Chapter 18: Maybe Yukinoshita Yukino also longs for tenderness(1/2)
Eating is often the most important time to examine a person's social network. Of course, most of the time, we only need to examine a person's lunch situation.
This is a very simple truth. Most people have breakfast at home, and the number of participants in dinner is not so fixed. Therefore, lunch in school is the most effective way to measure a person's social network.
Generally speaking, we divide people who eat lunch into two categories, one is those who eat together, and the other is those who eat alone. Of course, those who eat together can be divided into small groups of two or three people and those who eat more than four people.
A large group, the former such as Kitahara Haruki and Iizuka Takeya, and the latter such as Hayama Hayabusa and a group of his subjects. However, from the comparison of these two groups, it can be seen that both groups are temporary groups, and the difference is only in the collective
It’s just the attitude of the core character towards other people.
But, on the other hand, we cannot simply regard a person who eats alone as a social failure - of course, eating alone like Hikigaya Hachiman or Yukinoshita Yukino is definitely a social failure.
Whether they admit it or not.
But my form of eating alone is different. The difference between them and me is that no matter when they go to eat, they are alone, but I choose to be alone. I can definitely mix in the so-called
Among "Friends", I don't want to play the role of Hayama's subjects - I just want to finish my meal quickly and do other meaningful things, and I don't want to use some in a relatively large group.
Meaningless small talk is a waste of time.
So this resulted in that every time I returned to class after eating in the cafeteria, I could only listen to the various voices coming from various groups in the class and could not join in - that's how human beings are
A strange creature that will be silent to you when you join a group at the beginning, but if you want to interrupt their conversation midway, you will find that you have become a foreign object in this group.
Of course, after saying so much, there is another very important reason I didn’t mention, that is, I don’t have a bento and I don’t want to eat bread for lunch, so I can’t join the bento group and the bread group that eat in the classroom.
Therefore, today, when Yuigahama Kazuya has a bento, he can actually try to join the live group - but only if no one makes a reservation for him.
I haven't opened this lunch box since my sister gave it to me this morning, not to leave a surprise for myself, but to prevent the contents of the box from affecting my mood in class in the morning - although this kind of throwing it away
The indifferent behavior seems to have affected my mood in class.
Although I still don’t understand what is the difference between when a person is not focused and when he is focused - many people point out that the difference lies in the unfocused gaze, but I really don’t know what the unfocused gaze means. In short, every teacher
It seems that it is easy to detect when I am distracted.
So, in the morning Mandarin, English, and Mathematics classes, I was picked up and shot by different teachers. What’s more, what’s annoying is that these teachers didn’t act according to common sense.
Logically speaking, Chinese language classes and English classes are reading-based classes, and the teacher often asks students to answer questions by reading the text aloud. At this time, I thought Isshiki could help me, but these two teachers seemed to have made an appointment.
As if they were worried, they all decided to let me go to the blackboard to answer the questions. Although I worked hard to learn the knowledge of liberal arts, I still couldn't write the correct answers when I was distracted during the lecture. I could only get a slap from the teacher in disgrace.
Immediate criticism, and perhaps some ridicule from some of Iroha's admirers.
The way to answer questions in math class is usually to go on stage and do calculations. In order to avoid embarrassment, of course I was prepared to give the correct answer. However, the math teacher actually asked me to read the question aloud - it seemed that because of the
There is a hidden condition that many of you cannot find, so the teacher said that you need to read it carefully to understand it. This kind of event, which is estimated to be a probability of several hundred percent, hit me, and I can only lament the world.
It's really ridiculous.
Therefore, I have an important goal for today's lunch, which is to complain about my sister's lunch box while eating, and then completely give up the idea of her making lunch boxes for me in the future.
However, before that, I think I might turn into a bread party today.
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I originally thought that I would take a long detour to the school store to buy bread, so I might be late. However, I discovered that when I walked into the classroom of the Service Department with a lunch box and a piece of bread hidden in my arms,
There was only Yukinoshita Yukino in the classroom.
Yukinoshita was still sitting under the window seat at the back of the classroom. On the table in front of her, there was a lunch box with a completely different decoration from mine. Obviously, it was not given to her by her sister but by herself.
Made. It seems that she has no confidence in her sister's cooking skills.
I seriously considered the possibility of grabbing something to eat from Yukinoshita, but when I glanced at Yukinoshita, it was obvious that when I walked into the classroom, she twitched her eyebrows and her whole body was on guard.
Yukino, I think the only way I can get her lunch is:
Yukinoshita couldn't eat because she had made too much in her lunch box. She saw Yuigahama Kazuya's begging eyes, so like a queen, she threw the remaining items in the lunch box to the ground, and then slammed it
He said: "Eat it, I'll reward you, pig!"
Well, although Yukinoshita is a jerk, this is too much. Yukinoshita Yukino may be wary of me verbally, but she will not do such a thing that insults my personality.
I can still trust her a little bit.
Because at most she would just show a disgusted expression and say: "What, you, a bad guy, want to share some of my things, don't you have any sense of shame? You, a scum of society, get out of here right away."
Get out of here!"
Well, compared to the previous assumption, it should be much better - well, I am definitely not shaking my m, and I will not be happy because of her poisonous tongue. The "much better" here is just a comparative form.
"I thought you wouldn't come. After all, you looked like you were tricked to death by your sister yesterday." Yukinoshita glanced at me and spoke slowly.
"After all, it is my sister's request. Even if there are problems, I have to accept it. If there are any problems, we will discuss them in detail!"
