Is it similar to the situation many years ago?

But it's not like it at all.

In the past, she was only accused of unwarranted charges by those little girls and said bad things, and she agreed sadly. Now of course she knows that she didn't think that way, and if she did, she wouldn't have allowed herself to be a parasite for so long.

Now it is no longer an unfounded crime.

As her colleagues said, she is trash. She has also encountered a lot of criticism because of her own affairs.

I had insomnia on the first day of moving.

Because there was no warm body nearby, and there was no delicious dinner. After eating instant noodles, I planned to sleep, but I couldn't fall asleep.

I always pick up the phone and want to ask her how she is, but I hold back.

This is not possible, it only lasts for less than a day. So what?

The next day, I made frequent mistakes at work due to lack of sleep.

"What kind of idiot are you?!"

"I can't do such a small thing well! I really regret letting you in in the first place!"

“···”

Maybe it's because the business conditions were not good to begin with, and after making a mistake, I was scolded in full.

To be honest, I'm in a very bad state.

I was on the verge of running out of the building and quitting, but then I got a call.

"How is work...?"

"Didn't I tell you not to contact me at the beginning?"

"Haha, because I'm really worried... I'm worried that Ah Yao won't be able to eat well, sleep well, be stressed at work, etc..."

"I'm not that fragile, am I?"

She also mentioned that she would like to come and see me in the evening.

But I refused.

What's going on?

When you encounter a setback, or is it really a setback caused by being scolded for your own reasons, do you have to run away?

"call--"

I took a few deep breaths and returned to my workstation again.

It sounded like there was no problem, but in fact I made frequent mistakes and got scolded a lot. But the boss didn't really want me.

When the overtime work finally ended, he did not intentionally not buy coffee for me, the person who had caused a lot of trouble. He gave it to everyone who stayed until this time without distinction, and then said to me, "Thank you for your hard work. It's daytime."

Is it because you didn't get enough rest? Remember to go to bed early today."

To be honest, I feel like I have gained recognition. I am no longer treated as trash, but I am truly treated as a human being.

I couldn't wait to share this with her.

Because she called me to encourage me, I took the initiative to break the original agreement not to contact her during working hours or not to contact her unless necessary.

"Really? I'm very happy too."

She is happy for me too.

I think this is moving forward on a good path.

——

Her thoughts that can only be seen now.

She was not happy.

Even looking at the phone screen with a sad expression.

"Really?"

"It's a pleasure to leave me."

Why do you have such an idea?

have no idea.

The day Ah Yao proposed that he wanted to live independently, he couldn't suppress his thoughts.

What was not done well?

What went wrong?

Don’t need your own money?

···

Isn’t it good to be together every day like before?

I don’t feel tired at all and I feel happy every day.

Why is there suddenly no need for such happiness?

Does it mean that only you can feel happy?

ah.

There is only one reason.

Ah Yao no longer needs herself and is tired of looking at herself. Because it has been too long and she has lost interest in herself.

third party--

If I can’t find it now, then I will find it sooner or later, right?

I want to... call right away, right away, no, I want to go to Ah Yao's place right away.

Did this too.

But when I got there, I didn't dare to step in.

That’s not possible, right?

We have already made an appointment not to meet. If you do, you will hate me even more.

If there was any possibility of redemption, he would be completely bored in an instant.

I went home dejected again, eager to know if Ah Yao no longer loves me.

I can't sleep.

In the past, it was easy to fall asleep leaning against Ah Yao, but now I have myself on the bed, and there is nothing belonging to Ah Yao.

All that's left is the smell, right?

A scent that fades and will eventually disappear one day.

I hugged the quilt that once covered me and also covered Ah Yao, and just barely fell asleep.

——

At that time, I didn't know what Xia Xianyue was thinking.

I just want to change my mind and really work hard to prove that I am a human being.

My new colleagues don't know that I was a gambler in the past, and they only treat me as a new colleague who is working hard to make progress.

I have the ability.

This is not a lie. If I didn't have the ability, I wouldn't have been admitted to Winter University with the first grade in the academic year.

I have the ability that I can definitely learn as long as I am willing to put in my energy from the bottom of my heart.

At the beginning, I seemed to be in a hurry, but by the middle of the second month, I can handle most chores skillfully.

"Let's talk about Su Yao."

Today was a celebration party held by my boss after a successful project, and a female colleague talked to me.

"I really didn't expect you to persevere."

What she said made me a little strange.

"Did you know? All the newcomers who came with you have left except you."

"is that so?"

I really don’t know. I only know that a few left because they couldn’t stand the pressure, but I don’t know that all of them left.

"Yes, my uncle...ah, the boss has no intention of retaining new people."

"You understand, right? It's just taking advantage of their desire to try it out. When the trial period is over, even if they don't leave, they will be driven away, and then a new batch of new people will be replaced with low prices and high performance."

"Is it really okay for me to say this?"

"It's no problem."
To be continued...