in short.

Qin Xuan needs to face the greatest fear deep in his heart.

The dream with a sense of reality will never give Qin Xuan any chance to escape, and cruelly presents all the helplessness in reality to him.

The collapse of adults is sometimes only in a moment.

On the back mountain of Daru Village, ten tombs stood in the wind, and the laughter of the master and his senior sisters seemed to appear on the tombstone. Time and again, Qin Xuan's heart, which had already been riddled with holes, stings like a needle.

He couldn't bear it anymore.

I have dug up my own destination here and plan to end this sad life.

But before he died, he went back home, sorted out all the items from his master and his senior sisters during his lifetime, and planned to bring them into the grave together to accompany him for an alternative lifelong companionship.

He didn't dare to sort out these things before.

Because seeing things and thinking of people, you will suffer once you see them.

Today he was extremely calm.

While packing up the items, Qin Xuan accidentally flipped through a diary and opened it gently, and found that it was shared by the senior sisters, and each senior sister had written a diary on it.

"I really want to go to the city to have a look. I heard there are tall buildings, various delicacies, and many fun things."

"I want to start a company and be the chairman!"

"I want to buy a car, but it's said that beautiful women are beautiful. Then I should be considered a beautiful woman. How can I do without a car? It's so uncomfortable to stay in the village every day."

"The books my master bought are not very good. I want to go to the city to choose by myself, but he doesn't let him go out, alas."

“…”

Qin Xuan kept looking through, tears fell on the paper, gradually spreading from a small dot to grow bigger, wetting a piece.

The senior sisters wrote various wishes in their diary, and invisibly depicted the scene in the city.

The lights are red and the wine is green and the purple is bright.

The words carry their yearning for the outside world.

Qin Xuan was greatly touched. He always felt that his life was meaningful because of the existence of his master and senior sisters.

Until he saw this diary, he suddenly found himself stubborn and had been working for twenty years.

From the death of the master at the age of 18 to the age of 38 who is now alone.

"If my master and my senior sisters had a spirit in heaven, I would probably be heartbroken when I saw my waste of my past twenty years..."

"Yes, if it is me who wants to die, I also hope that Master and my senior sisters will live well. Otherwise, if I have knowledge in the spring, I may not be able to be reincarnated with peace of mind, and will become an evil spirit and refuse to enter the cycle of reincarnation."

"I can actually do what my senior sisters want to do but haven't had time to do. I can actually do it for them, and it can be regarded as coexisting in this miserable world with their will."

"It took me twenty years to realize such a simple truth..."

Qin Xuan finally understood his thoughts.

It was only at this moment that he could objectively view birth, old age, sickness, death, joys, sorrows, separations and reunions in a truly sense.

This kind of objective view does not require people to be cold-blooded and ruthless.

Instead, you can see your true heart clearly, break free from confusion, and live a better life with a new hope.

The next moment, Qin Xuan's memory was erased and he came to another place.

This is the playground of Yuncheng University.

At this moment, Qin Xuan is over 70 years old.

Because of his strong cultivation, he did not grow old much, but his eyes became a little cloudy. Looking at the female college student on the playground, filled with youthful aura, Xia Wanying's figure suddenly appeared in his mind.

Decades have passed.

Xia Wanying never heard from him, and she never returned to Qin Xuan.

There is no doubt that this is Qin Xuan's second heart disaster.

There are only two things that he cannot face directly. One is to say goodbye to Qing Yunzi and his senior sisters, and the other is to say about Xia Wanying's disappearance.

On weekdays, Qin Xuan tried his best to hide his emotions, so that he would not speculate whether Xia Wanying had an accident.

But if he doesn't think about it, it doesn't mean that obsession does not exist.

This obsession is not as heart-wrenching as losing a master and a senior sister. It is more suitable to be described as "regret".

I don't know life and death, and my whereabouts are unknown.

No one can be seen in life, no corpse can be seen in death.

It only leaves the imprint of youth in my heart, and I recall the gentle face again and again, decades of time, a regret in capital.

"Young junior brother, can't I let her go?"

Tan Jiayin walked slowly.

Qin Xuan smiled bitterly and said, "Actually, after so many years, I have accepted the fact that she can never come back again, because people always have to look forward, but I still feel very sorry. I can never feel her tenderness again, and I regret that my debt to her can't be compensated in the end."

Tan Jiayin didn't know what to say.

Because she knew very well that Qin Xuan was not overly negative, but had an obsession in her heart. Although it did not affect her life, it was inevitable that she would suffer sudden mental torture.

This is a heart disease that others cannot interfere.

Sudden.

A couple passed by.

The boy lowered his head and said, "I'm sorry, I'm just focusing on studying and working to earn tuition. I've spent too little time with you. I've thought more than once that if I didn't tease you, it wouldn't have made you so painful. After going around, we've finally reached a breakup. It's been more than three years... If you don't have me in your life, you should be happier."

The girl shook her head and said with tears in her eyes: "You still don't understand. The fundamental reason for our breakup is not because you have less time with me. Forget it, it doesn't make sense to say this now."

"Then have you regretted being with me?" the boy asked.

"No, don't always feel that you owe me. Feelings have always been your love and my wishes. You have indeed brought me sadness, but those wonderful times are also something that others cannot give. Many years later, I may still thank you for appearing in my youth." The girl said frankly.

The two gradually walked away.

Qin Xuan couldn't help but be stunned when he heard these conversations.

Tan Jiayin took a deep breath and said in a silence: "Young brother, do you believe it or not? As long as the boy says he doesn't break up, the girl will definitely agree."

"Why?"

"Because she has never regretted that experience, what she wants is not the boy's self-condemnation, but to work together and never regret youth in the end."

...

Outside dreams, in the real world.

Qin Xuan was still sitting cross-legged on the ground, sometimes frowning, sometimes taking deep breaths, and even blood was hanging on the corners of his mouth.

The heart disaster had a great impact on him.

Especially the twenty years he wasted in his dream, he almost got into trouble several times and failed.

At this moment, Xuanyin had been waiting for a day and a night.

He saw that Qin Xuan was a little weird, but never expected that Qin Xuan was on the verge of breaking through the Tongshen Realm. He only felt that Qin Xuan was angry and forced himself to calm down, so he still felt a little funny.

When the sky turned white.

Liao Yusheng returns.
Chapter completed!