In fact, I have really developed a deep self-loathing recently.

That means I can no longer maintain my original amount of updates.

This book started with 14,000 words a day, then 13,000 words a day, and then 12,000 words a day. In these few days, I started writing 10,000 words a day... To be honest, I felt very self-loathing when I wrote.

It's not about the plot or anything else.

But the trivial matters at home.

Especially during this period, everyone must have felt... I have a lot on my plate.

Since I started working out in September, I have had ketone levels in the urine, uric acid, high blood lipids, and weight loss. Then my wife has suffered from neurasthenia, dizziness, and my child has become sick...

Everyone, my son just had a fever two days ago, do you remember?

It's only been 2 days.

The fever started again yesterday.

Really... I don't even know what's wrong with me. I just want to get back to my original coding rhythm. Why is it so difficult?

Let me tell you why I want to reduce updates.

First of all, it was yesterday. The temperature in Zhengzhou dropped yesterday. I really dressed my child in thick clothes. However, after I came back from school at 5 o'clock, my child was in a bad state. After my wife saw it, she took her temperature. 37.1.

I'm so stupid, I need to take medicine quickly.

Chaigui, fermented soy sauce, Feire granules and the like come up.

However, it still didn't stop.

The child's fever reached 38.5 at around 9 o'clock.

No, go to the hospital quickly.

Yesterday I was still sighing in the book club. I said that I came to the hospital again because my child had a fever... But I was very lucky because I wrote a 10,000-word update yesterday.

As a result, when we arrived at the hospital at 10:30, we started queuing up.

There are so many people...

I waited in line from 10:30 to 12:20 to see the child.

See a doctor, get medicine, and go home.

It’s 2 o’clock in the morning when I get home.

After giving medicine to the child, the child will cry and fuss all the time, which is really exhausting both mentally and physically.

And guess what?

My wife started to feel dizzy again today after staying up late.

From caring for one patient, we now care for two.

I went to bed at around 2 o'clock and woke up at 7:30 to make hot soup noodles for the children. My wife said she was hungry last night but didn't eat. I have to take care of their meals.

After finishing my meal at around 8 o'clock, I was really sleepy, so I said I should take a short nap.

At around 9 o'clock, my wife called me: Husband, I feel dizzy. Please take care of the child for a while.

I sat on the sofa in a daze and took the child's temperature... 38.7.

I asked my wife: Didn’t you give your child medicine?

My wife told me in a daze: Huh?... I prepared it for him... Didn’t I give it to him?

When I looked, the medicine was still in the cup.

My wife is not careless here. This is what happens to patients with neurasthenia. When they get dizzy, the whole world is turned upside down. I really don’t blame her.

I quickly gave the child medicine. After taking the medicine, the child was watching TV. My wife said: Husband, I feel dizzy. I can’t sleep. When I lay down, the whole world was shaking. It was shaking so hard that I felt like vomiting.

I said I would take her to the hospital, but she said she had to take the baby with her to the hospital, so forget it.

Because there are only three of us in this family. As for the specific reason why I am in such difficulty and no one has come to help me, that is another story. I will not mention it. It would be even more heartbreaking to mention it.

So, the old trick was to drink sleeping pills and let her sleep.

She was sleeping, but the child's body temperature could not be lowered. I started to boil water, boil the medicated bath medicine given by the hospital, and let the child soak his feet.

As a result, the child just stepped on the edge of the basin with his foot.

All the water in the basin was spilled.

I felt my blood pressure "buzz"...

But I am not living well, my child is sick... I can't bear it.

I boiled the water again, boiled the medicine, soaked the children's feet, and started to wipe away all the water.

After finishing all this work, it's past 11 o'clock.

The child said to me sickly: Dad, I want to eat noodles.

He didn't eat a few bites in the morning, but at noon he said he wanted to eat Xibei's noodles, which are tomato and egg noodles.

good.

I started cooking.

It was almost 12 o'clock when the meal was ready. The children ate and my wife went to bed. I thought I could finally feel more at ease.

As a result, the child took two mouthfuls and vomited them all.

It must be that the spleen and stomach are not feeling well after taking medicine. It is all over the table, floor and clothes.

I didn't dare give him a bath, so I first turned on the air conditioner at home and added floor heating to warm the room, then undressed him and wiped the vomit off his body.

After changing his clothes, I started cleaning up the vomit on the table and floor.

But the whole house was filled with the smell of stomach acid.

The child's fever reached 39 degrees due to vomiting.

I quickly took ibuprofen and started coaxing him to sleep.

The child went to bed and the time came to 1 o'clock.

My wife woke up.

Still feeling dizzy.

But she has to eat.

I really can't do it anymore.

Then it was still hailing in Zhengzhou. I got dressed and went out to buy her a dumpling.

It was past 1:30 when I came back.

I was really exhausted, so I said I would just sleep for half an hour.

At early 2 o'clock, the child woke up.

He insists on his mother playing with him, but my wife’s virtuous mind is as dizzy as a disco. She can’t play with him at all.

The child came to me.

I played with him in a daze for a while, and finally, he wanted to watch TV.

I thought I was relieved, but the management knocked on the door and gave me hypochlorous acid disinfectant tablets. They said that influenza A and other things were happening frequently recently, so I had to remember to disinfect my home.

They definitely have good intentions.

I'm very grateful.

But I also realized...because of the cold weather in the house these days, there is not much ventilation, and it has not been disinfected for a long time.

I asked my wife to help me take care of the children and put them in the house, and I disinfected the whole house.

It was around 3 o'clock, and I just had some free time, so I thought to myself that I should hurry up and type, otherwise I wouldn't be able to finish it.

I just wrote a thousand words. The child changed from coughing to retching...vomited all over the bed.

"..."

What can I say? If I don’t wash it, I won’t even have a place to sleep tonight.

Wash the sheets, change the sheets and quilt covers.

After everything was done, I sat in front of the computer and my mind was empty.

Looking at the thousand words I wrote... suddenly my mind was empty.

And what’s even more ironic is, you know what… my update notice is now 1,700 words long.

I wrote it in one go, without even thinking about it... I wrote it so smoothly.

Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha……

What a fucking irony…

Internet article authors really can do anything as long as they don’t code!
To be continued...