Chapter 231: Apical Pain (12) The red light in the operating room has been on. Mu Zexi has been waiting outside the door for five hours. His body is still stained with red blood stains. [] It seems that these blood stains cannot be removed.

, penetrated into the bottom of his heart. He sat slumped on the board

On the bench, someone seemed to be sitting next to him talking to him, but who it was and what he said, he had no idea. The red blood, bright red, seemed to be that Tang Fangge's life had been sucked away. His body was trapped for a moment.

In that sea of ​​blood, I couldn't come back to my senses for a long time.

Long Yi and Luo Shishi were sitting next to Mu Zexi. Luo Shishi didn't dare to say a word. At this moment, Mu Zexi seemed to have no soul, which made her heartbroken.

No matter who spoke to him, he didn't feel it, and maybe he couldn't hear it at all. At first, Luo Shishi really wanted to scold Mu Zexi, but seeing him like this, she felt that Mu Zexi was also very pitiful from the bottom of her heart.

When the words came to her lips, she couldn't say anything, she just stayed with him quietly like a dragon.

The lights in the operating room showed no sign of dimming, and everything was so quiet that it was scary. There was a lingering haze in the air, and this gloom suppressed everyone's hearts.

When the door opened, Mu Zexi immediately raised his head, but his heart felt as if he had been hit by a sledgehammer.

Bai Xiao pulled down his mask, and there was an indescribable tiredness in his eyes.

"Playing songs, how is she?" Mu Zexi quickly arrived in front of Bai Xiao and asked.

"The child has been taken out, but her condition is not good." There are some things that Bai Xiao did not tell Mu Zexi at all. During the operation, they had performed cardiac resuscitation three times. For a quarter of an hour, Tang Fangge's heart had stopped.

If it weren't for the assistant physician on the side, Bai Xiao himself might not be able to move. Bai Xiao didn't intend to tell Mu Zexi about these things, as his condition made him feel uneasy.

"The situation is not good, what's going on?" Mu Zexi's voice was a little broken, his words were heavy and worried, and he grabbed Bai Xiao's clothes with his big hands, almost falling into a frenzy.

"The operation has been completed. Now it's up to her."

"She is still alive, right?" Mu Zexi almost couldn't ask this question because he was afraid that he would hear the word death.

Bai Xiao nodded, and the door of the operating room opened. The doctor pushed Tang Fangge out of the operating room and sent him directly to the intensive care unit. Tang Fangge's face was pale, as if he was asleep. Mu Zexi wanted to chase him, but

His legs couldn't move. Deep inside, he felt guilty, even sorry for her. If he had discussed it with her, if he could have used a better method, maybe she wouldn't have chosen such an extreme method.

Despondently, Mu Zexi fell to the ground.

Long Yi let go of Luo Shishi's hand and came behind Mu Zexi. His hand pressed on Mu Zexi's shoulder, "Now is not the time to blame yourself and be sad. She still needs you."

Suddenly, Mu Zexi raised his head, and a little hope vaguely rose in his almost unfocused eyes. Long Yi was right, if he blames himself now, or even falls down, then maybe Fang Ge will really leave him.

She is still waiting for him, maybe waiting for him 3f

In the intensive care unit, Mu Zexi only dared to look at Tang Fangge from a distance. Her breathing seemed weak. Sometimes he was even afraid that she would really leave him.

The condition of the two children was even worse. Due to the mother's weakness and the accidental collision, the children were born prematurely. The two palm-sized little things were also lying in the intensive care unit, but Maki Zexi almost never visited them.

This made Luo Shishi feel dissatisfied, but there was nothing he could do. At this moment, two children plus an adult were enough to make Mu Zexi miserable.

In just five days, Mu Zexi was tortured to the point of being reduced to human form. The two children had been staying in the intensive care unit, and all the critical illness notices were in Bai Xiao's hands. He did not dare to call Mu Zexi at all.

Jersey saw thirty or forty critical illness notices for three people, almost every day.

