The money needed was really a lot. Jiang Kexin actually didn't choose this person at the first time, but how much could her classmates borrow from her? When she was powerless, in order to keep her mother alive, she chose to sell her body.

Sometimes, fate really leaves you with no choice, or no matter what choice you make, the road is paved with thorns or mountains of knives, and you have to move forward while you are still alive.

Although Jiang Kexin's mother's operation was successful, she still needed money after the operation, as well as her brother's tuition fees, her father's medication expenses, and foreign debts. Jiang Kexin really wanted to die, but she had to grit her teeth and persevere.

, even if life slowly makes her become indifferent, like a body.

Of course, there is much more than that. When Jiang Kexin's parents found out that Jiang Kexin was being adopted, they did not choose to scold Jiang Kexin because they knew that Jiang Kexin had given them life-saving money in exchange. However, the two powerless people could only pray for Jiang Kexin to continue.

Being taken care of by others in exchange for more money.

Although Jiang Kexin's parents found these words difficult to say, they were moved when they saw how much money Jiang Kexin brought them and wanted to get rid of such a poor life as soon as possible.

In their eyes, since Jiang Kexin has already embarked on the path of being kept, what does it matter if she continues on?

The X who was noted by Jiang Kexin only wanted young Jiang Kexin. He had never had any affection for her and only regarded her as a tool. Of course, this person was quite trustworthy and had never treated Jiang Kexin badly financially.

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It seems like a blessing in misfortune?

She alienated her classmates because she didn't want anyone to understand her, and she was afraid that others would know her secrets. She had been silently escaping from the world, but she had to live a strong life. She had no backing, only herself.

As for Jiang Kexin's desire to learn guitar on National Day, it was just because of X's sudden interest. He gave Jiang Kexin a guitar in the hope that Jiang Kexin could play a song he liked to listen to, nothing more.

This is also a hint, because every time Jiang Kexin meets X's requirements, X will naturally increase financial support for Jiang Kexin, and the two have formed a sad tacit understanding.

There were also many small details and trivial matters in life, which Chu Zixian was shocked to hear. He could not imagine that Jiang Kexin, who was only three or four years older than him, had experienced so many storms. He wanted to comfort him but didn't know where to start.

Seeing Chu Zixian's hesitant expression, Jiang Kexin smiled calmly and said, "Okay, it's all over. The secret I've been holding back for so long is now revealed, and I feel a lot more relaxed."

"To be honest, I hid my admiration from you. If it were me, I would have collapsed a long time ago." Chu Zixian said sincerely.

"Maybe." Jiang Kexin smiled. Although she said these words to Chu Zixian, she couldn't help but sigh for herself.

"Will you leave him in the future?" Chu Zixian asked a question he wanted to know.

"Yes, don't you know that he has arranged a job for me? It's enough to support myself." Jiang Kexin said without hesitation.

There was infinite longing for a new life in his eyes, and Chu Zixian couldn't help but look sideways. At this time, Jiang Kexin had a different charm and vitality than before.

"But your family doesn't need money anymore?" Chu Zixian was confused.

"My father passed away more than half a year ago. Without the cost of imported medicines, the pressure is much less. My mother has been in good health these years, and she can do simple odd jobs. The foreign debts of my relatives have been paid off some time ago.

I left a sum of money for my mother and brother. I think this is enough. I still compromise myself now. I just want a job and some reserve funds. Although I have decided to leave that person, I have no ability to support myself and do not do anything for myself.

So well prepared, what if we fall back again?"

Jiang Kexin said this, turned to look at the night outside the window, and said softly: "I don't want to live this kind of life anymore, and I don't want to be bound by anyone. I'm even more afraid that I will fall again by then. I'm afraid I will really lose my determination and determination now."

courage."

"I want to live the life I want and do the things I want to do." Jiang Kexin suddenly turned back to look at Chu Zixian and said to him firmly: "The time for you to appear is just right, because I have decided

I know what you are thinking about during the National Day, but I don’t dare. I feel that I am not worthy of you, so I remind you in a subtle way.

, I even took the initiative to cut off contact with you, but during this rehearsal, you kept making me feel like you. If you don’t mind, I welcome you here at any time.”

What Chu Zixian saw was a pair of determined eyes, but unfortunately Jiang Kexin couldn't hide the panic and low self-esteem deep in her eyes.

"I..." Chu Zixian heard what he wanted to hear before, but he was not as happy and excited as he imagined, so he hesitated.

"Ah, I seem to be a little sleepy. I'm going to sleep. If you want to stay or leave, you can decide for yourself." After saying that, Chu Zixian walked quickly to the bedroom without waiting for a reply.

The moment the door was closed, Jiang Kexin's voice came out again: "No matter what, our friendship will not change."

"Click." The door closed, leaving Chu Zixian with complicated thoughts.

Different from the panic and confusion that time when he was kissed on the cheek, his rationality was completely online this time, but the clearer his mind was, the more uncomfortable he felt in his heart.

Some things are easy in the first place, but after certain conditions exist, they become extremely difficult to choose.

"Headache!" Chu Zixian couldn't help rubbing his forehead with his hands. He suddenly felt sympathy for Xiang Xiaodong, who was as crazy as that time, and realized that it was difficult for him to make such a choice. However, Jiang Kexin was not as strong as Li Tong.

Putting the initiative in his hands.

Really unable to make a decision rationally, Chu Zixian left the decision to his heart. He stood up from the sofa and walked gently to the door of the bedroom. He paused for a few seconds and pushed the door open with his hand.

The handle opened the door.

Jiang Kexin's room was decorated simply and warmly. Jiang Kexin's breathing on the bed was obviously a little short of breath when she opened the door, but she chose to continue pretending to sleep.

The desk lamp in the room was on, and the dim light shone on Jiang Kexin's face, making this lovely person even more beautiful.

Stepping to the bedside, Chu Zixian squatted down and looked at Jiang Kexin's face, whose breathing was getting more and more rapid. He put his head and gently tapped Jiang Kexin's face.

Just like when Jiang Kexin kissed him on the cheek.

"Hmm~~~" Jiang Kexin murmured, but still closed her eyes and planned to continue pretending to sleep.

But Chu Zixian beside the bed never felt the same impulse again, the impulse to go forward and be with Jiang Kexin.

He remembered the feeling that had happened so clearly that it was impossible to confuse it.

"why why?"
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