A long time has passed since A Xi came. Although in the end, he awakened my "self", he was also rejected by my heart.

When Xixia's wall of memory surrounded me, it was a red-haired man who led me to escape. The man was not a bad person, but he was not an innocent person either. At least that was the initial feeling he gave me.

According to the explanation he gave me, the place I was in was no longer my heart, but the heart of that god.

"Because the god's body has returned, it is normal for her to have her heart. But the problem is that your hearts overlap. There is only one body. It is easy to handle multiple souls sharing one body, but the heart can only

There is one." At that time, he said as he created a barrier, stopping the wall of memory from quickly surrounding it. "Although it is temporary, it can last for a while."

"...As her "self", shouldn't I disappear?" Although it is not clear what the relationship between the man in front of me and that god is, he must know the relationship between me and that god.

"Then are you willing?"

"..."

"Judging from the results, you really don't have the ability to defeat her, at least you don't even have the ability to fight against her. But do you think you really shouldn't exist?"

——This is what A Xi came here to tell me.

"..."

"It seems that you haven't made up your mind yet." The man continued, "However, no matter whether you are ready or not, no matter whether you have the determination or not, after this barrier is broken, if you don't find a way to break it, your heart will

Devoured entirely by her heart."

"Why does she have to do this? She and I...are originally the same existence, right?"

"The same existence?" He was a little surprised. "Even if they are mutually exclusive, are you willing to call her the same existence as you?"

"I just don't understand... what exactly she wants to accomplish, so that even my "self" is not allowed to appear. If the divine messenger hadn't loved her too much and caused that accident, my "self" might never be possible.

Appeared. Although I have always instinctively rejected her and hated Xixia who was derived from her, but..."

"If you want to know what she wants to accomplish, you are not qualified right now."

"..."

"You know exactly what I'm talking about. You have never experienced true grief, you don't have her strong heart, and you don't have her strength - what qualifications do you have to pursue what she really wants to accomplish?

?”

"I……"

"For her, you are an existence that must be eliminated. Of course, she has no such awareness - in other words, she is just using instinct to erase you. She has broken herself into pieces, saying that she is now

It’s nothing more than a tool to accomplish “that”.”

"'That'...? What on earth are you..."

"I said, you are not qualified to know this. Even the Xixia derived from her cannot be defeated, which only shows that this "self" is nothing more than that."

But that's it...

Exactly... I am such a weak existence...

After the man left, he had a very strange dream.

I dreamed of a mountain with all kinds of flowers blooming and clouds and mist. There is a shrine on the top of the mountain. There is a cliff at the door of the shrine. There is a flowering tree, a stone table, and several stone benches...

I dreamed of a red-haired man.

I also dreamed of... that red-haired girl, who looked young.

gods...

A young god...?

She sat on the stone bench and looked up at the man, who was holding a scroll in his hand and seemed to be chanting non-stop. I couldn't hear the sound, but I knew that the scroll was not a simple one - and no matter how she looked at it, it was just

A child of one or two years old.

——Can you understand?

But after listening to a few words, the young god opened his mouth and started talking to the man without any difficulty. After reading the entire scroll, the man taught the young god step by step a series of uses of divine power.

"We have put all our hard work together, and she is our pride." The red-haired man came to me at some point, "As long as I gave her a little reminder, she would soon understand what I was taught.

"

"you……"

"Shh."

The man motioned for me to be quiet, and with a wave of his hand, the scene of the shrine on the mountain instantly turned into a scene of people praying for blessings.

"Pray for blessings..." I looked at the people kneeling at the sacrificial ground, and then at the figure standing at the front, "You can be so young -"

"It's just one of her talents." The man said, "As long as she sheds tears, rain will fall. Sometimes, the gods must pay something in order to get the world's response."

"...What do you mean? Aren't gods from this world..."

"Dominator?" The man looked at me and asked.

"Isn't it...?"

The man was silent, but the scene around him changed again. This time, the young god was standing alone on a grassy field. The midday sun made her shadow become very short, but she kept looking up somewhere.

I was curious about what she was doing, so I walked next to her and raised my head——

"here it is……"

The man followed and raised his head: "This is the place where I used to live."

"Why is it missing?" I asked.

As if to answer my question, the young god standing next to me said, "It's not missing."

Nothing could be seen on that expressionless face.

"Why is it missing?" I asked again.

I looked at the man, but he just looked at the place where there used to be a mountain: "It's not missing."

"...But it's obviously invisible." I said, "Is that her hometown? I heard it's called Izumo Country, right?"

When the man heard what I said, he turned around and said, "This is my dream, and it is also your dream, but it ends here."

"These are all about her past?" I asked, "Then what? She was born in Izumo Country, why did she go to Takamagahara later? Izumo Country... By the way, what happened in that village in Izumo Country? She

later--"

The man lowered his eyes, which looked particularly clear in the setting sun: "I can only show you this as a little self-comfort on my part. Now, go to sleep."

-

"Bang!"

A huge voice rang in my ears, but just a few dozen steps away from me, the demonic power I exerted with all my strength was completely dispelled. I gritted my teeth, but my sore fingers told me that today I had reached my limit.

"Well, I've made some progress, but I still don't understand what I told you."

A man with long red hair appeared in the blink of an eye only a few dozen steps away from me. He reached out and touched an invisible place, and Xixia's memory appeared from there. Compared to when I was here at the beginning,

The memory that emerged, the wall that surrounded me with memory, became thicker and taller.

"...How much longer can I hold on?" I asked.

"Less than three days." He turned around and looked at me.

In this barrier, there will be the same night and day as the outside world. I don’t know if it is the preference of this red-haired man. There is a mountain in this barrier, with a village at the foot of the mountain and a shrine on the mountain——

It was just like what I had seen in my first dream, but since then, I have never had a dream again.

However, this scene was too familiar, and I realized that there was a similar shrine in Xixia's memory. That was also the only time that she lived past the age of twenty. I thought about it many times, why was it the only time that she lived?

Twenty years old.

I thought this was a loophole in Takamagahara's curse——

"The curse of Takamagahara?" the red-haired man asked.

"Isn't it?"

"no."

So why on earth - why did she not live to be twenty years old, and my body is constantly failing, why on earth -

Suppressing the doubts and fatigue in my heart, I bowed to the man, then slowly turned around and walked up the mountain.

If you can't do it... mgonЪoΓg

That’s something you can’t do anything about, right?

Even if he accepts his "self" as a god, and even if he knows his purpose, there is a gap in power before him——

What should I do with her thousand-year determination? What should I use to compete with her when I have nothing?

The next day, it was still the same. The invisible wall was more than ten steps closer to me. Once again, my demonic power was exhausted, and I fell to the ground helplessly. In the following time, the man did not appear again.

.Perhaps you have given up? Thinking of this, I couldn't help but let go of the hand that was condensing the demonic power.

After staring at the invisible wall for a while, I finally left where I was and walked towards the direction where I used my demonic power every time.

Why……
To be continued...