But this time, Xia Houlie went hunting in autumn, and she made up her mind.

However, when she returned to the palace this time, she had no one she could trust, so she had no choice but to take the risk and come up with a home remedy for abortion, and then asked the palace maid to get the medicine one at a time. If she wasn't an expert, she wouldn't be able to tell how many medicines there were.

Taken together they can cause abortion.

She stroked her belly and thought about Helian Moxiao's words. She was a doctor herself, so she knew that something would happen to the baby this time. Apart from the poison that Helian Moxiao gave her, the main factor was the cure from Xia Houlie.

The Erosion Heart Powder that came over was so toxic that the baby couldn't bear it, which led to the stillbirth.

And now she doesn't even know the person who gave her the heart-eating poison at that time.

A touch of sadness sank in her eyes. She closed her eyes, and when she opened them again, she was in complete despair:

Don't worry, baby, my mother will definitely find the murderer and avenge you!

"Your Majesty, the tonic soup you requested has been prepared. Please drink it while it's hot."

She opened the window and looked at the bleak autumn scenery outside the window, feeling sad in her heart. After a while, she spoke softly:

"I understand, just put it down and go out."

Seeing her gloomy look, Shaoyao wanted to say something, but her mouth moved, but in the end she didn't say anything and she retreated obediently.

Mu Qingwan stood motionless in front of the window, staring at the setting sun in the distance disappearing little by little. Until the last bit of light dissipated in her eyes, she closed the window, then walked to the table and sat down, settling down.

He stared intently at the bowl of dark soup.

Her hands unconsciously reached out to hold the bowl. The soup was already cold, and the cold feeling seemed to penetrate the porcelain bowl, pass straight through the blood, and then pierce the deepest part of her heart.

After drinking it, her first child was completely separated from her body and her life.

Her eyes were astringent, and she wanted to cry, but she couldn't.

She just stared intently at the bowl of medicine, watching the ink-colored juice unconsciously swaying in the bowl as her hands trembled, her face reflected in it, but she couldn't see her own expression clearly.

Baby, baby, baby...

She recited it silently over and over again in her heart, and her whole body felt as if it had been thrown into a frying pan and was suffering. The piercing pain made her limbs numb with pain.

Her hand trembled, and a little of the medicine in the bowl spilled out and dripped on the back of her hand. The dark spot made the entire back of her hand look bloodless and transparent.

Suddenly something fell from her eye sockets and landed directly on the drop of black concoction. It suddenly smeared and she laughed suddenly, smiling sadly and helplessly.

She unconsciously called out, and Peony came in quickly. She lowered her head and said softly: "This soup is cold, take it and heat it up."

Shaoyao heard the choking in her voice and asked worriedly: "Empress, what's wrong with you?"

"It's okay, go quickly."

The peony had to be withdrawn, and not long after, a bowl of steaming hot decoction was brought up again.

Just as Mu Qingwan was about to take it, the door was suddenly kicked open by someone from the outside. She subconsciously raised her head to look, and her whole body suddenly froze as if struck by lightning. She stared straight at the figure who looked like a hellish Shura at the door.

.

She heard her own horrified voice ringing in her ears:

"Awful..."

But he ignored her, walked straight to Shaoyao, took the medicine from her hand, and then handed it to the frightened Dr. Lu behind him, "Let me take a closer look."

Doctor Lu glanced at Mu Qingwan worriedly, then dipped his finger into the medicine bowl and tasted some juice in his mouth. His expression suddenly changed.

Xia Houlie stared at his expression with sharp eyes, "How?"

Mu Qingwan seemed to suddenly wake up. She jumped up from her chair and shouted, "Hey...hey...listen to me...it's not like this...listen..."

Before she could finish speaking, Xia Houlie interrupted coldly. He didn't even look at her, only stared at Dr. Lu. His voice was so cold that it made people's scalp numb. "Tell me, what kind of medicine is this?"

Shaoyao was so frightened that her face turned pale, and she knelt down with a "plop-". Doctor Lu's face was not good-looking either. He glanced at Mu Qingwan with pity, then lowered his eyes and said in a deep voice:

"Your Majesty, this is..." He closed his eyes before spitting out those three words: "Abortion Pill."

Xia Houlie listened, but his face remained expressionless. After a while, his sudden laughter suddenly sounded in the room, which sounded sad and confused.

Mu Qingwan saw a tear slowly flowing down his cheek, and her heart suddenly felt as if it had been stabbed by a sharp knife, and her entire limbs were screaming in pain.

The tears that she thought had dried up suddenly burst out like a flood. She turned over her feet, rushed over and hugged Xia Houlie's tall body that was shaking with laughter, and began to explain in a panic:

"Hey... listen to me... it's not like this... it's really not like this... I didn't mean it..."

