Yang Fan began to prepare for the winter in a hurry, but after more than a hundred days passed, she realized that she should reconsider how slow it was for the world.

If we calculate the time she knows, it has been a year since she came to this world. But here, it seems that even a season has not ended yet.

But Yang Fan believed that winter would definitely come. She didn't know what winter was like here. She was only worried that if a season might last more than 300 days or even longer, then how much food she needed to store before winter came.

When she thought of this, she prayed to let winter come a little later.

She assumes that the length of winter is about the same length as the season she has seen so she needs to store food for at least 300 days.

So far, none of the food Nick has found for her can be successfully stored.

Eggs and dates became hard as stones, and it was useless to boil them in water. The shell of the pot fruit had become harder and thicker, and the flesh had long been no longer eaten. The fish and shrimps in the stream were transparent, about one finger wide and two fingers long. After drying, it had a strong fishy smell. Nick would throw them away whenever he found out.

Winter melon contains too much moisture and cannot be dried after being cut into strips and dried. It will shrink into something like a dead leaf.

Yang Fan turned his gaze to the earthy rat meat. Although its flesh fibers were hard and thick, it was necessary for Nick to chew it before feeding it to her before eating it, so she didn't think about it at the beginning. But now there is nothing to do.

She tried to slice the meat thinly and then put it on a slate to grill it into jerky. Looking at the only food that didn't get weird after it was made, she felt that she had found at least one food to store.

Of course, the dried meat of the earth rat is very hard. She can't bite it at all, and it's useless to smash it with a stone. She had to use water to cook it. After all, it's only the first step to make it dry, and it must be edible.

When the soup of the dried meat became turbid, she took it out and found that it had not changed at all. She tried to drink the soup. If the dried meat could not be eaten, it would be an improvement to drink the soup.

Then she was surprised to find that the soup for the jerky meat was salty.

She had cooked the meat of the earthy rat. After eating enough barbecue, she tried to cook it, thinking that the meat might not be so hard and could be eaten with her teeth, so that Nick would not have to feed her every meal. But the broth at that time was not salty.

For the first time, she considered that if her body had not been intake of salt all the time, there might have been a problem.

Does the meat of earth rat contain salt? Is this because there is salt in its food? She thinks the food of earth rat is insects and grass in the soil, or maybe groundwater?

She roasted a lot of jerky meat in one breath and then boiled them in water. When the water was dried, she wanted to scrape out the salt from the bottom so that she could store some salt. But there was nothing at the bottom of the pot fruit.

Just as she wanted to try another way, Nick picked up her roasted dried and cooked meat and ate two pieces, and then he spitted out the meat.

She thought that the meat she had processed this way could no longer be eaten, but Nick got angry. He roared at her sharply, and his thick tail flapped hard on the ground.

Yang Fan was frightened. For such a long time, she almost thought Nick was harmless. She knew that there were reasons for her brain to protect herself. She deliberately forgot and downplayed the harm he brought to her at that time. On the other hand, it was because of her uncontrollable desire for surrender and closeness to him. She even found reasons for his behavior to prove that he was harmless and that she was safe. Everything is normal now.

But she has been resisting this consciousness. She tells herself every day that she is her deepest desire to go home. She cannot forget her real world and her real home, nor can she forget that Nick's nature is not a human, but an unknown monster.

Two kinds of thoughts are in a difficult tug of war, and she cannot let any thought prevail, otherwise she will become a slave or a real madman and go crazy because she cannot go home.

She carefully maintained this balance. In her head, it seemed that she had three selfs, one who wanted to surrender and forget to go home, and just stayed here without thinking or suffering. It was very simple to accept everything about the present and give up the past, as long as she no longer regarded herself as a human being.

And the other self is full of disgust for everything now, full of hatred for Nick and this world. It keeps repeating the harm Nick caused to her, engraved in her heart. It longs to destroy everything in front of it, kill Nick or kill itself, thinking that death may be the liberation of everything.

The last one stayed outside and watched the two of them fighting in front of him. It was rational and objective, able to eliminate the desire for harm, hatred and self-destruction, and only thought in the simplest way - that is how to survive.

Yang Fan always clings to the third self and refuses to let go of her. When she finds that she is about to be in a certain direction, or when the things in front of her will make her lose rationality, she will always tell herself to think and look at everything in front of her in the third way.

Just like now, she restrained herself from screaming and running away, so as not to stimulate Nick even more. She whispered his name, then slapped her limbs and lay on the ground.

"Nick, Nick, Nick..." Her heart was beating wildly, her fingers were cold, she held her fingers until her knuckles turned white, and her fingers were about to swell.

"Nick, Nick..." She ordered herself not to close her eyes, and to pay attention to Nick's every move with the corners of her eyes, especially the direction of his tail swing, so as not to avoid it when he was about to hit her.

Fortunately Nick just slapped the ground with his tail to intimidate her, then he lifted her up and stuffed it into the cave, blocking the hole.

This was the first time he had put her in during the day.

Yang Fan breathed a sigh of relief. If she was locked up, it would be a punishment. Then the matter should have come to an end. After she slowly relaxed, she found that the muscles in her body were tensing tightly just now. Now they were sore and painful, and the muscles on her shoulders and calf were cramping.

Calm down, calm down…

She shrank into the corner, still shrank herself into a ball, holding her knees tightly against the inner wall of the cave. She unconsciously exerted force, and after discovering it, she ordered herself to relax, and then repeated the process constantly.

