"Are you awake? Come on, this is honey water. Do you need to take some headache powder?" Hong Ya's red eyes and her smiling face immediately appeared in front of her eyes.

I suddenly remembered how drunk I was yesterday, "Did you help me here?"

She immediately laughed, "What support? You were so drunk that I couldn't help you at all. In the end, I spent two hundred yuan to hire a male waiter from the restaurant to carry you into my car.

Yes, when I got here, I hired security to take you out of the car. Your body is worth four hundred yuan."

I suddenly felt embarrassed and said, "Hong Ya, thank you. I was in a bad mood yesterday."

Her smile immediately subsided, and she nodded: "I know. Feng Xiao, I know you are feeling bitter."

I looked at her and suddenly noticed that her eye circles were a little purple, "Hong Ya, you didn't sleep all night?"

She sighed softly, "Sister Lin also came to see you last night. Even though she rarely cries, she also shed tears. Hey! Why do you make people feel so distressed?"

I suddenly became ashamed and said, "Hongya, I don't deserve this."

She glared at me and said, "Whether it's worth it or not is our business and has nothing to do with you. Come on, drink this honey water and do you want to take this medicine?"

I took the glass of honey water and drank it immediately, "I won't take medicine anymore. My head doesn't hurt much. Hong Ya, you can rest. You worked hard last night."

She smiled brightly at me and said, "Feng Xiao, I want to sleep next to you."

I sighed secretly in my heart, and then retracted my body back into the bed. She chuckled, then quickly took off her clothes and got in, then stretched out her white lotus-like arms.

He hugged me and said, "Feng Xiao, I want you to sleep with me like this."

I hugged her, but there was no lust at all. She didn't move, and just fell asleep slowly in my arms. The lingering power of the drink was still there, and I quickly fell asleep.

When I woke up, I found that she was still in my arms, and she seemed to have already woken up, because I clearly felt her hand rubbing my crotch. I stretched out my hand to grab her hand.

, "Hong Ya, don't, I'm not in the mood right now."

She immediately stopped moving and whispered to me: "I'm sorry."

I felt very guilty for her, but I couldn't overcome the psychological barrier I had now, so I had no choice but to pat her back lightly a few times, "Hong Ya, I..."

She sighed softly, "I know, and I understand you. It's my fault."

Just like that, we hugged each other, but there were no more words. In fact, I know that we are trying our best to avoid any topic about Chen Yuan, which is why we are so silent.

In the end, she was the first to speak, "Feng Xiao, are you hungry? Can I cook for you?"

I shook my head, "No, I have to go home right away."

She asked in surprise: "Isn't there no one at home?"

I said: "But I feel her breath is still there."

She gently stroked my chest, "Feng Xiao, please don't be like this, okay? Although I know that you feel so guilty now because of her leaving, but you can't go on like this forever?"

I said: "Hong Ya, I really want to go back and stay alone for a while, and then I will take some of her things to burn for her. I am so sorry for her. I have never been like this when she was alive.

I felt guilty, and at that time I was still blaming her in my heart, which is why I was so bold with you. Now that I think about it, I really shouldn’t have.”

She immediately stood up, her face right in front of my eyes, "Feng Xiao, I don't agree with what you said. Although I know you feel guilty for her, because she is your wife after all, but she was like that at that time

situation, there is nothing wrong with what you did. If you really have any fault, it is that you violated the so-called moral ethics, but have you ever thought about it? Should a man condition himself in such a situation?

Do you want to endure loneliness? Also, for me, do you think it is fair for me to do this now? Feng Xiao, I am not demanding that you marry me, but I really want to be with you, because you

She once gave me so much joy and was so sincere to me. I know all this, so I am willing to be with you. Now that she is gone, you feel uncomfortable. I know, and I completely understand.

But you can’t stop being with me because of this? Feng Xiao, am I just a plaything of yours?”

I didn't expect that she would say or think like that, and I immediately panicked. But my panic was due to another kind of guilt in my heart, "Hong Ya, I, I didn't mean that."

She said that she had retracted her body under the quilt, but she was facing me with her back, and she was still crying, "Feng Xiao, please go. I feel so uncomfortable now."

How can I say that I want to leave again? So I stretched out my hand and hugged her gently, "Hong Ya, please give me something, can you?"

She turned around suddenly, with an expression of surprise on her face, and her eyes were sparkling, "Really?"

I nodded to her, "Really."

She propped up her body again, "Then, can I accompany you to see her? I want to burn some paper for her and apologize to her. Is that okay?"

I suddenly felt that this was very inappropriate, "Hong Ya, please don't go."

She said: "Feng Xiao, do you know? In fact, I have always felt guilty about her. I didn't dare to face her when she was alive. Now I finally have the courage. I want to go

You can go to her grave and apologize to her or kowtow. I think she will forgive me."

I was silent for a moment. This was also a kind of tacit consent. In fact, I was thinking in my heart: Chen Yuan may not blame you, but she must have already blamed me in her heart.

