As a master player - at least in my eyes, Touma Kazusa quickly adjusted her condition and allowed the joint training to proceed quickly.

I sat next to the window of the first music room, trying to observe all this from the perspective of a bystander.

After special training, Kitahara Haruki's guitar, Fuyuma Kazusa's genius-like piano performance, and Kogi Yukina's near-professional-level singing voice, just such a casual first practice together, what happened to the three of them unexpectedly

The harmonious effect amazed me. You can imagine how dazzling this trio will be when they get to the stage, put on costumes and match the lights.

It was so dazzling that I felt a little alienated.

Although I have always disliked Kitahara Haruki, I have to admit his ability. Although he is the least effective among the three people, he is the most indispensable one. Only he can make Fuyuma

Two girls like Kazusa and Kogi Yukina, who are completely opposite in terms of personality and habits, are put together.

This is not jealousy, just an inexplicable loss.

I think Director Iizuka opposite me would also feel the same sense of loss - that feeling that he obviously participated in everything but did not belong to it. Of course, because of the sense of identification with the light music club and the respect for himself.

Sincerely gratified by a good friend, he may not care too much about his own loss. However, looking at his occasionally absent-minded eyes, I know that he still has this emotion inadvertently.

When the performance starts, except for the three performers, everyone in the world is just their audience.

This unexpected absence lasted for a long time, so long that I didn’t even expect the club activities to end. Of course, maybe it was also because the warm sun shining in from the window in winter made people feel a little too comfortable, so I was late.

Are you still reluctant to stand up?

Of course, if there is something as warm as the sun in this world, perhaps it is the care from senior Xiao Muyu.

"Kazuya, what's wrong, aren't you leaving?" Because my body blocked the sunlight, the senior's face was hidden in the darkness. However, her beautiful long brown hair exuded beauty under the sunlight.

of brilliance.

What does Xiaomu Xuecai mean to me? What does my persistence for senior Xiaomu Xu mean?

"Kazuya, are you asleep? You still fall asleep while listening to our performance. How do you want to hit people?" The senior complained, but also said dotingly.

I don't know why, but a complicated thought suddenly arose in my heart - what would happen if I just pretended to sleep like this?

Maybe this will be one of the most irrational decisions in my life, but I can't resist the temptation brought by this decision.

"Hey, Kazuya, are you really asleep?" I felt a flash of cold smoothness on my face. Is that the hand of Ogisa-senpai?

"Kazuya, I'm not the sister responsible for waking you up!"

Sorry, Senior Xiaomu, I'm usually the one who wakes up my sister!

"It seems that I really fell asleep! This is really a big blow."

So, what next? Wake me up?

If I do this, then it doesn’t meet my expectations, right?

So what are my expectations?

I heard the sound of a chair being moved next to me. Senior Xiao Muxi seemed to have sat down. She didn't try to wake me up. She just continued talking.

"Actually, I really don't believe that Kazuya fell in love when he was in junior high school! You, like all smart people, are really a little clueless on the other hand! If you analyze it now, you and Koharu

It makes sense to break up, not because you have done something wrong, but because of the way you think about things, can you not lead to death in this way?"

Hey, you criticized me from the beginning, senior, this is too much.

"Kazuya can obviously not be a younger brother, but he still has to play the role of a younger brother in front of me. This also bothers me! Although I am used to taking care of Takahiro at home, it does not mean that I like being a sister very much.

Oh! Although being the older sister of a person like Kazuya occasionally gives a strong sense of accomplishment, and I am very happy at first, but I still trouble you to think more about your own sister Yui? Now, is that okay?"

This actually doesn't surprise me. Even senior Xiao Muzi would be dissatisfied with my often erratic actions. The previous breakup was, in a sense, a sign that senior was unwilling to accommodate me, right?

"But the problem is, if I no longer get along with Kazuya like my sister does with my brother, how should I get along with Kazuya? I always feel that there are not many friends who get along with me in the same way as before! We should be more equal, right?

?Actually, Kazuya, you can also do this. If you are more equal, maybe more things will change."

So, why not speak out?

"But if I can't tell you, I will be scared, right? After all, you are one of the few people who know that side of Koki Yukina! If we were more equal, wouldn't it be because of my lack of tolerance for you?

, you will also feel that seniors who don’t have the feeling of older sisters are unreliable. So it’s very troublesome, isn’t it? On the one hand, you are trying hard to seek a change, and on the other hand, you are looking for the previous balance during the change. In the final analysis,

I'm still scared!"

"It's like quarreling or something like that, just like a normal way of getting along with friends, isn't it? Although such bad things have happened, but, Kazuya, you are different from them, right? I also know that you are different

Yes, because you are still not good at lying. From your eyes - well, you can't see it with your eyes closed now, but at other times, from your eyes, I can see that you are interested in communicating with me.

