Gu Ziyan

He was born in a very dark and small house, and his childhood memories were no longer clear. Anyway, they were all dark and dark.

But he remembers one thing very clearly. His mother is a very clean person. Her family is always clean. When she was a child, there was a family next door who was the same age as him. The two of them were from similar families and were both very poor, so they kept playing together.

Their parents are busy making money all day long, but receive very little goods, so they spend more time making money, which leads to neglecting the family and children.

The playmate's house was always in a mess. Compared with this, he was very happy every time he went home and watched his mother clean the house.

But as time goes by, he grows older, and his unlucky physique, who doesn't know what's going on, makes it more difficult for the mother and son to live.

Fortunately, he is very smart and can understand whatever he does and says at all.

He gradually became able to help his mother do something.

However, even so, it was a drop in the bucket. My mother's face became worse and worse, and her body became weaker, as if she would fall down at any time.

Several times, he saw his mother sitting up from the bed, but she fell on the bed as if she was hit by something, with a weak breath as if she would die at any time.

Every time he sees this scene, he is scared, panicked, and uncomfortable...

But soon, my mother will recover, stand up again, and pat his head.

My mother doesn't like to talk or get close to him. It seems that every time she sees him, she has various complex looks in her eyes, but she still loves him very much, and he can feel it.

So when his mother was worried, he would always say well, "Mom, I'll be with you."

In fact, he didn't want to go to school at all because his family couldn't afford it. He had nine years of compulsory education. However, the tuition and miscellaneous expenses and daily expenses were all money, and these were all earned by his mother working for others and washing dishes.

Being a dishwasher in a restaurant naturally won’t have a lot of money, especially when my mother is in poor health and doesn’t do much work. The boss’s salary is also lower, which is only more than 1,000 yuan.

However, this amount of money still has to pay the rent, how much can it be left?

So when he heard that he was going to school, he cried and refused to go. In fact, he was not willing to go to kindergarten except for being ignorant at the beginning because it was too expensive.

But my mother was tough and insisted on going to school.

If he hadn't been able to pay the tuition later and he was rejected by the kindergarten, he would have continued to spend a lot of money.

Because of elementary school, my mother beat him for the first time.

It hurts very much at that time, butt and hips hurt very much.

In fact, it was the first time he remembered. Maybe when he was younger, his mother hit him, but he didn't remember it.

That day was the first time he cried loudly in his memory, crying heart-wrenchingly.

But he was sent to school.

On the first day of school, the teacher thought he couldn't bear to part with his mother, so he comforted him.

He shook his head at that time and refused to say a word.

In his heart, his mother is a very good mother. She has no money at home, so she still keeps everything close to him.

Although it is not good to eat and drink, it will never make it difficult to keep up with its nutrition.

So he has been tall since he was a child.

In terms of appearance, when there is a mother, he is no different from other children, but he is more introverted.

The teachers and classmates at the school are also very good, and they did not bully him just because he didn't have a father.

But the good times didn't last long, and he said he wanted to accompany his mother.

I couldn't stay for long.

One day after the first grade, he returned home excitedly with his final transcript and snow.

My mother likes him to study, and she definitely hopes that he has a high score, so he studies hard and gets the first place in the exam. The teacher likes him and often praises him.

But when he returned home and opened the door, he saw his mother lying on the bed.

She lay on her side, as if she was asleep, with her expression not ferocious, and she was very peaceful.

He thought she was really asleep, and he didn't dare to wake her up as soon as possible. He just put down his schoolbag and cooked by himself.

He started cooking by himself at the age of five because the stove at home was a gas tank and a pot, which was placed on a stool, which was very short.

He clumsyly poured water, put the noodles, and added some salt.

Thinking that he got the first place in the exam today, he hesitated for a while and added two eggs to it.

In fact, eggs are his daily breakfast and he usually doesn't let him eat them. His mother saves money and uses the rest to supplement his nutrition.

However, when the noodles were ready, he started to serve in sweat and placed them on the small table, and his mother didn't move at all.

He finally began to panic.

"Mom! Get up!" He heard himself shouting in panic.

But she slept too heavily and didn't respond.

It must be too heavy, it must be!

However, after he screamed for a long time, his mother did not react at all. She would wake her up with a little movement, and now she didn't say a word.

He seemed to know something, calmed down, red eyes, and went to pick up the noodles and ate them bit by bit.

The noodles were already cold and tasted ok, but when eaten, it turned into his mouth, it turned into his heart.

In winter, the temperature is very cold, the house has no air conditioning, the windows are leaking, and my mother is covered with cardboard, but it is still very cold.

Every night when he slept here, he was so cold that his whole body was stiff.

But my mother never hugs him, and she doesn't like to get close to him.

But even so, she is his mother.

Now... it seems like he has become a real lonely man.

In fact, he should have guessed something was wrong.

Maybe people can really feel their death when they are about to die, so two days ago, she pulled him to sit on the bed and talked to each other for the first time.

Her voice was soft and young, which was not in line with her old and vicissitudes of life.

She said: "Ayan, your father is Gu Xuetong, but he is a bad guy. He deceived his mother. He said he was unmarried and he said he was single, so his mother was with him."

She cried and looked at him, as if she had seen something, her expression gradually became painful: "I became a mistress who everyone calls for and interferes in other people's families. Actually, I don't want it, but he lied to me."

"Ayan, I tell you this. It's not to let you hate him, but to tell you that one day you are desperate and you can go find him. He is very rich. Even if he doesn't recognize you, he won't really ignore you. You look like me. I think he should have some true feelings towards me. He will take good care of you. His home is in City Y..."

He was only seven years old and shouldn't know anything, but when he heard his mother crying and saying these words, he understood a lot.

He suddenly realized that his mother was often sad because of that man.

Actually, he hated him quite a bit, but his mother said she didn't want him to live with hatred.

He also understood that his mother had been staying here, and the prices were very expensive and the housing prices were also very expensive. It was because one day, she couldn't hold on and he could find his father directly.

But she didn't know, he didn't want to.

*******

My mother completely left his life. That day, he ate two bowls of noodles alone, making him want to vomit.

But he was reluctant to waste it. His mother said that children who waste food are not good children.

The neighbor found something was wrong and helped call the police. Two days later, he stayed alone with the body for two days.

Fortunately, it was winter, the corpse did not smell bad.

The police uncle came over and took him away, and helped him bury his mother.

The police asked: "Do you have any other family?"

He shook his head decisively. In fact, he still remembers what his mother said. He has a good memory and is very smart, but he is unwilling to speak!

The police checked for a long time but couldn't find any other relatives. In the end, they had to give up sending the person to the orphanage.

When he arrived at the orphanage, his life really fell to the bottom.

He became an orphan. Although he still had the help of kind-hearted people to go to school, when he transferred to a new school, everything about him was different from others.

There will no longer be clean and neat clothes that are not patched.

His hair was so long that it covered half of his face, and his taciturnity made him even more unpleasant.

All the classmates isolated him, hated him, did not talk to him, and spread rumors that he had a taste.

He actually knew that he had no smell on his body, he loved cleanliness and could do his own clothes.

But the children won't listen to the explanation.

Campus violence finally slowly fell on him.

He is very smart. After no one pays attention to the complaints once or twice, Manman knows that it is best not to resist because no one will preside over justice for him.

It was precisely because of his non-resistance that the perpetrator felt bored, so slowly, he had some relief.

However, when he entered junior high school in elementary school and junior high school in junior high school, his excellent grades and his handsome appearance gradually revealed made many people dislike him.

Although he kept shrinking, honest and silent during campus violence, he never suffered any serious crimes.
To be continued...