I haven't posted a single chapter for a long time, and I've been nagging a few words at the end of the month, which is a simple release of the recent pressure.

May has passed. According to the original update plan, the case in Wuchen Village in Dongzhou has long ended. Now that it is half of the case of Yin and Yang Sect, it is almost time to push the two Simings.

Unfortunately, this month's update has collapsed...

But looking back on everything I experienced this month, I was really exhausted, and being able to update stably was just doing my best. This month is a rather collapsed moment in my life. I traveled in the hospital almost every day, constantly moving from this city to that city, and such days are still continuing.

Nothing is always smooth sailing, and nothing is a hurdle that cannot be overcome. In April last year, my mother was diagnosed with advanced gallbladder cancer. The doctor said she could only live for six to eight months. It was the darkest moment in her life. Fortunately, after active treatment, it seemed that the condition began to improve, which gave me the energy to open a new book. Now it has been almost a year, and people are still alive, which is the greatest comfort. However, this month, my mother's condition suddenly began to worsen and progress very quickly. Thinking about it, I was too naive. If the terminal illness could be treated so easily, it would not be a terminal illness. I could only continue to be hospitalized, chemotherapy, radiotherapy,... to blindly try targeting, and immunized PD1. Unfortunately, after going to many hospitals, there was no effective treatment plan. One of the doctors with good relationships called me to the office alone and said one sentence: Don't bother, give up.

Give up...

It was really desperate and sarcastic to hear this from the doctor, but I also understood that he really kindly reminded me that after all, this cancer type is the only one that has not been launched on the market. It can only be tested blindly. The treatment is all in the exploratory stage. It is better to leave some quiet time for the patients. But I was unwilling to give up. If I gave up the book, I could open a new book. If I gave up my life, it would be gone. I could only continue to go to other hospitals and ask other patients for treatment methods... Even if there is still no hope in front of me.

This month is a month when I can't feel any temperature. Although it is still updating, I rarely play with memes, drive or add some energy to funny plots. I just open the outline in my spare time every day and write it dryly according to the outline. My brain feels stuck in a ball of glue. Sometimes I also want to stop for two days to adjust it, but to be a cliché, I have to make money to cure the disease. After all, everyone who knows it knows that if you really want to cure this disease, it is a bottomless pit. Many patients can't afford it, and they are sentenced to their "death penalty".

There are really many, many patients like that...

Only by having a personal experience can you feel the deep sense of powerlessness.

All we can only hope for is everything.

What makes people feel most sad this month is that some hospitals are unwilling to accept patients like my mother at all. Perhaps they are afraid of trouble and know that they are no longer helpful. Sometimes when they go to the hospital, it is like going to the government to do business, and there is no one behind them and they can’t do anything.

The day before yesterday, my mother was busy for a long time because of her ascites, which made her feel powerless.

I wanted to hold a little hope and let the doctor treat it in a radical way, but the doctor ignored it. But this is not a mistake for the doctor. The hospital needs various evaluations, performance, and the difference in the price of making money. The medical comparison is not only the doctor, but also the system reason.

In short, everyone has difficulties, patients, family members, and doctors...

...

Forget it, let’s talk about the book.

The case in Dongzhou is only a few chapters at most. The next case is Wuchen Village, and there are not many cases about Xiao Xuan'er. Then, there will be Yin-Yang Sect, Pisces Kingdom and Guanshan Courtyard, which will end in court.

There are actually not many plots left, so I don’t have the energy to expand.

Although the update this month was awkward, the foreshadowing and pitfalls buried in the later cases in the book were written out. After those cases were over, the book could only end in this way.

All I can do is to work hard to write the story, that's all.

The ending must be a great reunion.

...

Let's just say a lot of things for the time being, but I don't know what to say. After feeling a certain age, those familiar people began to say goodbye and left this world one after another.

My grandmother passed away two years ago, and another grandmother who loved me the most in October last year passed away. The familiar and unfamiliar ones, the parents of friends, the elders of neighbors... all those who lived in their memories were slowly erased from their memories. It is also proving that they are about to enter a cycle.

Life comes quickly and goes quickly.

Last week, I came out of Lanzhou University First Hospital and went to Baiyin to find a patient to seek some experience. It happened that my college roommate was from Jingtai over there, so I took a look. Unexpectedly, a marathon incident happened. I felt that so many young lives ended almost at the close range. My heart was full of flavors. Life is really extremely fragile, sometimes even more fragile than dandelions.

There are many misfortunes in this world, but life still needs to continue and try to look forward.

Finally, let me talk about the cause of my mother. My mother suffered from advanced stage of gallbladder cancer, which is also the cancer with extremely high malignancy and the worst prognosis. At present, the only cancer disease that does not have a special drug on the market can only be used to blind trials with targeted drugs for other cancers. The reason is that there are fewer people who have such cancers internationally, and the proportion of our country is relatively high, so few have developed ones. According to the doctor's explanation, the reason for the cause of my mother's cause is that she does not eat breakfast for a long time and consumes very little water every day, which induces gallstones, and does not perform surgery in time, which eventually leads to lesions. Therefore, whether you are yourself or your parents, you should warn breakfast. If your parents have gallstones, you must undergo surgery and don't delay it.

Health is the most important thing.

But to be honest, even if I advise everyone to pay attention to their health, there are actually very few people who really take it to their hearts.

Just like my classmate's father died of liver cancer two years ago, she kept advising us to pay more attention to our parents' health and experience it regularly. Although we said we would pay attention, we didn't take it to heart at all because we always felt that this kind of thing was far away from us and would not happen to ourselves or our own family.

But after it really happens, what else can you do except regret?

The same is true now. After my mother was diagnosed, I tried my best to persuade my friends to do a checkup for myself or my parents, have breakfast, etc., and they all agreed with a serious expression, but I knew very well that few people took it to heart. Even if I care, I went back because of my laziness and delayed it again and again, and finally I forgot it.

It is difficult to get rid of people's luck mentality.

...

Let’s talk about this first. I will remain stable after the updates can be stable. If there is an outline, I will not affect my emotions too much in the book.

I sincerely hope that everyone will pay attention to their health and the health of their parents.

Good night.
Chapter completed!