Feeling terrible.

This is something that makes me feel stomach-wrenching than that of my friend. If that of my friend is something that I can endure and nothing happens, then now this thing belongs to, as long as

If the other party doesn't say anything, nothing will happen.

However, blocking one's mouth is far easier than blocking the other person's mouth.

"What a coward..." I listened carefully to the small voice coming from the entrance and said this without any composure.

I took a deep breath, tore off the half-written manuscript on the table, kneaded it into a ball and threw it on the ground where I stayed with other balls of paper.

"She's gone." Facial spiritual energy sat on a chair not far from me holding the steaming teacup in both hands, as if she was aware of it. She added, "It looks very disappointed."

"I know!" I answered her a little irritable, "But I don't want to go to high school. Why do I have to go to high school?"

"Because of bullying?" She showed doubts on her face as delicate as a doll.

"I don't know!" I left the chair, "and this inexplicable sense of anxiety and depression, I feel like I am not like myself at all!"

"That's just that demonic power is still adapting to your body."

"It's not what I want!"

"But when I was at the station, the man had already reminded you."

"Who would have thought of going there!" I was particularly dissatisfied, but soon regretted throwing my temper on her, "...sorry, I can't control myself."

"I am still surprised at your emotions." Facial spiritual energy placed the cup on the table, "But I probably don't need it. Today I'm here to say goodbye to you."

I was a little surprised: "Goodbye?"

"Yeah." The girl stood up and said, "But, as a monster, you should understand more clearly that the lifespan of humans is only a few decades, right?"

In just a few decades...

I haven't thought that far. I just...

"A Zi, can I talk to you?"

I guess Xiaoyuan is probably leaning against the wall next to the door and talking to me, but I can't tell you what she wants to tell me.

Before going to Mr. Lu Zhi's house, I encountered her talking on the phone with Baihu. After I came back, I was not very willing to go out to meet her.

I refuse to visit everyone, and I refuse to call everyone. I haven't even gone to work in a cafe these days.

The shopkeeper of the cat made many calls, and even ticked me in the group no less than ten times, but I didn't reply. It's really not like me and it's really abnormal to give up like this.

——I don’t know what I’m doing.

"A Zi... I am indeed a member of the Monster Bureau." She paused, "I know it was a bad thing to do this without hiding it from you. At the beginning, it was indeed approaching you because of the demon riot, but I saw you..."

"Is it pitiful?"

“Eh?”

"It's because I'm very pitiful to see us that I have the idea of ​​'They are already so miserable, so it won't be so good to them, right?" The malice was constantly amplified in my heart.

"Absolutely not!" Xiaoyuan was very anxious, "Everyone is worried about you! He did this just because of such concern!"

"Are you really worried about me?" I fell on the bed, "Everyone knew everything, but she was hiding it from me alone. I'm just a fool..."

Tears finally flowed out of my eyes.

"I'm not strong at all, and I don't want to take responsibility at all! I also want to live a normal life, instead of waking up every day, thinking about how to survive..." I said softer, "But

Even so, I am a normal human being…”

This sadness comes from the chaotic state after that day. The confusion and confusion these days have never made me feel relaxed. Tolerating between paper and pen in a painful posture is the only way for me to maintain my mental state.

However, this does not last.

I rejected Lin's multiple visits. I hoped that she would be happy, and that the conflicting mood of her being with me made me extremely ashamed.

I have no right to let Rin accompany me. I admit that I have never been separated from that guilt. I am ashamed of my dirty thoughts, ashamed of myself because I can't bear the fact that I have become a monster, and ashamed of myself for being unable to bear the fact that I have become a monster.

Weakness and shame.

But all this shame is related to my about to start a monster life.

——I don’t want to be a monster.

That's right, this is the final answer I got.

“…”

"...You should understand now, right? I am just a selfish person who only thinks about my hypocritical and ugly."

-

I can't remember how long it took for the chaos to pass. However, one morning, a stack of letters appeared on my desk, all of which were written with "to my sister".

It seemed as if light pierced into the darkness that I was hiding, making me instinctively repelled.

"Rin..." I trembled and opened the first seal.

『To sister:

Since that incident, my sister has never seen me again. After August, I will go back to Genji. According to my sister's hope, I became the eldest lady in Genji. I don't have to worry about food and clothing, and I even have a very comfortable life.

.The people in the Genji family also cherish me very much because they have few daughters.

I came into contact with things about monsters. Sister, do you know? The kimono man we met at that time was actually the head of the family who had died in the Meiji period, but because his consciousness was retained on a monster, hence the reason

Live to this day.

Monsters... are really incredible things. But speaking of this, my sister is also a monster now. I have seen many interesting monsters in Genji. The stories of those monsters have gradually made me feel the beauty of the world.

The only drawback is that you can't see your sister.

A stern

Is this Rin's life in Genji...

Is it already the end of August?

I'm anxious to know what life is going on behind her-

『To sister:

Sister, guess what day is today? Hehe, today is my fourteenth birthday. I really miss my tenth birthday... At that time, my parents were still there, and Sister Xiao Qian was also there, and my sister could see her at any time.

Yes... I don't understand why my sister refused to see me. It's obvious whether I go to Genji or not has much to do with whether I am happy or not.... If you are here, would you say I'm willful again?

Hahaha, I won’t write anymore. I’m going to have a delicious cake. I’m very happy now.

A stern

Birthday... I didn't even attend such an important thing... I'm so bad...

『To sister:

Today I was in high school. Because I was Genji's eldest lady, I easily made friends - of course I can tell which kind of friends are real friends! I did make good friends. If my sister is willing to come

When I see me, I will introduce her to you.

Today I also came to my sister's place. Nothing has changed... It seems that our lives have never changed.

...I am not addicted to the past! When the head of the family asked me to go over and talk, he thought he would say something cliché, but the result was about inheriting the head of the family. He wanted to give me the head of the family. The reason was that I

More suitable for working for the Monster Bureau.

I always feel that this matter is too heavy for me. I just want to learn musical instruments well and go to a good university in the future. But the firm gaze of the head of the family made me unable to refuse.

If my sister is here, what will you say to me at this time? What would you do if it was my sister?

A stern

Several letters in the middle were Rin's inner monologues. From the handwriting she wrote, I knew that she was very entangled. The conservative and innovative forces of the Genji family were fighting openly and secretly, and Rin was mixed in. However, she did it soon.

A decision was made.

This is the biggest difference between me and Rin. I never knew what I wanted to do, and I would not work hard until life forces me to do that.

Lin is different. No matter what the matter is, she is determined to do it. No matter how difficult it is, she will work hard to do it.

『To sister:

Today is another very busy day, but since I became an intern head of the family, it seems that busyness is the norm. The sudden death of my former head caught me off guard. Fortunately, the head of the family during the Meiji period helped me, so I was regained

Take power in your own hands.

Although Genji was strange to me at the beginning, it seems to be very friendly now.

Today is my 18th birthday. I was eating cakes alone in the room and suddenly felt a little lonely. What about my sister? Do you, who has been in that house, feel lonely? I haven't visited you for a long time...

But when things get better, maybe I can do the same as before.

A stern

Lin grew up... In the middle, there were several letters with daily trivial matters written on them.

『To sister:

Today is a special day. I also seemed to have said that there are fewer daughters in Genji... As the adopted daughter of Genji's former head of family, it is normal for me to be married by other families. I didn't mention this to my sister because this is my recent
To be continued...