First of all, there is no update today. I apologize to everyone. There are various reasons. For example, I took a look at the school’s bbs before preparing to write and saw some things that made me very unhappy. For example, I have two children next week.

ddl and because of his laziness in studying during this period, he has not finished it. For example, he was thinking about what to do after the yandere moves and became a little worried. For example, the three teams he supported all lost in the early morning, and another example was that one of his own people also lost.

Becoming lazy.

In fact, I have been thinking about what do fan authors rely on to persevere. Maybe most people rely on love, but I think for me, it is often responsibility. I was in February when I just opened Yandere.

I wrote something similar in the PS of the previous chapters, "As long as there are still people who collect it, even if there is one person who is reading it, I will continue to write." Now that I think about it, that sentence should come from the heart, but in fact it is.

It was a purely emotional remark made when I was very passionate at the time.

But when I write, I cannot escape that sense of responsibility. I feel that I should be responsible for the characters in my writing, and I should be responsible for the readers who read my books. I often mention to my roommates in the dormitory that I want to write.

Sometimes I use the word "work" - yes, writing now is work for me, it is not profitable, I am interested in it, but my interest is no longer the main work.

Many people think that it is best to combine interest and work, but in fact, work is work. Once it gives you a time limit and a hard target that needs to be completed, it means that you are stuck.

It restricts you. No matter what, it is difficult for a person to feel complete happiness at work, because as an interest, you can choose to stop at any time, and as a job, it must have a beginning and an end. Even if you are really interested in it at the beginning.

I want to work happily, but after a long time, I will eventually feel bored and fearful.

For a period of time, I have been forcing myself to "start" writing before starting to write every day, but after I start, I feel that writing is very smooth and comfortable. Maybe I am not tired of writing novels, but for this thing called "work"

The novel writing itself, I have been afraid of it from the beginning, which makes me a little scared. I am afraid of when I will become really lazy, when I will become a eunuch, when I will really give up on myself and become what I worry about.

That kind of irresponsible person.

Some people will say that I should take a break, adjust my thinking, and adjust my state before writing. But only I know that for me, after the exciting period when I first started writing novels, I am in this state now.

It is the best, just like a person running a marathon. If he keeps running, he will not be too tired, but if he takes a rest in the middle, he will find that he can no longer move.

Of course, I'm not making a eunuch manifesto or anything. Whether it's yandere or white, I have a lot of things I want to write and plots I want to continue to develop. Now I'm just expressing a lot of thoughts in my heart. This is a bit awkward.

As an author who has regarded this unpaid career as a job and hopes to continue to be responsible for my books, I feel like I am in a period of confusion as a whole. At least I think, for me, it is a trap.

It’s because of love, and persistence relies on responsibility and self-supervision.
Chapter completed!