181. That little thing in the bones
"It feels really good to be alive~~"
Lan Sui felt the gently shaking seat and the milky white interior decoration of the car.
Although the scenery at first glance was not very good after speaking, Lan Sui felt deeply grateful that he could still feel all this with a touch.
"Since you know that living feels good, why do you go and die?"
The black SUV slowly stopped in front of the zebra crossing, watching the pedestrians passing slowly and the red stop warning lights. The people in the front row couldn't help but open the window, and then took out a pack of cigarettes and lighters from the car.
With a "bang~", the blue smoke was spit out. Although most of the smoke drifted out slightly after opening the window. However, it was inevitable that some of them would float to the rear seat of the vehicle.
"Hey! Don't you know, are there any patients in the back row?"
Lan Sui kicked the driver's seat and protested: "You can really do it just by letting me smoke second-hand smoke."
Faced with such remarks, Zheng Dao didn't want to speak, so he threw the cigarette and lighter in his hand into the back row.
Not long after, with a long breath of "po" and "hu", the whole car suddenly became scattered with smoke.
And at this moment, the red light finally passed.
Press the clutch, the car is in one gear, and the accelerator is pressed. The black SUV starts slowly.
"You haven't answered my question yet."
Bouncing the ash into the ashtray that was brought into the car, Zheng Dao looked at the road ahead and asked this.
“Ha~”
Lan Sui chuckled, reached out and flipped the ash into the ashtray, then sucked it happily and said, "In life, don't you always have to do something to commit suicide~"
"That's called doing it even though you know it is impossible, or to be more precise, martyrdom with your own body." Zheng Dao looked through the rearview mirror as Lan Sui lying on the cushion, sucking cigarettes.
"But you, this is called water in your head."
Also through the rearview mirror, Lan Sui looked at Zheng Dao with a serious face in the small frame. Listening to his comments, a smile opened on his face and said:
"It's a good summary, you really think that it's water in my head."
This kind of words similar to giving up the words to continue communicating made Zheng Dao frown, and he didn't want to speak very much. Or rather, he was secretly reorganizing his language.
Turn on the turn signal and the steering wheel turned slightly. Lan Sui didn't control his body, so he shook his body according to the centrifugal force of the car.
After the car entered again, the turn signal turned off, and Zheng Dao also spoke:
"You should know that Master is looking forward to you."
"expect?"
Lan Sui raised his eyebrows and pressed the cigarette into the ashtray. He looked up and asked, "If this kind of expectation makes my friend encounter danger, can I take responsibility for Nie Suni?"
"This is something you should deal with yourself."
Listening to this, Lan Sui suddenly looked up and asked, "Then what am I here to join the Office of the Ying station?"
"Do you think that the Ying Office is just your backer?" For some reason, Zheng Dao's words were filled with a hint of ridicule.
"I'm working for the office stationed in Ying." Lan Sui understood Zheng Dao's meaning and gave a relatively satisfactory answer.
"196 people." Zheng Dao revealed a number.
"What's the meaning?"
"So far, the number of people who died in the Office of Japan has been killed. These include 145 members and 51 core members. They all died on this strange land in Japan.
Even, we cannot collect complete bodies for them."
Zheng Dao said this at this time and gave a slight pause. He also didn't know if he remembered the plot when he led the team and collected the corpses for those partners.
After a while, he continued, "You are not relying on the green mountains, but the shield accumulated from countless bones and flesh."
"grass!"
This is Lan Sui’s most intuitive feeling in his heart.
"What do you mean by telling me this? I don't have to mind the lives of myself and my family, and contribute my own strength to the monks and demon stocks overseas?"
Lan Sui's words were sarcastic or the truth. Of course, no matter which one, they were very harsh.
Zheng Dao looked indifferent.
"Then whatever you think, it's just to give you an experience and lesson. Don't think that everything will be fine if you have the stationed in the Ying Office. We are not the pinnacle of mankind.
Humans with complex and deceitful minds are always at the upper level of a food chain.
If you want to avoid being swallowed by them, you can only show your own strength.”
After saying that, Lan Sui was already at the foot of Tongchen Mountain.
The door lock was opened, Lan could get off at any time, ignoring Zheng Dao.
However, at this moment, he sat in the back row with a depressed look on his face, looking at Zheng Dao in the rearview mirror and said, "I don't want to be expected by anyone."
"I know.
But you should also know that the so-called creation of heroes in the times is actually forced out by those who have no courage. They all want to feel this, but they have to detect a few jump shots to be relieved.
Your master, Mao Yi is like this, so is my master.”
Listening to this, Lan Sui felt something was wrong and couldn't help but ask in confusion: "What do you mean?"
"It's not interesting, I just tell you. Sometimes when responsibility comes, you can't stop it. It's like you are starting to care about your friends now.
So, what after that - can you really leave them behind and hide in a secluded place for the rest of your life?"
Listening to this, Lan Sui knew in his heart that this was the right words.
But no matter how you listen, you will feel unhappy.
He opened the door and got out of the car, and muttered: "What a fuck, I can't talk anymore!"
Zheng Daocai doesn't care about that much.
After seeing him get off the car, he closed the door heavily and made a loud noise. He just smiled and restarted the vehicle and slowly left the deep mountain.
"Bang!"
He lit a cigarette again, looked at Lan Sui still standing there from the rearview mirror, and couldn't help but grin and said:
"Men! If the sense of responsibility in the bones is lost, the person will be almost ruined. However, as long as there is still a little bit, sometimes he will do all kinds of unimaginable things."
Lan Sui was unable to hear Zheng Dao's words.
Or, he had no intention of listening.
Because he had heard enough of tonight's words.
What he wants to do most now is to throw all those words out of his mind and never pay attention to them again.
But those words were like cactus in the desert, deeply rooted into the deep layer covered with fine sand, just for that section of water below.
It is impossible to remove people.
Because this root has vitality, a fresh and real vitality!
By the way, the novel really reflects the author's insights~~~
Chapter completed!