38 Even though I'm a pseudo-mother, I'm still a sister
However, I still have some questions.
I admit that I am a suspicious person. Having been in that battlefield, I have already learned the habit of doubt. Thinking about me being called a "butcher doll" in the battlefield, you know that I am not a popular person.
, it is essential to learn to doubt in order to protect yourself. But it may be different now. Even I am a little unbelievable. I already have considerable trust in Zhiye. Is it because of her innocence? Is it because
Is she kind, or is it the feeling of sympathy for someone with the same disease? Maybe all the emotions are mixed together. I am just an ordinary person, so I can believe in this sensibility.
But this is just my own idea. What about Zhiye’s specific thoughts? Accepting Zhiye’s feelings is one thing, and even letting Zhiye become a sister is one thing. But what are Zhiye’s specific thoughts? After all,
Zhiye and I have only known each other for a short period of time, and it is a bit abnormal to develop to this point in such a short period of time. I accept this feeling, but I am not a person who can only be led by feelings. It is better to say that I am a person.
An abnormal person, Zhiye must also be an abnormal person. Now two abnormal people are suddenly attracted to each other like magnets. How can it not be a bit abnormal? At the same time, in order to prevent violent repulsion in the future, now is the time to put them together.
A great time to ask some clear questions.
I felt Zhiye's comfortable body temperature, relaxed all the nerves in my body, and said softly.
"elder sister."
"What's up?"
"Sister, are you normal or lily-oriented?"
"What is Lily Xiang?"
"Then let me change the question first. Do you want me to be your brother or your sister?"
"..."
It seems that this sudden and out-of-the-box question makes the innocent Zhiye not sure how to react, but it doesn't matter, I will continue to guide.
"Although my gender is male, I have no intention of taking off my women's clothing. After all, this is the mark left on me by my perverted parents, and I have long been accustomed to this identity. But if you want to call me brother
If so, I won't object, but you have to do it in private. Regardless of entering the campus to perform tasks, it is always troublesome to do it in front of outsiders."
This is indeed a question, and at the same time it confirms Zhiye's consideration and pave the way for the following questions. I have enough heart to wait, but Zhiye didn't spend too long.
Her gentle words rang in my ears.
"It doesn't matter. I don't care about this. You are who you are."
"But the name has to be determined, so let me decide. Since you have to give in to the mission, just call me Rose. Anyway, it is the homophony of my original name of Xi. As for when you want to call me by my real name or another name
I'll leave it to you, sister, to judge."
"Uh, okay."
After getting Zhiye's response, I said it with a smile and a hint of teasing.
"Then, try calling me now."
Zhiye didn't have the same mental quality as me when it came to this kind of thing, and she was a little nervous by my sudden teasing. It could be seen from the tighter hold she held and the difficulty in calling my name smoothly.
"Ross~~Rose!"
"Hehe, it feels good to be called that."
"Yeah?"
"Yes, sister."
Zhiye nuzzled me with her cheek, and it seemed that Zhiye was very pleased with me for using her coquettish voice.
However, this is where we start.
"Sister, although it's a bit strange to ask this now, I think it's better not to say anything."
When I asked her seriously, Zhiye's breath changed a little, and it was obvious that she was very concerned about what I was about to say.
But the words came out of my mouth.
"Sister is indeed a lily."
Zhiye's face changed instantly. After all, I deliberately created a serious atmosphere, but finally said that sentence in a nonsensical tone. Although Zhiye didn't understand the meaning of the words, she was sure that I was talking about it.
Tease her unintentionally.
Soon, Zhiye's revenge came.
My face was so painful that it was deforming in Zhiye's hands, and he was pouting at me with an unhappy tone.
"what does that mean?"
It was quite smooth for Zhiye to step into the role of sister, and she caught up with me so quickly.
I was not polite and began to sort out my sister's outlook on life.
"That is to say, sister, you like girls, and you are in love."
"Why are you like this?" Zhiye answered me calmly.
"Hey, it's so strange. When my innocent sister heard such low-level words, she should have panicked, panicked, and even stuttered when she spoke. Why is she so calm?"
"What image do you think of me?"
"Because this is so rude to my sisters, of course I can't say it."
