Chapter 15: Guilt towards her
Ruth: I...
(Fu Sinian's heart was churning, and he didn't dare to tell Xiao Ran about his feelings. Xiao Ran could read out the feelings in his heart, and would definitely be able to see his feelings about Yangyang in his words.)
s.mile: I have a boyfriend, we are getting married soon.
(Fu Sinian suddenly felt that Xiao Ran was very unfamiliar.)
As old as this: Oh.
(Then there is a long silence.)
Fu Sinian didn't expect that he was hesitating whether to open his heart to Xiao Ran, but Xiao Ran took the initiative to talk about her love to him, especially in the end, she actually said that she was going to get married, which made Fu Sinian feel very strange. Why? Fu Sinian couldn't figure out why. He always felt that Xiao Ran was not Xiao Ran by the Tuojiang River, and her eyes were not as melancholy as she was now.
Or, everyone has a self that outsiders do not understand. Fu Sinian explained this because Xiao Ran said that there was some love hidden in his heart, which was an emotion that Fu Sinian himself did not understand.
After that chat, Fu Sinian didn't dare to go to QQ for several days, and he was afraid to get involved in this problem.
The endless longing for Yangyang made him live in a painful contradiction. He wanted her to know, but was afraid that she would know. He wanted to pursue love, but he did not dare to take steps.
Si Nian, are you so proud of Geng? Every time I miss you so much that I can’t extricate myself, Fu Sinian will think of this sentence. Looking at his sleeping wife beside him, he feels in endless panic.
When his heart was full of fire, Fu Sinian still had to choose to go to Q, and Xiao Ran was his best talker.
It seems she is online for 4 hours.
Russ Nianhua: Xiao Ran, what books do you like to read?
(Fu Sinian doesn't want to talk about those feelings or love at first sight.)
s.mile:Prose.
Russ Nianhua: I like it too, and I have written some.
(Fu Sinian has a blog on Sina, where he records every bit of his.)
Russ Nianhua: I told you last time that I want to write a novel about Phoenix.
s.mile: Yes.
Russ Nianhua: I wrote some travel notes about Phoenix and Zhangjiajie and put them on the blog.
Russ Nianhua: Let me show you?
s.mile:What?
Russ Nianhua: My blog.
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Russ Nianhua: Whose prose do you read?
s.mile: Zhang Xiaoxian.
Russ Nianhua: Zhang Xiaoxian? I remember reading her essays in magazines, as if she was writing novels.
(Fu Sinian seems to remember that he once read a novel by Zhang Xiaoxian, called "I Love You After all", and still feels a little pain in his heart when he thinks about it. Fu Sinian also writes love novels, but after reading them, he feels that the love novels he wrote are still very superficial, far less profound than Zhang Xiaoxian's pen tip.)
After that, there was a long silence. Xiao Ran didn't say anything. It was probably going to read the blog written by Fu Sinian. Fu Sinian didn't say anything, and wandered around the various websites.
s.mile: Very well written.
Russ Nianhua: Have you seen it?
s.mile: Yes.
Russian Nian: I just wrote based on my feelings.
(Another silence.)
s.mile: Have you ever loved someone?
s.mile: Of course you have, there must be more than one.
(Fu Sinian had no time to answer, Xiao Ran had already answered for him.)
Such years: Feeling?
s.mile: Yes.
Russ age: You always feel a lot.
s.mile: Are you too?
Russ in the ages: (expression: a grinning smile))
s.mile: What's funny (expression: angry)?
(Okay, I got angry. Girls are really, they change as soon as they say they change, but Fu Sinian dared not say this feeling. After all, no matter how familiar they are, they are just strangers.)
s.mile: Why don’t you speak?
Russ in the age of the age: I am afraid of making you angry.
Chapter completed!