A long time ago, I told Wu Yu that if he had not promised me, then I would wait for it is my willingness. If he had promised me but eventually broke the promise, then I would not wait for him again. At least I will not do this forever.

"I agreed to go together. What he promised cannot be changed!"

When she said this, Chen Jiejie sat in the visiting room. As usual, she faced with her back to the closed door and sat face to face with Ju Nian at both ends of the long green painted table. The female prison guard in charge of guarding was bored and played with her fingernails. Two girls of the same age used to spend hard time studying on the same desk, but now they recognized each other in the first second, but still felt strange.

Chen Jiejie didn't ask the question "How are you?" Maybe she had noticed the hypocrisy of this sentence. She knew that she should be sitting on the other side of the table. The turbulent fate changed their positions without authorization. How could it be better if the good years were buried in the iron window? But to this day, no one of them is able to resist this ending.

"I begged him, and the train is about to drive, and there are two hours left... In two hours, we can fly far away. He said he would take me to the place where his ancestors lived, and he also said that he would give me a new life there. He promised me, how could he break his promise?"

Chen Jiejie was in a position with her light on her back. Ju Nian, who had been silent, only saw a shadow that was so thin that she had lost her shape.

"How far do you think you can go?" This is the first sentence Ju Nian said to Chen Jiejie. From beginning to end, she seemed to have always been like this.

"I don't care!" The shadow sitting opposite her suddenly leaned forward, almost alarming the prison guards beside him. "No matter how far I go, whether it's one mile or a thousand miles, as long as he takes me away, the ending will be like, I don't blame him. But he said, 'Jiejie, I have to see Ju Nian again, I owe her a promise.' At that time, he still walked back desperately, just to say goodbye to you. He kept his promise to you, what about me, what about his promise to me?"

Ju Nian slowly lowered her head, and she tasted the last confusion, sweetness and sorrow given to her by the little monk in the memories brought to her by Chen Jiejie. Although she and Chen Jiejie would never know what the promises of the two girls mean in the hearts of the deceased boy.

"I cried so hard, begging him not to take risks, stay by my side, stay by our children, but he still left. He said that as long as he had a breath, he would come back. I sat in the corner of the waiting room and waited foolishly, for an hour or two hours, when the car arrived at the station, the radio was urging, the whistle rang, the car drove away, I waited forever, but he didn't come back. It was dark, and then it became brighter... I waited in place like a fool until people were unknown. When I woke up, I saw the face of my parents. From that moment on, I began to hate him!" Chen Jiejie said this, her tone was like ice, but Ju Nian knew that she was already crying like a spring at the other end.

"Do you hate me? Ju Nian hates me for taking him away. But except for the last day, I have never asked him for anything, never asked him to love me, never asked him to take me away. After I went back, my parents did not give me a chance to escape. I can't go anywhere except my room, and the whole world is insulated from me. No one told me what happened later. But I know that Wu Yu is dead. He will go to say goodbye to you with no chance, but if he still has a breath, he will come back to find me. My mother sent food into my room every day. At first, no one knew about the child. Later, my stomach began to be unable to hide. I know better than anyone else, and I can't keep my child."

Ju Nian subconsciously glanced at Chen Jiejie. She was not only thin, but also thin. She laughed at herself for two years. No matter whether the child was born or died, how could she stay in the mother's body? Ju Nian could hardly let herself skip the memory in court. Chen Jiejie's parents, the couple who loved their only daughter, loved them so paranoid that they were paranoid and crazy. They had endless doting and protection for their daughter, but when they looked at her, they were so cruel and rational. She would never forget the deep cold at that time, which was the last stone that pushed her into the abyss. Maybe in her lifetime, she might not be able to treat her by the way of others, but that memory would accompany her and would never disappear. She also knew that once the Chen couple knew the "scared seeds" in their daughter's belly, there was nothing that could not be done. They would wipe out everything that might ruin their daughter. Ju Nian was the case, and the same was true for children.

