He looked at me, he sighed, and then told me gently: If you don’t like these candidates, don’t be afraid, we will not force you to marry anyone.

Finally, he looked at me and smiled. He asked me: Tell me, who do you want to marry? I will tell you the guy that if the other party refuses, I will tie him up and marry you.

I know...he or the queen have always been very good to me, and they really treat me like family.

But at that moment, I looked into his eyes, and I really wanted to say to him loudly:

Du Wei, I want to marry you!

But, I dare not say it after all.

I... am just a palace maid."

...

“I’m sick again.

This time I became more ill.

Her Majesty the Queen will come to see me every day. She sits in front of the bed and stays with me and studies for me. Just like when she was sick when she was young, I stay with her.

I don't know when my illness will be cured, maybe... maybe it will never be cured.

I asked the queen what the medical officer said, she just smiled at me with red eyes and told me not to be afraid.

Actually, I know that she is lying to me.

When she was very young, I followed her and blinked every time she told lies. I never told her this.

Maybe, this time, I'm going to die."

...

“It snowed today.

The first snow this year came very early.

Her Majesty the Queen hasn't come to see me again in the past two days.

Her belly was getting bigger and bigger and she could no longer walk casually.

Yesterday, someone carried me over to see me. She held my hand and said to me with tears, "Let me be strong."

In any case, she hoped that I could see her children. She also said, let me get better quickly, and in the future, she hoped that my children would be taken care of.

I kept laughing, and when she left, I hid in the quilt and cried."

...

“I know, I’m dying.

I can no longer leave the room.

The cold wind outside blew on my body. I felt a pain all over my body.

I started to lose my hair, and I fell more and more.

I was very scared. Looking at myself in the mirror, I was extremely scared.

I'm afraid that I will get uglier and older.

Today, he came to see me.

I was very surprised - he was so busy every day. I heard that there was a snow disaster in the south, so he should be very anxious now, right?

When he came, he was very excited and told me that the queen had given birth to a child.

It's a boy.

I lay on the bed, looking at him quietly, and the smile lines on the corners of his mouth.

He has always been so beautiful and so young.

It was as if he had seen him for the first time... it seemed that he had never changed in the past ten years.

And I...I'm old.

I am no longer the little girl hiding behind and peeking at him with a red face.

I'm... old.

And... it's almost dead."

...

"Today, he is here to see me again.

The queen still did not come. He frowned and said that the queen was sick and was very weak after giving birth and could not go to the ground.

He sat in front of the bed and studied stories about me.

I suddenly interrupted him.

I said: Du Wei, can I make a few requests to you?

Oh my God... This is the first time I've called his name directly.

My heartbeats very quickly and quickly at that time... very quickly and quickly.

He was not angry, but just smiled at me. When he smiled, his eyebrows were curved. It was still so beautiful.

He told me: Of course.

I asked him to read to me that volume of "General History of the Mainland".

This book was used when he was a teacher for the Queen.

He took the books from the bookcase. He was a little surprised: It turns out that these books are here with you?

I didn't say anything. I just looked at him.

He stayed with me for an hour here - for such a busy imperial king, I was very satisfied that I could leave such a little palace maid for an hour.

Finally, I asked him: Can you tell me what the "Wu Zhou" you wrote means?

He looked at me, he was smiling and frowning.

Then, he patted my hand and said, I will tell you tomorrow. Also, when you recover from illness, I will meet any of your requirements."

...

"Today, I waited for a full day...he didn't come.

The palace maid who brought me food said that the queen's condition was not very good. She was a little sick after giving birth, so he kept there and never left.

I was lying on the bed, not knowing what I was thinking.

I pray for the Queen... I love her very much, I hope she can get better quickly.

And I...ah, I'm just a little palace maid.

How could I hope he can take care of me like his wife?

He... will come back tomorrow?"

...

“I know, I’m dying.

My hair was almost gone. I was so painful that I didn't fall asleep last night.

Today, I suddenly wanted to go out and have a look.

This winter... is so long and long.

I really want to see the flowers of spring again.

But I know... I'm probably destined to be out of sight.

He came to see me today, but left in a hurry.

When he left, I sat on the bed, watched him give me a smile, and then closed the door.

I suddenly wanted to say to him: Du Wei, I want to marry you.

But I didn't dare to say it.

And he naturally wouldn't hear the voice in my heart.

I can no longer walk, so I am lying here to write this article...

I don't know if I have another chance to write another article.

Maybe this is my last diary.

If I die tomorrow, if anyone sees this diary.

I just want people to know one thing...even if there is only one person in the world knows:

Du Wei…I love you.

In this world, there is an insignificant little palace maid named Lanlan. She once loved you very much."

...
To be continued...