Xia Houlie's laughter suddenly stopped. He turned his head to look, and his obsidian-like eyes looked straight into hers. There was a desolation in them, which made Mu Qingwan feel as if her heart was being shaken by his eyes.

Point in Lingchi General:

"It turns out that all of this is my wishful thinking. You don't want to have my child, and you don't want to come back to me... You have never loved me, right? Otherwise, how could you be so cruel as to kill a child who has not yet been born?

A child born?"

Mu Qingwan was frightened by his desperate eyes. She stretched out her hands and hugged him tightly, shaking her head like a rattle, and explained in a panic:

"No, that's not the case. I don't really want to kill our child..."

Xia Houlie seemed to have not heard her words, and peeled her hand off his body bit by bit with his big hand, and said bitterly:

"Wan, I thought I was already the most ruthless person in the world. I didn't expect that your heart would be colder and more ruthless than mine. But I knew you were so ruthless, I knew you were so hard-hearted, I knew you were so cruel that you wanted to kill us.

My child, but I still can't hate you at all. Even looking at you so ruthlessly, I can't help but think about you and miss you, and my heart that loves you is still agitated uncontrollably."

Hearing his confession like this, Mu Qingwan's heart felt like it was being pinched hard by a hand. The pain made her whole heart twist, and her throat felt like there was a straw stuffed in it. She was so choked that she couldn't say no.

As he spoke, tears fell down, his head shook desperately, and he chanted frantically:

"No...no...that's not it...no..."

He suddenly shook her hand away hard, his irritable expression was like that of a trapped beast. No matter how hard he struggled, he could not escape from the cage. He stared at her almost in disbelief.

I dare to believe that I would be defeated so miserably by the woman in front of me.

He smiled, a sad and desperate smile:

"Wan, can you please tell me, how can I stop loving you? How can I forget you who are so cold and heartless?"

"No...yeah...I love you...I love you..."

She cried loudly and tried to hold him tight, but he had already turned around with a smile.

Her words, every word, were like a sharp blade of irony piercing into his heart. Not even a moment of numbness was allowed. In an instant, the pain began to attack his heart with all its fangs and claws.

His limbs were covered in bones, and he was so fierce that he had no power to parry.

At this moment, he felt that even his breathing was filled with pain.

He strode to the door and gave the order without looking back:

"From today onwards, the Dragon Palace will be sealed. No one is allowed to step into it without my will!"

Mu Qingwan quickly chased after him until he reached the door, but was stopped by the guards on both sides. Then, she could only watch helplessly as Xia Houlie walked further and further away, until he disappeared into the deep night.

No trace either...

Xia Houlie almost ran away. He had never been afraid of anything. He tasted fear for the first time in his life. He felt as if a large piece of his heart had been cut out. His flesh and blood were blurred, and the pain made him feel helpless.

He fled to Yishouyuan and wanted to see his beloved grandmother. Just like a child who had been wronged outside, he longed for his grandmother's warm embrace, but when he saw Su Hanzhi, he could not say a word.

Su Hanzhi was well aware of her grandson's stubborn character, so she didn't ask a word, but just asked Aunt Jin Ru to make a bed for him so that he could have a good sleep.

Without letting anyone talk or persuade him, Xia Houlie locked himself tightly into the cage in his heart as if to escape. He stayed in the Yishou Garden for three full days before he released himself.

No one knows what he was thinking during these three days. All they heard was that his first decree was:

Give Mu Qingwan a bowl of abortion pills!

Su Hanzhi wanted to persuade her, but Xia Houlie said lightly:

"Royal Grandma, please save the last bit of dignity for your grandson."

After saying that, he left the Yi Shou Garden expressionlessly. Su Hanzhi could only sigh, squeeze the beads in her hand and close her eyes. After a long time, she recited:

"Amitabha, what a bad fate!"

These three days were the most difficult time in Mu Qingwan's life. The first bowl of abortion pills was finally knocked to the ground by her in one breath. She fell into the pile of broken porcelain pieces, but she couldn't feel it.

Half painful, she hated herself for being so stupid, why she didn't tell him the truth earlier, and why she hurt the man she loved so much.

I thought I loved him, felt sorry for him, and couldn't bear his pain, but it hurt him deeper and more severely.

Loving others also hurts them.

She sat like that every day, thinking dreamily. The food that Shaoyao brought in was almost untouched. After only three days, her whole body became haggard. Shaoyao couldn't stand it anymore, so she had to go to Li Chang'an. Li Chang'an

But he said that the emperor had also locked him up and said that he would not see anyone. The two of them looked at the two stubborn masters, both of them were panicking, but they didn't know what to do.

It wasn't until she heard that Xia Houlie had issued an imperial edict that Mu Qingwan's dry well-like eyes began to waver. She quickly stood up and went to the door. When she opened the door, she didn't see the person she wanted to see. She only saw Li Changan.
Chapter completed!