Tang Fangge's heart was failing little by little, and breathing became more difficult. Only on the sixth day did she wake up.

It is a joy to wake up suddenly, but there is no smile on Mu Zexi's face. He is deeply afraid of one thing, whether she will come back to her senses, which makes his heart almost stop beating.

Tang Fangge opened her eyes and just glanced at Mu Zexi in front of her. She reached out and touched her belly. The child seemed to be gone. Tears rolled down her eyes. She looked at Mu Zexi, without love or anything.

Hate, just looking at it so lightly.

"Play a song..." Mu Zexi wanted to grab her hand excitedly, but the coldness and alienation in her eyes made him dare not go forward and touch her.

Tang Fangge didn't look at Mu Zexi, but looked at Bai Xiao from a distance. She had something to say. With almost all her efforts, she stretched out her finger to point at Bai Xiao.

Bai Xiao walked up to Tang Fangge, lowered his head slowly, and tried hard to listen to her.

"The child is gone..." Looking at Bai Xiao, Tang Fangge flapped his lips and asked hard.

Bai Xiao didn't know how to answer Tang Fangge. The condition of the two children was also very bad. He didn't know whether they could survive. How to return to Tang Fangge now? Bai Xiao was stunned for a moment.

Tang Fangge looked at Bai Xiao and saw guilt and pain in his eyes. Her lips curled up slightly, then she slowly closed her eyes and fell asleep again.

Mu Zexi tried hard to restrain herself, restraining herself, fearing that she would rush over. She only wanted to ask Bai Xiao, but not him. It seemed that she really hated herself.

"I just fell asleep. It's a good sign to wake up now." Bai Xiao knew that Mu Zexi was in pain. His voice was a little weak, so he could only comfort him in this way.

Mu Zexi turned around and left the ward. She didn't want to see herself, not at all. Thinking of this, he felt that his heart seemed to be bloody, and even the pain was paralyzing.

After leaving the ward, Bai Xiao called Mu Zexi directly to the office. He had something to tell Mu Zexi and he had to make a decision now.

"Heart failure is accelerating. If it continues, it will not last more than a month at most." Bai Xiao did not finish the next words, because these words were undoubtedly a death notice.

"Is there any way?" Mu Zexi tried hard to calm down. He had to spend all his energy to calm down these days. Now, it was not the time for him to fall down.

"If possible, only a heart transplant will do."

"I understand." Mu Zexi just replied and left Bai Xiao's office. As long as there is a glimmer of hope, he will not give up.

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Tang Fangge woke up, but her waking time seemed to be getting less and less. She wanted to see Luo Shishi, and with Mu Zexi's consent, Luo Shishi was able to see Tang Fangge in the intensive care unit.

Before Luo Shishi could speak, tears kept falling.

"Why are you crying?" Tang Fangge looked at Luo Shishi and tried hard to smile, but her smile was full of bitterness.

"..." Luo Shishi just cried sadly, feeling painful because of such things between the two of them. "Fangge, Mu Zexi is not what you think. In fact, he is also very painful. Because your health is not good, that's why

The child had to be removed.”

Tang Fangge heard Luo Shishi's words, but she didn't say anything, just a wry smile on her lips.

"No matter what the reason is, he should listen to my thoughts. I don't want to hear about him anymore. Shi Shi, I really envy you for living a carefree life. My life is only twenty-three years, why do I

I feel as if I have lived seventy years."

"Don't say that. As long as you live, there will always be happy things in the future." Luo Shishi could only comfort Tang Fangge in this way. She felt that her eyes were lifeless, which made her worried.

"Is it a happy thing? I feel like I am carrying a lot of wounds. I really don't know if I can persevere until the end. I often wake up, suddenly in the middle of the night, and I don't understand why I wake up again.

I thought I would fall asleep like this and go see my parents. Every time I opened my eyes, it made me feel miserable. My life seemed to have passed long ago.

It's over." Tang Fangge's words revealed the thought of ending her life, and her heart seemed to be overflowing with pain. Her heart was raining, and it was raining all the time. She could no longer see the sun, and she couldn't even see the sun.