Although this is definitely not my psychological thought, I feel that I still need to maintain the image of Yuigahama Yui as a sister in front of Yukinoshita. Of course, it would be better to also create the image of a good brother who cares about her sister.
, I guess it can also add some points to Yukinoshita's heart so that she won't always be so vicious towards me.
However, the words I said did not seem to have a very good effect, because Yukinoshita's answer to me was only two simple words:
"Sister control! Disgusting!"
I don’t understand why Yukinoshita has so much resentment towards a younger brother who cares and understands his sister in a normal way. Maybe it can only be explained by the fact that she has an older sister that she hates - although I don’t understand her either.
How could her sister make her feel disgusted? Because in my understanding, as long as she is a sister, she is very concerned about her younger brother or younger sister - this is the case for Yui-san, and the same is true for Ogiso-senpai.
However, just when I was about to explain my theory to Yukinoshita to seek her understanding, an accident happened, and the bread I had hidden in my chest suddenly fell out.
Although there are often various "fourth-dimensional" things in comics, such as various magical items that can be taken out of the so-called fourth-dimensional pockets, of course, in comics that sell meat, the so-called "fourth-dimensional breasts"
"It also exists, but my current situation has nothing to do with the fourth dimension.
It's very embarrassing for a boy to remove something from his chest, and it can easily be misunderstood as a pervert. And my current awkward look, to make an inappropriate metaphor, is just like a guy who usually has small breasts and leans on his breasts.
Pretending to have breast enlargement, and then having the breast pads exposed when you bend over to apologize is just as embarrassing.
What's even more embarrassing is that my appearance made Yukinoshita Yukino, who is best at attacking people with his poisonous tongue, look at me.
"Pervert, liar, disgusting!"
Well, congratulations, my comments this time have been reduced to three words. This should be said to be a great progress, although I already know that my image in Yukinoshita Yukino's heart should have been fixed.
If he was a "self-righteous disgusting sister control who looks bad but is actually not a bad person" before, now he is a "self-righteous disgusting pervert liar who pretends to be a sister control but is not bad"
Imagery.
I think even Hikigaya's image in Yukinoshita's heart should be higher than mine. It's probably the difference between a maggot who wants to be trampled to death and a maggot who is disgusting to be trampled to death, right?
I stopped talking and silently picked up the bread that fell on the ground, because I felt that if I continued to talk, I would only be even more disgusted by Yukinoshita.
It would have been better to wait for Yukinoshita to speak on her own. Of course, Yukinoshita spoke anyway. What was a bit surprising was that there was a hint of nervousness and dissatisfaction in her tone.
"So, Yuigahama, um, why hasn't your sister come over yet? She invited me to have lunch here today, right?"
There was a rare feeling of wavering in Yukinoshita Yukino's voice. Although she used a relatively cold tone, the expectations in her words could be felt.
I looked at Yukinoshita Yukino with some surprise. In my impression, she has always been an absolute iceberg-like figure, absolutely correct, changing the world, and self-centered. Such a person should not desire others.
caring.
However, such a Yukinoshita Yukino actually showed such an expression. She had expectations for Yuigahama Yui, and she had expectations for Yuigahama Yui's not-so-obvious hand of friendship.
"Yuigahama, please answer my question. Do you know where your sister has gone? It is very rude to ask others to wait here instead of making an appointment!"
Seemingly because I didn't answer the question, Yukinoshita continued to ask.
"I don't know. I bought bread after class and came right here."
"Really? Then she didn't come over?"
Yukinoshita frowned slightly and asked with some confusion.
"Don't worry. Although people like my sister are a bit unreliable, they will definitely do what they promise others. Although she is quite procrastinating, it is true -"
"——But Yuigahama took too long this time."
Although this is not the first time that Yukinoshita has interrupted me, it is indeed the first time that Yukinoshita has interrupted me like this with a slight irritability.
It seems that he did realize the problem with what he just said. Yukinoshita hesitated for a rare moment and added: "Sorry, I was a little anxious just now!"
I feel that the circuitry of my brain can no longer keep up with normal thinking. Today, Yukinoshita Yukino behaved very normally at first. Whether it was a vicious tongue or coldness, it was within a reasonable dimension, but since she mentioned
After her sister, Yukinoshita Yukino's emotions were just like those of a normal little girl waiting for her friends.
Yes, she is a normal girl, so normal that I can’t believe she is Yukinoshita Yukino.
I suddenly remembered what Mr. Hiratsuka once said to me: "Yukishita Yukino is a gentle child!"
I think I understand Hiratsuka Shizu's words to some extent. Although Yukinoshita Yukino is still the person who demands absolute correctness, and although she is still the person who wants to use her own correctness to change the world, there is no doubt that she
She also longs for the world to give her a little tenderness, and Yuigahama Yui, for her, is undoubtedly the kind of tenderness she longs for.
"I think you can go to the classroom and try to find her. People like Sister Yui will not appear in places away from the crowd, because she always likes to stay in a group. Only in this way can she be brought up.
Come feel safe.”
However, it is precisely because of this that she will be particularly panicked when she leaves the group, because her sense of existence in the group is maintained by the time she exists in the group. She will worry that once she leaves
This group, she will be abandoned by this group.
I think I may roughly understand the reason why my sister did not appear. She cares too much about her position in her group. Without external interference, it would be difficult for her to escape from that group independently. And Yukinoshita, I guess she can become that group.
To be continued...