Evening is more lonely

Li Mao has resigned from the original company and started to participate in the operation of the new company, but Su Minghan is still in the original company for the time being, and he can only go when Li Mao’s company is on track. Li Mao always knows what I need, and he helped me get a library card from the Peking University Library. I finally had the opportunity to enter a vast world.

After browsing the book situation and my own needs, I ordered a preliminary reading plan. I prepared to read four hours a day and persist for a while. The ancients talked about reading the scriptures on a tough day and reading history on a soft day. I prefer miscellaneous books and strange essays, which seemed to confirm that I was not a material for academic studies. In recent days, I have been attracted by two books: "The Little Thirteen Classics" and "Secret Play Picture Examination". The previous book is very useful for mastering theories of various ancient arts; the latter book is a picture proof of ancient Chinese sexual culture by a foreigner.

And text summary. In my opinion, the "Little Thirteen Classics" proves my guess that ancient Chinese arts had formal academic sources and rich theoretical discussions. And "Secret Play Pictures" opened another window for me to know the ancients. Taoists seriously deny the value of sex, never interrupted sexual enjoyment and pursuit of sexual interest. The so-called Taoism is just to only allow state officials to set fires and not allow the people to light lamps. The true Tao must include nature. The ancient sage said: food, color, nature. Some sages also said: "Speedness is called Tao."

It's true that this is what it means.

After finding the theoretical basis, I thought I could naturally and unimpededly integrate into the voice and sex. I accepted the invitation from the rich second generation to come to a club, and by the way, I brought Su Minghan with me.

"Xiao Ma, this is my friend, Xiao Su."

"Brother Zhuang, Brother Su, get on." The Ford pickup truck between the truck and the sedan made me and Xiao Su appear unfamiliar with the posture of getting on the bus. Fortunately, Xiao Ma walked towards the cab and didn't see the embarrassment between us. I saw Xiao Su sticking out his tongue at me.

"Xiao Ma, does driving this car in Beijing seem too alternative?" I asked pretending to be experienced.

"Brother Zhuang, don't laugh at me. You said I'm like a coal boss, right? How can I have such a handsome coal boss? How effective is this? If you are a beauty, you think that a rich man will come, but the result will be a handsome guy. Are you surprised or surprised?"

"Maybe a rich driver will be waiting for me." I smiled and said, "then I'll be disappointed."

"Brother Zhuang, an experienced man. I have really encountered this situation. Once I went to a club in Xishan and ordered a venue. I got off the car and entered the door. When the beauty who received me met, I asked: handsome guy, when will the boss arrive? I made me laugh."

"You should answer her: I am a maid, can I tell you about the boss? If you wore a black windbreaker, the effect would be revealed."

"It's still my brother who has no experience. The clothes are black and the shirt is white. But the fuck I made a blue collar and wore a bright leather shoes. The temperament of the underworld can't come out at all."

"Hahaha" This is Su Minghan's first voice after getting on the car, and it suddenly scared me.

Before I came out, I told Xiao Su that I could take him, but I couldn't talk much. Only then did I feel that he was sitting next to me with a laugh.

Xiaoma should be a regular visitor here. As soon as our car arrived, the door opened, parking, and the jacket came with the flow. The manager led us to a private room: "Mr. Ma, the temperature is still right."

"That's it. You know the old rules." He then turned to me: "Brother Zhuang, should you choose a beauty or ask the manager to arrange it for us?"

"I'll follow your arrangement." I actually didn't know the meaning of these two, so I had to deal with it casually.

"It's OK. You call a few beauties, and you have a little cultural experience. If you don't, change it."

"Okay, please wait." After saying that, the manager brought the door with him when he went out.

"Brother Zhuang, I know you are a cultural person, so I think this place is more suitable for your temperament. Last time I asked you to go to Di Bar, I guess you were noisy, so you didn't agree to me. Today, I also found out about this place through my friends. I tried it a few times and thought that the most distinctive thing was the beauties here. Just listening to them, you feel itchy, and I guess it's about your taste."

At this time, the knock on the door sounded, and three beauties came in. Despite the ambiguous lighting and the music was eroded, it was still obvious that they were dressed elegantly and had natural expressions.

"Brother Ma, I haven't been here these two days, I've been waiting for you for three days." As soon as the slightly cute voice on the left came out, I was shocked. Why did there be such a nice voice?

"You remember me, come on, tell me, who will help me with Brother Zhuang?" Xiaoma pulled me over Xiaoyin and snuggled together.

Xiaoyin turned her head to me and said, "Oh, Brother Zhuang is so cold. I guess only Sister Juan can warm you up." When the girl in the middle sat beside me, I didn't know how I should react, and she looked numb. It was probably the so-called "cold". Another person named Sister Hong went to accompany Xiao Su, and they got together and started to whisper.

When a woman in the entertainment venue meets a fresh guest, she will draw the distance between the guests by playing games and watching hands. But this sister Juan is different. She looks at me like this, so close, she can hear breathing and feel the warmth!