She no longer longed for the warmth of the sun. This heavy rainy day made her just want to sleep like this and never wake up. Love and family affection all disappeared in the rainy day.

Looking at Tang Fangge who was so depressed, Luo Shishi felt at a loss and wanted to persuade, but she didn't know what she was going to say. She just looked at Tang Fangge blankly, tears falling from the corners of her eyes.

"Fang Fang, don't think too hard." This sentence was a bit frightening and a little scary. Luo Shishi was really afraid that Tang Fang Ge wouldn't be able to think too hard. Her current mental state was the most worrying.

Tang Fangge looked at Luo Shishi, and the tears in her eyes fell one by one. Her voice was distant and empty, like a blank sky, with white everywhere. There was no emotion, and it was flying faintly in the air, without a foothold.

place.

"It's not that I can't think about it, I just don't know how I can survive. I feel like I don't even have the strength to hate, and even hating makes me feel tired."

Only now did Luo Shishi understand why Tang Fangge had been so calm these past few days, so calm that she was shocked. It turned out that it wasn't that he didn't hate, but that he didn't have the strength to hate. If people don't even have love and hate,

, then a person seems to have no strength to live. It is because of love, hatred, and desire that people can live in this world. However, Tang Fangge now has no love, no hatred, and even

All hope was gone, her hope of living was gone.

"Shi Shi, can you do me a favor?" Tang Fangge's somewhat desireless eyes suddenly sparkled with clusters of sparks.

"What's the deal?" Luo Shishi looked a little scared. Tang Fangge asked her to help, but what suddenly ignited in her eyes was not a spark of hope.

"I hope you can kill me." As soon as he said this, Luo Shishi was so frightened that he almost fell to the ground.

Luo Shishi opened her eyes wide and shook her hands vigorously. She was really scared. Now everyone was trying to keep Tang Fangge alive, but she wanted to kill her. She would not do such a thing.

"No, no, if I kill you, I will be a murderer. Let's sing, your suggestion is not good."

"Haha, it's not really death. Didn't you say that you have a medicine that can cause people to fall into suspended animation after taking it, and no one will find out? I just want that medicine, and your forgetfulness, I want to forget

Everything, everything, I want to forget. My heart always feels like a river bank that is about to burst, so

I'm begging you. I can't figure out why I'm still alive now. I just want to live again. Maybe I will find the meaning of living. My current heart makes me miserable, but I can't shed it.

Come out with these feelings." Tang Fangge put his hand on his heart, and there was pain in his eyes, a deep pain.

Luo Shishi thought for a long time. She really didn't know if she should do this. "If you do this, have you ever thought about Mu Zexi, your brother, and Xiaomi..."

"Everyone has their own life. I just want to live quietly. I want to live in a strange environment, not knowing anyone, and living without being bound to anyone." Tang Fangge

Looking at Luo Shishi, his eyes were full of longing.

"Singing..."

"If you really want me to die, you can choose not to help me." This sentence was obviously a threat. Luo Shishi felt that she really didn't know what to do. If she didn't help her, she would just look at her.

Go to hell. But if you help her, then watch her die.

Tang Fangge had made up his mind, and Luo Shishi could only nod in agreement. Who knows how many years will pass after this goodbye.

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It was also a hospital, but Mu Zexi was not in Tang Fangge's ward, but in another ward. Lying in the ward was a woman who couldn't move, with only a pair of almond-shaped eyes exposed.

Mu Zexi didn't understand what Song Nicai meant by asking him to come, but he came anyway. He saw her get into a car accident that day, but he didn't expect that she would still be alive today.

"What do you want from me?" Mu Zexi's voice was hoarse, and it was obvious that he hadn't had a good rest for a long time.

Song Nicai looked at Mu Zexi, and there was a smile in her eyes. The most heated discussion in the hospital recently was about the people in the ward on the tenth floor. She naturally knew who it was. Song He let her go.
To be continued...