Chapter 178 PTSD
Susan stared at the photo carefully for a few seconds and shook her head firmly: "It's not her."
Wei Qingsong frowned slightly, a little disappointed.
Did she really think too much?
impossible.
Anyone with a discerning eye can see that the Yan family is absolutely not innocent in this matter.
But think about it, even if the mastermind behind the scenes is the Yan family, why would Yan Yun show up and do these things personally?
As long as she says a word, countless people will rush to serve her.
She should have thought earlier that the Yan family preferred to stay behind the scenes, enjoying the pleasure of controlling everything, treating themselves as supreme gods and trampling on the mortals in their eyes.
Isn’t that what Yan Jiqian and Yan Zhi are like?
Hiding in dark corners, like a mouse that cannot see the light.
At that Sichuan restaurant, Hua Hengchen once said personally that his father worked for the Yan family in Bailiwan.
Thanks to his arrogance, the dark side of the Yan family was exposed to the sun.
However, this is not enough...
After explaining what she knew clearly, Susan let out a long sigh of relief, and a self-deprecating smile appeared on her lips.
"To be honest, many times, I am confused and don't know what to do. In the beginning, I had to do what they said in order to survive."
"But later on, I met a lot of the so-called upper class people who spent money like water and got used to a life of extravagance and extravagance. I can't tell if at a certain moment, I thought, that's it. As long as you have money, it doesn't matter if you sell your body.
"
"Perhaps this is because spending money is becoming more and more charming. I used to live a hard life, but now, the cost of one meal for me is worth several days' salary of an ordinary salaryman. I have a bag and a meal.
This piece of clothing is something that ordinary people can’t buy in half a year of frugality.”
"I've been struggling with this kind of contradiction. I feel like I can't do this, but at the same time I'm enjoying it. I feel really cheap."
Susan's idea is actually not difficult to understand from a psychological perspective.
Victims of sexual assault often create an illusion through self-paralysis and self-deception.
They will feel that if they are voluntary and not forced, then they are not violated and the matter is not that bad.
This is a psychological mechanism of self-protection.
Just because the victims compromise the status quo does not mean that they are really "voluntary".
They are just numbing themselves to relieve their inner pain.
They are not mean, but have suffered psychological trauma.
This is a distorted perception of the abuser and is a typical symptom of PTSD.
Wei Qingsong sighed and said softly: "It's all over."
Susan's eyes were dim and unclear, and she said hoarsely after a while: "Is it really all over?"
"Those pains have been deeply imprinted in my bone marrow and can never be erased. When I dream at night, I will recall those unbearable past events."
"I can't get over it. Those memories will constantly remind me of how unbearable I used to be. I can't get over it."
"Even if the case is over, this matter will be like a nightmare, following me like a shadow, making it impossible for me to live a good life in this life. What's more, will it really end easily, police officer?"
"The manager escaped...and the VIP customers of the hotel. There will always be people who slip through the net. It is impossible to catch them all. I have to leave this city and fly far away, so that there is no possibility of retaliation. I want to remain anonymous."
, live cautiously and fearfully."
"Can you teach me how to get through?"
Susan has always been calm and sober, but now, she can no longer maintain her rationality, leaning forward, looking excited, and her eyes are red.
Wei Qingsong gently held her trembling hand and said in a gentle voice: "Why should you use other people's mistakes to punish yourself?"
"This is not your fault. You are the victim. They are the ones who should have nightmares and be disturbed for the rest of their lives. They will spend the rest of their lives in prison, but you still have a future."
"I have no future." Susan's mood was extremely negative, her expression was decadent and gloomy, she covered her face and kept shaking her head.
This is an expression of escapism.
Wei Qingsong knew that no matter how indifferent or strong Susan appeared on the surface, she could not hide the suffering she was feeling inside.
But the more she tolerates it, the more she keeps all the pain in her heart, which will only aggravate the emotional internal friction and deepen the pain.
The only way to cheer her up is to let her face the pain.
There is nothing wrong with her and she should not be labeled with anything.
The same goes for other girls. They should not blame themselves or resent themselves.
Because in this case, the guilty ones are the men who violated them.
There is a large amount of data showing that after being assaulted, many victims will have severe PTSD reactions.
They may even feel that it is their own fault for being violated.
In addition to blaming themselves, they will also develop a strong fear of the opposite sex, which will have a huge impact on their future lives and will no longer be able to fall in love or live a normal life.
Victims will begin to loathe themselves, develop an avoidance mentality, and will no longer dare to socialize because they will be afraid of the eyes of others.
After all, people are in a complex social environment. If after being hurt, they are not comforted in time, but are stimulated by the people around them, causing secondary harm, the consequences will be even more disastrous.
In severe cases, it will form an extreme mentality and go to the other extreme, constantly producing negative and melancholy emotions, self-torture, at least it will change your temperament, start promiscuity, at worst it will lose the desire to live, and lead to self-destruction.
Wei Qingsong thought for a long time and asked in a low voice: "Who do you think is responsible for such a thing?"
Just as she expected, Susan answered without hesitation: "Of course it's my responsibility. I was too stupid and easy to deceive, and didn't know how to resist. After the incident happened, I muddle along and was easily controlled by them.
"
This is the reality. Even if she is a victim, most people who have been violated will first feel that the violation is their own responsibility.
They will feel that they did not protect themselves well, that they were too naive and too stupid.
Wei Qingsong shook his head slightly and retorted: "You are just a girl who came to a big city to work alone. You are facing two adult men. There is a huge disparity in strength between men and women. Physically, you have no way to protect yourself.
, it is almost impossible for a girl to protect herself in the face of aggression, why are you so harsh on yourself? "
Susan pursed her lips tightly and said in a dry voice: "Even so, I obviously had many opportunities to escape later, but I didn't. I was too cowardly. Maybe I just let myself down."
"You are wrong again." Wei Qingsong spoke firmly, staring directly into her eyes, "You were taken indecent photos and videos, and you don't want those videos to be circulated on the Internet. Isn't this a form of self-indulgence?
Protect? You were threatened, what's your fault? In that case, you have gone as far as you can to save your own life."
Susan's eyes were blurred, as if she was deep in thought.
"So, do you still think you were wrong?" Wei Qingsong asked.
Chapter completed!