Her hands and feet are still cold and trembling.

She tried to analyze why Nick suddenly got angry.

She had done many things before, she cut the skins of earthy rats, stored dried wild fruits, and dried fish and shrimps. She had almost done anything for so long that Nick didn't get angry as much as she is today.

Is it because she used the meat of a dirt rat? But when she roasted the first piece of jerky and cooked it, he didn't react like this.

Is it a qualitative change caused by quantitative change?

Yang Fan tried to consider issues from the perspective of animals. For example, food is very important. They will fight for food, and even between the same races will do the same.

Nick had not stopped her from experimenting with the skin and wild fruit of the earth rat before, because it was not his food and he didn't care.

And his reaction to the meat of the earth mouse was because it was his food, and what she did was wasting food. Just like before he got angry, he tasted the jerky meat that she had roasted and cooked, and then vomited.

She wasted his food, so he got angry.

Since she found the reason, even if it was just her guess, she believed that this matter was developing in a good direction. For example, she would never waste Nick's food again, and she would not make the mistakes she had today again. And she would be more careful. During this period, her caution towards Nick was falling below a dangerous line. She must always remember that he could take her life at any time, and he was not a human being.

Yang Fan was waiting in the dark when Nick would release her. She stood from Nick's perspective to consider what kind of punishment he would give her. To lock her in was one aspect, and she might not give her food.

She avoided guessing whether he would hurt her, and she thought that since he had locked her in anger, he might not have hurt her again after he was relieved.

She subconsciously put the worse result in front of her, rather believe that everything is getting better.

She counted her heartbeat in the darkness, and after she became more and more impatient, she began to think about something else. She didn't dare to think about her food storage experiment immediately, although she had been relying on this to cheer up during this period.

She forced herself to think about how to make a pair of shoes that can survive the winter. Also, Nick looks like a lizard. She doesn't know if a lizard will hibernate, but a lizard is very similar to a snake. When a snake hibernates, if Nick hibernates, will she continue to live in this cave or find another place?

The question quickly attracted all her attention and pulled her away from the edge of fear. She had not yet come back to her senses until Nick opened the cave and the light came in.

Nick pulled her out. She found herself trembling unconsciously as he approached, and she couldn't help it. She was stiff like a stone, her hands and feet could not move and tightened into a ball.

She found that her fear of Nick was venting in another way. She actually lost her power of action! Her brain could still think. She remembered that the frog would remain motionless after being targeted by a snake. She thought that it was probably the reaction when she saw her natural enemy.

Losing the will to resist, the body completely loses control, and can only wait quietly for death.

This was the first time for her to react with such extreme fear on her body. Her head was spinning wildly, and she ordered herself to move. But it seemed that the effect was not good, and her hands and feet seemed to be no longer hers.

She felt more like Nick holding her hand, the cold sensation of the touch, powerful power, and sharp fingers. All terrible memories flocked back to her mind, and the only violent memories that were suppressed by her appeared vividly on her body.

She could make herself think she had forgotten or not cared about it, but her body still remembered. Now through Nick's hand, her body was remembered.

The first time the memory of the body and the feeling of separation between the brain, but this time it was enough for her to suffer. She began to take deep breaths, hoping to calm herself down through this. She couldn't continue to lose control.

She turned her head to look at the grass and blue sky next to her, trying to use these beautiful and peaceful things to forget the monsters beside her.

"Nick, Nick..." She called the name she gave him mechanically. She found that when she named him, she hoped to control him and turn him into a familiar monster she was familiar with, not a strange monster. Now the name is like her amulet, allowing her to believe that she is still familiar with Nick, not that monster beside her.

But these efforts failed when he grabbed her by the chin and fed her food!

She burst into tears! An unbelievable force erupted from her body. This force made her push him away with both hands and feet, and rolled and crawled in one direction.

She was quickly caught back, Nick hooked her back with her tail, very puzzled by her screams and struggles, he tied her legs with his tail and grabbed her hands with one hand.

Yang Fan had lost his mind at this time. She attacked the monster in front of her in extreme fear. But the next moment, the sudden tension of the muscles caused by this extreme fear and the sudden outbreak made her spasm, and then she suddenly fainted.

After she fainted, Nick didn't know what to do with her. She collapsed softly on the ground and didn't move. He found that she was now obedient, so he took her back and tried to feed her food, but no matter how many times he used his tongue to push the chewed meat into her mouth, she wouldn't swallow it.

She didn't bleed, so Nick thought she wasn't injured. She closed her eyes and seemed to be sleeping, but it was daytime and they were eating.

Nick had to hold her all the time, trying to feed her every bite to her. After she didn't eat it, he could only eat it by himself.

When Yang Fan woke up, she found that she was covered in meat from her chin to her chest. He was still holding her, and his tail kept surrounding her.

She just woke up and didn't remember what happened just now. After seeing her open her eyes, Nick handed the piece of fatty tender meat that had been roasting to her. This was the only piece of meat she could eat with her own teeth.

Yang Fan subconsciously took it. After taking two or three bites, what happened suddenly appeared in her mind! This made her choke, cough violently, and struggled to crawl away from Nick.

Nick stubbornly kept circling her with her tail.

She did not continue to resist, and she ordered herself to stop, and what happened just now could not happen again. She could not take risks. Maybe the next time she went crazy again, Nick would really hurt her.

When she found that she could control her body, she breathed a deep sigh of relief.
Chapter completed!