But compared to that time, Su Yao hated the "maybe" that Xia Liangzhen and Lin Xiaowan often said.

It’s not that I hate that they always pretend to be optimistic and cheer each other up.

Just because only you know the truth, the optimism you have to fake and the self-loathing you have to hide the truth continue to corrode your heart, and it is natural for it to completely break down at some point.

"I want to take her out to get some fresh air."

"Maybe I'll wake up while taking a walk and breathing the outside air."

Therefore, in late April, on a day when Xia Liangzhen and Lin Xiaowan were not around, and the caregiver was sent away, Su Yao picked up Xia Xianyue's body and placed her in a wheelchair. She used a brace to support her body.

In this way, he openly enjoyed the optimistic blessings from those who cared about Xia Xianyue and left the hospital.

There is no need to feel those meaningless things.

“···”

Su Yao just pushed the wheelchair and looked at the clouds that were dried by the sun like cotton candy, and he was in a good mood.

No last words were left.

Now think about it, why should a person who is destined to die leave behind those weird things? It would be better to die in an honest way. After death, he will have to shirk responsibility and assign the title of sinner, all to himself.

The only thing I can imagine is that today is a good day to die together.

Pushing a wheelchair.

Passing by her house, that was the place where I met her for the first time.

"At that time, you were completely yandere. To be honest, I was disgusted. Later, I even thought that you could just die. It has nothing to do with me."

Don't get me wrong, I'm not talking to a puppet in a wheelchair. I'm just talking to myself.

We passed by the cinema where we watched a movie together.

cafes.

···

I found that I had been to very few places with her and my relationship was really strange. I didn’t do anything, but I just grabbed her umbrella and went home together. I thought it was too noisy and told her where the shoes were hidden.

That's all.

Is it worth being remembered for ten years?

"If the world were full of stupid women like you, I really don't know what it would be like."

We also passed by the foot of the scenic spot where we climbed the mountain together.

It’s not that I’m here to reminisce about my memories with the puppet, I’m just here to think about You Ye.

Thinking of her confession.

When did she start liking herself?

Not sure.

It's just that it was a mistake to treat Youye like a child from the beginning. Also, how could such a smart Youye be so ignorant all the time.

Who can fully explain emotional matters.

But to ask yourself whether you like it or not, before being confessed, you had imagined that You Ye would grow up and live with someone else.

The conclusion that can be drawn is that regardless of whether he had other thoughts at that time, he definitely did not regard Yu Ye as a member of the opposite sex.

But now, I can't tell. Maybe it's still the same, or maybe I have new ideas.

Maybe we can come to a conclusion if we meet again.

But it’s probably difficult to meet again. For Youye, she said those words and kissed her. As long as she recalls her expression and moist pupils at that time, she will know that for her, it was both an expression of her feelings and a farewell.

.Otherwise, why do you have to give yourself a chance to wake up later?

In more than a month, no unusual news was found, and no one found it. Probably, the matter was solved perfectly by her as You Ye said.

She doesn't want to see herself again, so that's okay to understand. Because she doesn't want to cause trouble to herself, that's understandable.

I pushed the wheelchair for too long and passed by too many places. Even Xia Xianyue was exposed to the sun and my cheeks turned red. But the sun had already started to go down the mountain.

Su Yao also pushed her to the foot of the hillside where she first met You Ye, and carried her up step by step.

There is a couple here, kissing each other passionately.

“…?!”

He was startled when he found Su Yao carrying Xia Xianyue up on his back. He didn't know what the man said in an unpleasant tone, but he led his flushed girlfriend away.

It's exactly what Su Yao meant. Only when no one bothers you can we take the next step.

"Buzz-"

My phone has been vibrating since I started climbing the stairs.

People keep calling.

Xia Liangzhen.

"Where did you take Xiaoyue? Why haven't you come back yet?!"

There was a stern tone on the other end of the phone, "Her current health cannot allow her to stay outside for a long time."

“···”

"Where are you? I'm driving over now."

“···”

"Hello? Su Yao?!"

"...Ah, it's near my house. You can drive here."

Why answer?

End the puppet's life at this time, and then end your own, and you won't have to think about anything for a moment.

But when I suddenly saw the missed call and heard Xia Liangzhen’s voice, I felt that whether it was a lie or the truth, was it really that important?

Yes, it is true that one day they will despair, but it is not their duty to let despair happen in advance.

wrong.

Nonsense...

Obviously, the hand holding the utility knife could not leave a new wound on her neck where the scar had not been completely eliminated. Otherwise, why would the hand be shaking?

That's right, don't look for those high-sounding reasons.

What he really meant was that he also had some hopes for this boring puppet.

I can't laugh or cry.

It turns out that this is the case. I was also infected by them. Since when did I start to have hopes that I knew were false but forced myself to believe them.

If you can't even be a sinner, what can you expect if you don't do well?

Su Yao Tathagata put Xia Xianyue on his back again and took her back to the foot of the mountain. The wheelchair was still there. He put her on it and fixed it, and pushed her back to the downstairs where she lived.

Xia Liang came really quickly, and quickly found Su Yao's specific location after making a phone call.

"Su Yao, are you under too much pressure recently?"

"There's no need for this. Xiaoyue's current condition... she won't wake up right away."

"Oh, let's get in the car first and then talk."

“···”

"No, I'm a little tired. I want to go home and rest first. I'll bother you about the rest."

"...Okay, please take some rest."

Xia Liangzhen seemed to be in a hurry to send Xia Xianyue back to the hospital, and drove away without saying much.

Watching her disappear into the traffic while driving her car, Su Yao smiled and turned back.

Climbing the stairs.

If your eyesight is high, you will find that the entire city is sprinkled with crimson by the setting dusk. This scene is not bad as a pastime before death.

When a person sits down on the grass again, overlooking the city, then various hopes that he doesn't want to admit emerge.

For example, will You Ye run out at this time?

For example, when she received a call at this time, Xia Xianyue was really alive.

How could such a good thing happen?

There is only one thing to do and no more expectations for boring things.

You Ye no longer has any scruples. She can live a better life without herself. How could she be the only one in the world who can accept her? She even doesn't need to find anyone to accept her. There are a lot of people in the anthropomorphic state.

like.

Fundamentally, this world is not our own in the first place. It is just a passer-by, or a bug.
To be continued...