"They want to kill my child, which is too easy for my parents. In their eyes, it is not their grandson, but the last sin that Wu Yu left on me. But this is also the last memorial for Wu Yu to leave for me. I can't protect her child..."

"The child... is gone?" Ju Nian said with a hint of shock.

Chen Jiejie held her hands tightly on the table and slowly loosened them. Ju Nian took advantage of the light outside the window to notice that the beautiful hands that were once covered with Kodan were left with only bare and ugly nails.

Chen Jiejie laughed, and the laughter seemed so abrupt in the cold visiting room.

"I only said one thing to my parents: If the child dies, their daughter will die... If I am allowed to give birth to her, then... Then they can take her away from me, and I will never see her in my lifetime... My child, I made a poisonous oath in front of my parents, and I will never see her again in my life, just pretend she has never been to me... As long as she is alive, as long as she is still there. If I violate the oath, I will not be able to have a good end forever, and I will never know the taste of happiness in this life. My parents know me, I am not a good daughter, but even with thousands of shortcomings, I am still a person who keeps my word. Later, I gave birth to a child, a daughter, and I have never looked at her, only knowing that she was born on the last day of January, with congenital epilepsy. I abandoned her, but when she left me, she was at least alive, which is the last thing I could do."

"What about now, or in the future, have you never thought about finding her?"

Chen Jiejie's answer was only one word, "No."

"I have been off school at home in the past two years. It was not long after the child was born that I received the last news from Wu Yu, and your affairs... I don't know what to say, and nothing can be saved. I can't compare to you. After all, I am still a selfish person. You can hate me and look down on me, but if I can, I am willing to exchange positions with you..."

"Where was he buried, who buried him?" Ju Nian ended the meaningless topic. She was not a priest and did not accept anyone's confession. She had questions that were more urgently needed to find the answer, which were higher than all confessions and tears.

Chen Jiejie shook her head, "My parents relaxed a little bit about me, but it was just a recent thing. I have inquired about it, because he had no relatives or friends to recognize it... and the government came forward to bury him. I heard from the prison that you have received a commutation of sentence. What are your plans for the future?" Chen Jiejie is a smart person after all. She knows her position so much that it is difficult to say every word when it comes to these.

Ju Nian whispered, "This is my business."

Chen Jiejie smiled and said, "My parents found me a university. In Shanghai, their business will gradually shift there. My father and mother are less than fifty years old and their hair is white. I am their daughter in this life, and I don't know who owe whom. I promised them that they will live the life they want me to live, and love the people they want me to love..."

"Also, forget what they want you to forget..." Ju Nian said.

Chen Jiejie held her hands, "Yes, this is not bad. A long time ago, I told Wu Yu that if he had not promised me, then I would wait for it is what I would like. If he promised me but eventually broke the promise, then I would not wait for him again. At least I will not do this forever."

She wanted to calmly finish what she should say, but at the end she still choked up, "I'm afraid of a deadline separation."

Ju Nian said: "You can do whatever you like. But you have to know that you can walk when you want to leave, and you can also look back when you want to look back, but Wu Yu is different. He only has one way. If he doesn't understand, he will come to the end."

"Actually, I thought that if he really took me away, maybe one day I would blame him, turn around, and continue to live like an ordinary woman, and he got married and had children in another place, and we forgot each other. It is no different from the rebellious careers that many people have had in their youth. I don't know where to go, and why I want to leave, but I just want to have a feeling of taking me out. In just a few years, everyone will be tired. Some youth has been rude and can turn around, but Wu Yu is dead, I..."

She didn't finish her words in the end. Later, Ju Nian thought that Chen Jiejie might be right, but she was not the case. Chen Jiejie looked at Wu Yu as Romeo under the window, but Romeo died beside another Juliet; and Ju Nian thought that the hero Xiao Qiushui who was running in the wind was her, but she did not expect that she was not Tang Fang. They both placed the girl's dream on Wu Yu. In fact, Wu Yu was no one, Wu Yu was Wu Yu, a weak and pale boy.
Chapter completed!