiti sentence in his math textbook: Life is as brilliant as summer flowers, and death is as quiet as autumn leaves. Wu Nian was not a person who is good at literary rhetoric. Ju Nian once guessed that this came from a line in Tagore's poem, perhaps he thought it unintentionally and deeply believed it, so he picked it up in the textbook. This coincided with the dream of a knight he had been.

If this is true, it seems that Ju Nian is a little envious of Wu Yu. When he is alive, he may not be as brilliant as the summer flowers, but at least at the end, it is just a lightning and fire, and everything returns to tranquility, just like the tragic tragedy in martial arts novels. The sword light suddenly rises and blood splatters five steps. It is always better than a supporting character, breaking his arm, and holding the orphan, enduring in reality with a breath of breath.

But Fei Ming was too pitiful. This child had never been favored by fate, but had to bear the misfortune that was far beyond what she could bear. Ju Nian thought about it, and felt more and more pity in her heart.

"She's too young to take her away."

Only the sound of the wind blowing through the dead branches answered her... and the steps were light.

Ju Nian suddenly turned around and saw Han Shu standing on the steps behind him.

She didn't expect Han Shu would appear in the hospital so late. However, from the look of shock, grief and pity, Ju Nian knew that she didn't need to explain more. He must have learned the truth from a doctor or another nurse.

For some reason, from the moment she turned around and saw him, Ju Nian, who had accepted the bad news calmly and tumultuously, suddenly had the urge to cry, perhaps because of disappointment, perhaps because his grief deepened the reality of the cruel reality, perhaps just because she stood in the wind for too long... She hurriedly turned her head and walked back to the ward from him. Fortunately, Han Shu was surprisingly quiet this time.

Taking advantage of Fei Ming's lack of many treatment arrangements, Ju Nian took the time to go to the fabric store, found the manager, and resigned with difficulty. This job was the only source of her living for years, and it was also a straw for her to save her life. When she was desperate, only this store took her in, did not care about her criminal record, and even gave her the position of store manager. Therefore, Ju Nian has been working diligently for a long time. In addition to taking care of Fei Ming, the rest of her thoughts were devoted to this job.

Of course she was not willing to leave, but now it seems that there is any other way? Her parents may never recognize her again in this life. She has no relatives and no friends to entrust. Instead, her physical condition is inseparable from people now. Regardless of the operation or not, she will only need more and more time to accompany and take care of her in the future. It is not a long-term solution to ask for leave again and again in the fabric store.

Yesterday, the hospital had already urged Fei Ming to pay the next hospitalization and treatment fees. In desperation, Ju Nian had to find the bank card that Han Shu had given her. Ju Nian really didn't want to use Han Shu's money, otherwise it would give Han Shu an illusion, as if there were more uninterrupted connections between them, and that kind of connection was exactly what Ju Nian tried hard to cut it off. It was like walking into a dusty room. If you accidentally had spider webs on your hands and face. The spider webs were transparent, invisible, and not necessarily touched, but she could feel the sticky and tangled discomfort. She pulled it and couldn't reach it, as if she had once again become a worm that was struggling in the net.

She was willing to admit that she was not open-minded enough. It had been so long since the matter was gone. What else could not be laughed at? But she just had no choice. She could stop resenting and cursing Han Shu, or convince herself not to blame him for the pain of the past. Ju Nian believed in fate, and she believed in Han Shu was just a pair of hands to fuel the fire. But not hating did not mean that she could soothe memories. As long as she saw his face, Ju Nian couldn't help but think, he was alive, but where did the little monk go? Let her resolve it in every way, it would be difficult to calm down. But the health of right and wrong in front of her, even a life, can anything else be so important compared to this?

Ju Nian didn't expect that after hearing the reason for her resignation, the manager did not agree. He just said that she would give her a long holiday without a deadline and that she could come back no matter when the holiday ended.

In the accident, Ju Nian was grateful again and again, and did not care about listening to the sympathy and greetings of her colleagues, so she hurried back to the hospital. It was almost noon, and she couldn't wait to cook and missed the ordering of the hospital. She had to find a relatively clean fast food restaurant nearby and bought two boxed lunches.

When I walked outside the ward, Ju Nian had already smelled a strong smell of chicken soup. I thought it was cooked by the child's grandmother in the next bed. When I pushed the door open, I saw three people sitting around Fei Ming's bed.

The first feeling of Ju Nian was just surprised. Who else would come to see Fei Ming? However, after a few seconds, she suddenly realized that those were not three "who". Isn't the young man standing just Wang Nian? Xie Maohua sat on the side of the bed, while Ju Nian's mother held a thermos pot containing soup in one hand and used a spoon to Fei Ming's mouth. They had not seen each other for a long time, and Ju Nian was too surprised that she could not recognize her close relatives at first sight.

She didn't know how her parents and Wangnian learned about Fei Ming's illness and how she was willing to come. She caught off guard and had to stand blankly at the door without knowing how to react. Xie Maohua and Wangnian also noticed her return. In a daze, they both stood up slowly and looked at her at the same time.
Chapter completed!