Speaking of family ugliness.

What I am going to talk about below is, in my opinion, a phenomenon-level family conflict, rather than a simple "the perpetrator is extremely evil and cold-blooded" in the eyes of most people.

When people think this way, it just means one thing: they have not had similar painful experiences, or they have become numb to it.

Of course, if gratitude is enough to counteract extreme resentment toward your elders, that might be a good thing.

Yanzi shared an article on Zhihu with me the other day. Copy it.

What was Wu Xieyu’s motive for killing?

Based on comprehensive analysis before and after being arrested

1,118 answers

Anonymous user:

I was also admitted to Peking University, majored in economics and management, and joined a foreign investment bank after graduation. I have been paying attention to the Wu Xieyu incident and feel the same way, but I have neither the ability nor the ability to choose such a path of common death.

He is very similar to Xie Tianqin, he is very simple, very temperate, very tidy in his house, and polite to others, but he left his "worst side" to me.

Well, all of this is like Wu Xieyu's aura, impeccable. You really can't find fault with me, because there really is none. However, in my heart, I am very, very unhappy. I don't know why I am unhappy, it's just a

I felt very suffocated and had no outlet. I thought about committing suicide in the second grade of elementary school and the second grade of junior high school. In the third grade of elementary school, I started to suffer from insomnia and stomachache (later I learned that this is a common symptom of domestic violence children). Living in a world where I was denied and abused every day.

In an environment where people are criticized and not loved, they often doubt the meaning of their existence. Since I am so bad and worthless in your eyes, why did you still give birth to me? I was probably 7 or 8 years old, so I decided to do well.

Study, go to college, and leave this family (looking back now, this is one of my endless motivations for learning, and the second, more terrifying, will be revealed later).

My dad was able to maintain his perfect image of being tall and majestic in front of outsiders for a long time, but I was abused at home for a long time. I pretended to be fine in front of outsiders, and was afraid that others would know that I was a bad kid and would often be beaten at home.

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I’ll copy it here first because I haven’t finished reading the article yet.

(Listen to the breakdown next time)

In fact, I can completely understand Wu Xieyu and the students who answered the questions above.

Because my living environment is like this.

Parents who sacrifice everything for their children are often both great and terrible.

Hmm...it's different, I didn't get admitted to any famous university (/facepalm).

I am the eldest grandson of my grandparents (sons are preferred in my family), and my family has high hopes for me.

There is no domestic violence. I think Wu Xieyu should not have either.

But just that kind of expectation itself, that kind of behavior that sets a track for you, is already making people breathless.

It feels like everything is arranged. No need to think, just follow the instructions of your family.

In every aspect, nothing is left unattended.

Three feet of ice cannot be frozen in a day. This conflict suddenly intensified, which roughly started with the awakening of self-awareness.

That’s why my family would say, be more obedient when you were young.

The more thoughts you have, the farther away you are from your family.

And because I care, I suffer.

Pain for being suffocated at home, pain for not being able to meet my family's expectations, pain for my family being disappointed by me...

At the same time, family members only seem to think that everything is the child's problem.

We are all doing this for your own good, so there is nothing wrong with us.

We are all doing this for your own good, so you have to listen to us.

Just thinking about this makes me feel depressed.

And I don't have the ability to solve the problem.

It's quite quiet and peaceful when I'm alone...

As soon as you get home, the moment: lonelyyour pany.

Compared with me, my elder brother and younger brothers (cousins) are obviously much more unlucky. They were both beaten since childhood.

Of course, there is also luck in misfortune. That is, they are obedient on the surface, rarely resist, and will not think of suicide (or they have thought of suicide, but they have never expressed it to me; haha, this English word is an over-frequency word in my diary,

It’s just that I haven’t mentioned it much recently).

There's no way to compare. People are different. Hit me...

I did run away from home because of being beaten.

(I think of the American TV series "Runaway Children", but I haven't watched this show; I think of a song "Children Leaving Home". This song seems to have been heard at the entrance of the alley 20 years ago).

I have brothers and sisters (cousins), but among the five, I am the only one who has chosen the extreme path: to keep a long distance in order not to hurt each other.

This wasn't some sudden accident.

Because the distance between souls is an objective fact.

Family is...familiar strangers.

"The older you get, the lonelier you become."

maybe it's just me. Although there are constant conflicts and problems among my family members (sometimes they quarrel; in one sentence, no one likes anyone, and I am the only one who dominates), but they are not as irreconcilable as me.

So an interesting thing happened: when "criticizing" me, everyone formed a temporary united front (think of the Anti-Japanese War).

I used to argue a bit, but now I'm completely too lazy to talk.

whatever you think...i don't in.

no needargue.

dividing line.

I was scared to death. Seeing a corpse...

Cat's body.

It lay so softly outside the window.

I know this one. It has never been lying in this position. Not even once.

Could it be that he was murdered?

Yesterday I heard someone outside pelting two cats in heat with stones.

Although I am extremely disliked by cats in heat, I usually just close the window.

hey!

He actually looked up at me...!

Well, it was a false alarm.

Therefore, the way it looks, it is either heated into a liquid (liquid cat).

Or you're hungry.

I hope it's the former, but I'm still preparing for the latter.

Go out and bring food to it.

"oops" disappeared. In just ten or twenty seconds...

I even doubted whether it was really outside the window just now, only a few meters away from me (Looking back, maybe I disturbed my dream... I'm really sorry).

This is not a stray cat, it is a wild cat. It is very wild. Even if it is hungry, it will run away when it sees me holding food.

Well, it was actually caused by my half-hand.

It was a summer night the year before or the year before last (I think of "A Midsummer Night on the Shore"). I accidentally fell asleep as I had recently.

But because it was extremely hot, the door was left open.

Two cats successfully sneaked in. Among them was him.

I woke up with a start, feeling a little confused and angry.

uninvited guest.

What is the difference between this and a thief?

In the past, I often saw nearby wild cats stealing food from people's homes in this area (the kitchen here is independent, in the yard, and is usually not locked), and once it took a big fresh fish in its mouth...

I was just thinking, what is the difference between a cat and a mouse?

Humans cannot eat things that have been eaten by mice, but people can eat things that have been eaten by cats. Is that so?

Ohgod. What happened? Just after the cat left, there was another one lying on the sofa in the hall.

I didn't notice it at first. Could it be that... I fell over in an instant? It's unlikely...

I ignored this one because there was cat food and water in the lobby.

I don’t want to drink sea buckthorn juice anymore.
To be continued...