After the two of us got up, we went outside to have something to eat, and then she drove me to the place where I drank yesterday because my car was still there.

She said she wanted to go to my home with me but I didn't agree. This was not entirely because of Chen Yuan, but more because I didn't want Lin Yi to know that I was with another woman.

After returning home, I packed up Chen Yuan's belongings, packed them all in a large suitcase, and then drove to Hong Ya's house. We had just agreed to meet there.

When she came out, I saw that she had changed into a set of all black clothes. She said to me, "I just went to buy them."

My heart is full of gratitude to her, because I know that she really wants to seek forgiveness from Chen Yuan, who is already in another world. Also, this also shows that her feelings for me are real.

However, her behavior made me feel very helpless, because in the face of her sincerity, I found that I could not refuse at all. Any words and actions of refusal could only show my feelings. So I felt very sad in my heart.

It was painful and contradictory because I felt that I was continuing to hurt her in another world.

So, I hesitated again, "Hong Ya, please don't go."

But she shook her head resolutely, "No, I have to go. I know that what I did seems a bit excessive, and it may be shameful in the eyes of others, but I have to face her, otherwise I'm worried that you will

He ran away from me one day."

I was really helpless, "Hong Ya, even if I never get married again, I can't marry you. Because sister... you know."

Her expression was sad, "I know. I said, I don't expect to marry you, but I want to be with you."

"Why bother? What are you doing?" My voice became choked.

She whispered: "Because I owed you something in my previous life."

I turned around and walked towards the car, "Let's go."

To be honest, when we entered the cemetery, I was filled with extreme anxiety. This anxiety came from deep in my heart, perhaps the so-called conscience. Therefore, since entering the cemetery, I

My legs felt as heavy as if they had been filled with cement. We walked to Chen Yuan’s tomb without saying a word.

The moment we arrived at Chen Yuan's tomb, Hong Ya's movement shocked me immediately. She knelt down in front of Chen Yuan's tomb, "Sister! I'm here to apologize to you...I'm sorry."

you."

I suddenly felt at a loss, and then I couldn't help but kneel beside Hong Ya. I didn't speak because I didn't know what to say now, and I didn't dare to say anything here.

Hong Ya was kowtowing three times in a row.

I was still at a loss next to her, so I had no choice but to kneel like that, and then prostrate myself in front of Chen Yuan's grave, because I could only use this action to express my deep guilt to her.

Confess your sins to her in this way.

Hong Ya stood up from the ground, "Feng Xiao, I feel much more relaxed now because I finally faced her." Then she looked at the photo on Chen Yuan's tombstone and said softly: "She is so beautiful.

"

I remained silent, I felt like a complete sinner in this place.

"Feng Xiao, go find an iron bucket. There are those in the cemetery, specially used for burning paper and relics. You go, I am here alone to talk to sister Chen Yuan. Her also name is Lin Nan.

Right?" She said to me immediately.

I nodded and left, as if escaping.

At this moment, my mood is very complicated. I was extremely reluctant about Hong Ya going to this place today, because I thought it was indeed a bit shameful, but Hong Ya's sincerity and persistence made me have to bring her here.

Here we are. Judging from Hong Ya's behavior just now, she was indeed sincerely apologizing to Chen Yuan. Not to mention other things, I was shocked and moved just because she had the courage to face Chen Yuan.

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You must know that this is a cemetery. Hong Ya, a woman, can actually face Chen Yuan alone in such a place. How much courage does it take? Although Chen Yuan has passed away, the photo on her tombstone is clearly visible

It represents her, and in a place like this, the pressure that Chen Yuan's photo can bring to a living person should be many times greater.

I found a staff member and gave him fifty yuan. He moved a big iron bucket and followed me to Chen Yuan's tomb. At this time, Hong Ya was sitting cross-legged in front of Chen Yuan's tomb. I didn't know

What did she just say to Chen Yuan.

When Chen Yuan's relics, mainly her clothes, burned in the iron barrel, I immediately felt a sense of warmth. The flames were red and yellow, and they burned very brightly.

The smoke drifted faintly into the sky. Suddenly, a gust of wind blew, and the flames began to ripple. The wisp of smoke that was swinging up suddenly became distorted, turning into chaos above our heads. The inside of the iron barrel was already

The burned ashes and the remaining ashes of the money and paper were blown up from the iron barrel by the gust of wind. Suddenly, countless black mosquitoes were dancing in the sky, and they completely enveloped Hong Ya and me.

I was immediately horrified.

Hong Ya's face also changed. She threw the money into the iron bucket and said, "Sister Chen Yuan, take the money and use it over there. You can buy whatever you like. We'll come back after it's used up."

Burn it for you..."

Her words added to the terrifying atmosphere. I hurriedly added a few pieces of Chen Yuan's clothes into the iron bucket. The flames started to rise again, but the gust of wind had already brought those black mosquito-like smells.

The ashes went far away...

We didn't talk on the way out from Chen Yuan's cemetery, because my mind was still thinking about what happened after the strange wind that blew just now. In a place like this, even a non-superstitious person can
To be continued...