Finally, I was furious. "Is there any words on my face?"

"Yes, there are three words on your face: unhappy."

"How can I see it?"

"Why don't you hold my hand if you dare to look at me?" I pulled her hand.

"Lah is also unhappy, you can deal with me." I held her shoulder.

"Forget it, Brother Zhuang, I'm not your dish, do you want to change one?" A hint of shame and complaint came out in her voice.

"If you don't change, you'll be there. Don't think too much, can we talk first?"

Then, I drank, sang, and watched the slow shaking of Xiaoma and Xiaoyin. In the mist, the atmosphere became ambiguous. I suddenly realized that Xiaojuan had been sitting on my lap, and we were still talking for a long time!

I reacted shamefully, and I mean the body.

Later, I guess I had a lot of alcohol, and I don’t know how it ended, and I don’t know if I had said goodbye to them. I woke up only when I got in the car and heard the engine ringing.

"Brother Zhuang, you're not investing. Next time, I'll change my position."

"Okay, Xiaoma, I guess I'm not very used to today's wine, so there's a little more."

"Okay, next time, we won't order wine. Xiao Su and I didn't drink it. I guess that bottle was bought by you and Xiao Juan. I thought you like this kind of wine."

"Brother Zhuang is angry. He doesn't believe that he can't drink this woman, and he ends up suffering. Hahaha!" Xiao Su smiled, and the car was filled with a pleasant atmosphere.

When I got off the car and went home, Li Mao had not come back yet. Xiao Su was obviously very excited. He told me about the characteristics of the three girls, about Sister Hong's crisp body temperature, and said that Sister Juan and I only know how to drink and talk, and seemed to be indifferent. And so on.

"Brother Zhuang, I think you should let go when you come out to play. The first time I went to such a high-end place, I really have witnessed it. I must take me next time, Brother Zhuang. Damn, it's good to have money!"

"Let's go to bed, see money, and see lustful guys!" They all went back to their houses.

Lying on the bed, I was thinking, the reason why I couldn't let go is to maintain a gentleman's image in front of Xiaoma Xiaosu? No, this is not the state that young people should have. Besides, I didn't keep it, and I was sitting on it. It is to respect women and keep a polite distance habitually. No, integrating with guests is their job, and being ambiguous with them is the main content of our consumption. Besides, I am not that pure. I am to stick to the bottom line of morality? No, is it that Xiaoma Xiaosu immoral? Did I be moral at that time? Is the bottom line that is not to get started, not to get on, not to get on the bed? Besides, I also reacted, what's the situation?

It should be, first of all, that is not adaptable. This large scale without emotional foundation makes me extremely uncomfortable. If all reactions are not physiological, they are forced and unnatural. Secondly, I have a psychological presumption that physical contact without emotional integration is abnormal, harmful, and shameful. Finally, this kind of nightclub is not what I need.

What do I need? I need a woman’s true unreserved love for me, such as the mother’s love for her son, the love that the lover’s soul integrates, at least it is a love that matches the three views. And this kind of love should be interactive and unconditional. So, it cannot be bought. I may drink to cover up the embarrassment, perhaps to escape reality, or to deliberately make myself more empty.

I saw through the hypocrisy of the bar at first glance, and there was a mountain that was separated from my heart by the warmth of the beauty.

I made a few nonsense lines and went to bed.

While sleeping, I had a dream and I returned to my hometown, in that village, in that mud house. My father seemed to be chopping wood, my mother seemed to be cooking. There were roosters crowing outside the house and the hens hugging their nests. There was a barking dog. I seemed to hear the sound of the door opening. Some guests arrived?

Li Mao came back. I woke up, my mouth was dry, so I poured some water to drink.

"Brother Zhuang, I'm sorry to wake you up."

"Ah it's twelve o'clock, I'm sober and I want to drink water. Why do you come back so late every day?"

"Oh, if a new company is established, everything will be difficult at the beginning."

"Didn't it mean it's natural? What's the difficulty?"

"Brother Zhuang, if you don't ask, I don't want to say it. If you don't want to sleep, make a cup of tea and let's talk."

"OK."

I made tea and went into the house. Seeing Li's hut in a bad mood, his face was haggard. "What's wrong, are you tired?"

"I'm not afraid of being tired, the key is that I have many troubles. You know, we are doing technology well. We have no experience running a company alone. We have been running a lot of unreachable ways and have not obtained administrative licenses and business licenses. A few days ago, we learned that there was such a special agency who gave them the fee and completed it in one week. We have been running for many days."

"Professional people do professional things, and they have to learn from scratch when doing business."

Li Mao nodded, took a sip of tea, and continued: "At present, we are facing another problem, financing issues, and financial issues, all of which are pitfalls."

"Aren't you going to find a professional financial company?"

"What if they sold us? How can they determine his loyalty and ability level by recruiting people?"

I know that he encountered problems most companies encountered: those who are capable may not necessarily trust, and those who are trustworthy may not necessarily have the ability.
Chapter completed!