Summary

Author: nest eating little orange

Summary

Humans are two interesting things.

The brain's self-protection mechanism and psychological defense mechanism. What I want to explain is the former.

The former simply means that once a person discovers that he or she has been harmed by internal or external forces (work pressure, emotional breakdown, etc.), the brain will immediately activate the protective mechanism and start the forgetting mode at the most efficient speed.

Losing unbearable memories is the most intuitive and simple phenomenon.

There have been several times... I have really thought about letting Xia Xianyue fend for herself very casually. Whether it was suicide because she left, or she was killed by a monster with whom I had not yet established a relationship at that time, it didn't matter.

It has nothing to do with you, right?

People will never feel too sad when a stranger dies. Even if the person dies nearby, they can at most feel sympathy out of empathy.

At least as Su Yao, he cannot be a hero who sacrifices himself for others. He cherishes his own life more than a hero...

And it is precisely because I understand this that I feel incredible afterwards.

I am willing to be stabbed in the chest with a knife and read the file.

I had been killed by monsters so many times. At that time, I was just hit by a car, so I didn't even have the courage to hold the knife with my hand. I just didn't resist.

As if someone finally made the choice for me?

No, it's not like that. I had already made the choice before that to go back.

There was a hazy feeling that I had to go back, and I felt so sad that my throat was being strangled, a frightening feeling of suffocation.

Unable to accept losing something important.

But I didn't remember anything at that time.

"You died once before that."

The white-haired little loli answered the questions cheerfully while drinking beer.

"Aren't you curious why that weird human being is interested in you? It's precisely because he observed that you read files, so he put the minced meat in your brain."

"Why can I load files?"

"It's not me! Don't look at me like that! I don't even have the desire to look at a dirty thing like you!"

"Before you say others are dirty, you should first look at your own room..."

Su Yao sighed.

After this guy became independent, the place he stayed in was barely clean at first glance.

But as time goes by, you may say to yourself for the first time, ‘Let’s take the garbage out tomorrow’, but then forget the next day and say to yourself, ‘Forget it, just wait until the next bucket of garbage is full before taking it out together’.

Over time, this place has become a paradise for garbage.

"By the way, you stay up late at night with the lights on but don't know how to close the windows?"

"Don't you really have trypophobia when you look at the dead mosquitoes here? There are them on the bed too. Really... I don't know what to say to you. I thought I was sloppy enough. I didn't expect that I am better than others.

.”

"Bangdang——"

I accidentally moved my leg and kicked a flattened empty beer can. The unfinished wine inside made Su Yao's shoes wet.

“Even if you haven’t finished drinking it, you should still empty it out and put it in the trash can!”

"Tch, what are you pretending to be?"

The female brat put on a disdainful attitude, "Don't look at your appearance now, but I know what kind of environment you were in when you were at your most decadent."

"I was just curious about how you lived in this environment at that time, so I was conducting simulation training."

"What?"

Su Yao's eyelids twitched a few times, "You want to say it's still my responsibility?"

"Give me money."

"?"

"You are the guardian, give me money!"

"I see you haven't regarded me as a guardian."

"Give me money and I will pawn it."

“···”

"Don't you feel very majestic to have such a monster as your child?"

"If my child was living like this... I might actually put him back."

"Ey! Dirty."

“···”

"Hurry up, as promised, you give me the money and I will let you see the memories you chose to lose because of the protection mechanism."

"I originally planned to give you money, but now I feel a little unhappy."

"Huh?! Are you going to use violence against children?"

She shrank up in fear and took out the remote control of a small doll from her skirt pocket.

"What's that?"

"Child alarm. As long as you dare to taint me with your dirty memories, I will press it immediately! Do you want to be a pedophile despised by mankind?! Hip-hop! Come on! I'm not afraid of you anymore!"

“···”

I always feel that a monster that has lived for hundreds or even thousands of years is reduced to holding a child alarm to protect itself. This is really... somewhat outrageous.

"Okay, okay, I'll give you the money."

"Anyway, you're using it to buy some live streaming equipment, right? Although it's not particularly good entertainment, it's still business."

"Okay~I like daddy the most~"

"?!"

Su Yao's face twisted when he entered the transfer password, "Don't scream."

"Daddy doesn't like me?"

She tried her best to look innocent and look at Su Yao.

But everyone knows that this guy can't be a child at all, and his experience can't be matched by several centenarians. There are thousands of ways to live a good life, but this guy chose the most salty way of life.

.

Of course, it is a good thing that she does not run around and is willing to live in the winter market.

"Ah, it's true! I gave you the money."

"But tell me, why do I have the ability to read files, and what happened before what I think is the first time I read files?"

"have no idea."

"Um?"

Su Yao looked at her with cold eyes.

"As for why there is the ability to read files, it is normal that occasionally some human beings are born with the ability to communicate with time."

"But when it comes to the source, I don't know. It seems to be something older than me."

"Longer than you?"

"yes."

She rolled her eyes, "I have only been around for so long, but it is not as long as the history of Snow Country. Before Snow Country's five thousand years, there were tens of billions of years of history. Who knows how many things there are."

"You can only go back a few hundred years through me."

"But that doesn't mean there aren't monsters that can make it easier for you to go back even further."

"Actually you are very interesting."

"The first file loading you mentioned is indeed the second file loading. I can easily get it back for you. After all, you haven't really lost it. It's just that you have experienced various things and your brain has judged that you no longer have it.

I needed it, so I didn’t recall it again.”

"Also, I actually met humans a long time ago who were very similar to you in terms of body composition and behavior."

"Ah, but it was at least three hundred years ago."

"If you use today's human terms, it may be your previous life."

"The past life is no longer necessary. That has nothing to do with me. What I want to know now is what you said about loading files for the first time."

"Bah bah——hetui~"
To be continued...