The call to Hua Wen was still connected. It rang about five or six times before Hua Wen answered the call.

"Er Silly, I received the message. I will come over later. I have something to do now."

"Hua Wen, we are lovers. If you have any questions, tell me directly. If you do this, I will have random thoughts."

"Okay, let's talk about it later."

After almost another hour, Hua Wen came over a little tired. After entering the room, she lay down on the bed and told her to rest for a while.

What's the situation? She should have many classmates or friends in the United States, but even if she goes to meet friends or classmates, she should tell me and not hide it. The familiar feeling when she first met Hua Wen has now become a

strangeness.

"Second idiot, let's break up!"

Just when I was looking at Hua Wen lovingly, Hua Wen suddenly said such a sentence. It was like a bolt from the blue, and for a moment I couldn't believe my ears.

Hua Wen was lying on her side, and I was sitting on the sofa. Her eyes were looking at the bedside table, a little hollow, and she didn't dare to look at me. She used to be so confident and arrogant, but now she didn't dare to look into my eyes.

"I thought about it all afternoon and thought it would be best for us to break up." Hua Wen still didn't look at me.

"Do you like someone else?" I asked with trembling lips, the first reason that came to my mind.

"No."

"Are you playing tricks on me?"

"Don't think nonsense. I just don't think it's appropriate. I loved you once and maybe I still love you now, but we are not the same kind of people. It is impossible for me to live in Kashgar. I like it here, my youth and college."

I have spent most of my time in the United States. At first, I thought I would not like it here, but now, I think I will live here, and I will also study for a doctorate. We may not have a future, and if we do, it will be very painful.

"

"Where did you go this afternoon? I went to your room to look for you, and now, it's freezing and snowing outside."

"Don't ask, it's not your problem, it's mine. I once thought I could live in southern Xinjiang, and I thought I could always help the children there. After arriving in Western Sahara, I saw too much helplessness and injustice.

, I don’t want to be stimulated by this anymore, I want to live a normal life for a few days.”

"You won't go to Western Sahara again? No matter where you are, I will accompany you." I don't think distance is the root of the problem, but I still want to express my strong attitude of redemption.

"You are not suitable here. We are not on the same level. I have also thought about handling it this way, but you can't compare with those who work hard here. You can't compare with the second generation. Their family conditions are good and they have been here for a long time.

.You still can't compare with those people who are here. They can be as humble as if they don't exist in order to survive. You can't compare with normal international students either. You lack the knowledge and affinity for this place. Listen to me, it's all for your own good.

, go back and do things well in Kashgar."

I was speechless. I felt that everything in front of me was erratic and spinning. My whole body was chilled, trembling, and my vision was blurred. Then I fainted.

It was a few minutes after I woke up. I knew that I had fainted not long ago. The blur of consciousness that I couldn't control was really scary. Hua Wen rarely cried sadly. She held me in her arms and fed me.

A bottle of Coke, I bought it from the small supermarket before booking the room.

"I'm so embarrassed that I actually fainted. It's so fucking embarrassing. I've been eating fast food and Western food these days that make me want to puke. We didn't eat at noon or at night. It must be low blood sugar." I don't know.

Why am I still making excuses for my fainting at this time?

This feeling is different from losing Yaoyao. It is the pain of separation between yin and yang. I will be sad and despair. But now this feeling is the helplessness of the world collapsing. I don’t understand how Hua Wen, whom I have always trusted, can

It has become so realistic.

I sat up and drank a Coke by myself while shaking.

"Second fool, please believe me. I didn't fall in love with you, and I didn't feel sorry for you. You are the person I loved deeply. I am also in pain, but I don't think it is appropriate for us to be together."

"I'm selling a house. I'm selling the house in Shanghai, I'm selling the house in Kashgar, and I'm recovering all the investment that can be recovered. I'll come over here first, and I'll ask Leng Jiayue. She should be able to give me a job. I'll come

America, let’s get married.” I foolishly thought that there was room for redemption in this matter.

Who would have thought that this kind of thing would happen to me while traveling? If I had known this, I wouldn’t have come out. Maybe Hua Wen wouldn’t have exposed this false relationship. Maybe then I could still live in my future.

In the fantasy, I live in reporting to someone who doesn’t know whether it is true or false every day.

"I don't feel it anymore. Even if you came, I don't feel it anymore. When I saw you for the first time today, I was so happy and excited that I felt that God was really blessing me. I just came out of an extremely dangerous and poor place to meet you.

To you. But later, I found that I no longer felt it. Our life trajectories were too different. The only intersection was the few months in Kashgar. Our differences were too big."

"Have you thought about it? I still can't understand why!" Looking out the window into the dark night, I became a little hysterical.

"Don't be so loud, you will be complained by other guests. Let's chat calmly for a while. I don't dare to say this to you, but I thought about it all afternoon and I feel that the long-term pain is not as good as the short-term pain. Since we met here this time

Just make it clear." Hua Wen said.

"I didn't care if there was a complaint or not! I just can't understand. If you didn't feel it for a long time, why didn't you tell me earlier? Do you know how I feel?" I still spoke very loudly.

Hua Wen stood up, took her down jacket and walked towards the door.

"If you are in this kind of mood, we can't talk. I'll go to my room first, and you can calm down alone." After Hua Wen finished speaking, she slammed the door and left.

I cursed all kinds of vicious words, but my eyes shed tears. I was in a sea of ​​happiness one moment, but now I am in an abyss of despair. Hua Wen was actually afraid of my roar.

It would lead to complaints. I was already an irrational person in her eyes, but she seemed to be very relaxed.

I specially booked a smoking room. Although I knew that Hua Wen hated my smoking, I chose a smoking room that was not in a good location but was easily ventilated and would not spread the smell of smoke to other rooms. I had two in my bag.

A pack of cigarettes, duty-free cigarettes bought by Chen Yan at the capitalist airport.

I smoked one cigarette after another. After a few cigarettes, I got a little drunk, so I drank Coke again. I needed to add some sugar. I was really worried that I would faint again.

I opened the window to let the smoke escape and change the air in the room. The humid and biting cold air blew in, making me feel cold from head to toe. I never thought that my goddess would treat me like this one day. At this moment,

I wish I was in my own home, where I might have a good cry or break something to vent my anger and despair.
Chapter completed!