"But I seem to feel what you are thinking."
As he said that, Zhiye's hands actually went to twist my ears, but am I someone who will be given the initiative so easily?
"Hey, I have to ask about the kitchen affairs later."
When Zhiye heard this, he immediately calmed down. Now was not the time to interrupt, so I continued. After all the rough foreplay, it was almost time to get to the point.
"When my sister first asked for a kiss, wasn't she confused and infatuated? She didn't know my true gender at that time, so I was thinking, sister, maybe you like girls!"
Obviously I was exposing the dark history of last night, but Zhiye unexpectedly did not overreact. It seems that Zhiye has really accepted this 'sister' relationship now. She said it calmly, but there was something in her words.
And full of strong emotions.
"No, it's not because of gender, it's just because that person is you, and it's because of your essence that attracts me."
"Essence; not because of our similar experiences?"
I asked a little doubtfully, but Zhiye clearly denied me.
"It's not your experience, it's your essence, the most beautiful thing about you. That to me is the cleanest and purest thing."
"My sister can accidentally say some embarrassing things, but I will never deny my beauty."
However, Zhiye also ignored my ridicule and self-righteousness.
"Not only your appearance, but also your fighting posture. Although you said that you were vicious, in fact, it was true, but during the battle, there was no trace of madness in your heart, nor was there any hesitation. It was as if you were simply giving up.
All colors, when you are fighting completely seriously, you seem to be separated from the madness of this world. There is no impurity in your heart, no arrogance or despicability, you use everything peacefully and equally, and erase everything peacefully and equally."
"Is that so? I don't feel this way myself, but can this be considered the reason why I attract you?"
"In my mind, this reason is enough; I have a similar experience as you, but my mood is different from yours. Maybe you can't think of it. In fact, my sword is a crazy sword, the most violent sword.
Maybe you don't feel this way, but my thousand-blade magic was awakened when I was the most furious. At that moment when my mother was killed, I not only hated those monsters, I also hated those who killed my mother.
People, so my sword made them all disappear. In the end, I only had to praise this furious sword to survive until now."
I thought of the information Neo gave me, which contained Zhiye's past. I held onto Zhiye's hand that hugged me tightly, tears streaming down my eyes uncontrollably, and I remained silent.
Zhiye continued to talk.
"Even now, whenever I use magic, negative and angry thoughts will flood my mind. At first, it made me lose control many times, and I was seriously injured several times. Until I met someone, who was that person? I couldn't
Said, but she taught me how to control my emotions, made me laugh all the time in the battle, and allowed me to observe any enemy equally in the battle. It was really painful at first, and I lost to Fury many times, but I persisted and finally
Now I can control the magic, but even if I control it, the negative emotions of rage have not been eliminated, so sometimes even if I am aware of it, I will always do some drastic actions.
Warlikeness is one of these influences, and this is probably the curse of my magic. It is precisely because I have such impurities that I was attracted to your pure white feeling at that time."
"That's right. So what do you think of your sister now?"
"Now, I just want to be at ease. If you don't mind, I want to be with you all the time. I used to live in a very conservative family, and I was raised a little allergic to status, virtue, and quality since I was a child, but I have decided to change
Having said that, I am sure there will be nothing wrong with being with you."
"Well, I understand, sister."
"Thanks."
Zhiye's confession can indeed explain all this, and Zhiye is more emotional than I thought. Her ability to see through people's hearts through battle has made her what she is now. At the same time, she also has extraordinary trust in this super sense, and because of this
This super-sensory reaction makes it difficult for Zhiye to communicate with others. No, it is precisely because Zhiye has difficulty trusting other people's words that she relies on using force to communicate! Now she can
Having said this, you really have a lot of trust in me.
I am very happy, really happy, that there are still people in this world who can open their hearts to me like this. Sure enough, it is right to choose to become a family member with Zhiye instead of a lover. I think I am not qualified for this, but Zhiye can
It would obviously be better if the happiness you get from me is not love, at least not now.
But in order to respond to Zhiye's feelings, I made a decision.
"Then, it's my turn to tell you that the reason why I am transparent and pure is because everything in this world has nothing to do with me."
Chapter completed!