What are you craving for? Now that I know this, why should I continue to be so lukewarm with you?"

"So that's the question I asked at the beginning, isn't it? Kazuya, how did you get along with girls before? Girls, whether they are getting along with male friends or female friends, they always hope that the other party will understand them, right?

?If everything must be communicated directly, wouldn’t it mean that there is a lack of a sufficient sense of confidant?”

"As for why the feeling of confidant is important, if you can't understand this, then I don't believe it!"

——Actually, this is understandable, but——

"——But even if you understand, you don't know what I want to express. Actually, think about it, going back to Xiaochun, do I really want you to help Xiaochun? Well, of course it is true.

Yes, but I am definitely not speaking from the perspective of a senior educating the younger generation, or from the perspective of a person with personal experience who sympathizes with Xiaochun, or even from the perspective of a friend asking his friend to help his ex-girlfriend. The reason why I suggest you

The reason for helping Xiaochun is because I know that you want to help Xiaochun - no matter how many negative reasons you find for yourself, you want to help Xiaochun."

"The right argument? Is this kind of thing really so important? Human freedom, human unfreedom? You seem to like to talk about these things very much - philosophically speaking, I can't compare with you in these strict rules. I have said what you said

In the future, I will not go to the Department of Economics, but to the Department of Philosophy. However, I know a very simple theorem - I believe that if a person violates his own heart, then he will never be "free"

'So, Kazuya, what I wanted to tell you at that time is that if you really want to help Xiaoharu, just go and help. Absolutely, don't constrain yourself with any weird 'righteousness'

ah!"

I feel like my body has frozen. I am pretending to sleep in order to let myself hear some words that Senior Xiaomuzi may not say to me, but I will never think that I have never understood what Senior Xiaomusu wants to say to me.

The words were spoken so easily.

My theory of "freedom" is constantly being revised. My interference with others, my understanding and control of others are all based on my theory of "freedom" - however, the senior wants to tell me

What's more, don't care about this strange "righteous theory" anymore?

Even if senior Xiaomu Yan said these words to me, it was really hard to accept!

"Of course, I know that you won't listen if I tell you these words. You seem to be very dependent on me, but you have never changed in the face of things you have decided, right? Well, yes

Don’t I seem to be talking about your sister? The two children of Yuigahama’s family are somewhat surprisingly similar in this respect?”

"So, I didn't tell you my thoughts. I hope you can understand my thoughts by yourself - and I will also prove my thoughts to Kazuya. Yuigahama Kazuya and Kogi Yuzuna may not be good at reasoning.

——Well, this seems to be something that Kitahara-san, whom you hate, is good at? However, Yukina Kogi is not lacking in this aspect of practice at all!"

So, senior, what are you going to do?

"I can't tell you what I want to do. Who knows if you are pretending to sleep, Kazuya?"

Ah, hey, have you seen through this?

"Of course, even if you really sleep with me, I can't tell you, because some things, just like wishes, have no effect if they are spoken! But do you know why I agreed to change the song?"

--Why?

"Because, I feel, I'm ready."

The senior said something somewhat incomprehensible.

Then, I felt something was on my body, warm and soft.

"You won't blame me for not waking you up on purpose, right? But I'll give you my scarf as a reward! Kazuya-san, who exercises his body so often, won't catch a cold, right? Probably not? Well, then,

You can probably leave now?”

Not long after, I heard the door of the first music room closing.

I opened my eyes.

My mind was in a mess. Did Senior Xiaomuzhu know that I was awake all the time? Did Senior say these things because I was already asleep, so he was talking to himself, or because he felt that I was already awake, so he meant it.

Tell me these words that I am usually embarrassed to say, but I don’t even know.

I just held on to the scarf that carried the body temperature of my senior and felt a little confused.

What makes me even more confused is that my seniors try to deny everything about me.

For a person who strictly follows his own ideas when thinking and making judgments, when someone he trusts very much tells him that you should be more casual, pay more attention to emotions, and properly prevent yourself from being kidnapped by reason.

time, the person is confused.

Of course, from this point of view, it means that I am not completely swayed by reason, because I was shaken by what the people I valued said that may be incorrect.

If a person violates his own conscience, he will never be 'free'.

The words of my senior reverberated in my ears like a curse, making me a little unbearable.

However, even if what the senior said is correct, I feel that, at least for now, I should continue according to my own choice, at least at this cultural festival.

As if to echo my words, when I walked out of the teaching building, I met Yukinoshita Yukino with the same tired look on her face.

"Hey, Minister?"

"Um."
To be continued...