I simply sat up and said, "I'll have one too."

He said: It is not good for girls to smoke at night, and if two people smoke, your room will smell like smoke.

I said: It's okay, this is a women's cigarette, the smell is not that strong. Besides, I get angry and I can't do it without smoking.

He looked at me angrily and funny, then took a cigarette from the box, handed it to me, and lit it for me.

We all sat and smoked quietly for a while. He said, "Well, what I want to say may be a bit long. Do you mind?"

I said: It's okay, just tell me.

He took another sip, and then said slowly: When I was in high school, I fell in love with a girl. Later, she also fell in love with me. At that time, I was young and energetic, and I was a little careless. As a result, during the college entrance examination

I passed the exam, but she didn't. Because in that year, I couldn't help but have her first time. As a result, she got pregnant.

After he finished speaking, he felt a little melancholy. I nodded and listened quietly.

He said: At that time, we were all very poor. You know, I am different from Dai Xiangwei and others. What I am today is all made possible by sweat and tears.

I nodded again, I knew this a long time ago.

He went on to say: I simply told my family and stopped studying. When I was 18 years old, I asked her to give birth to the child and we got married.

I was instantly shocked and said: You had such a sense of responsibility when you were 18 years old.

He smiled and then said: I was young at that time and thought very simply. But she was more mature than me. She insisted that she didn’t want it and ran away behind my back to get rid of it. Later, when I learned about this matter, I couldn’t understand it at all.

She was cruel and selfish. I broke up with her. I remember that on the day I broke up, it rained heavily. She knelt on the ground in the rain and begged me to forgive me, but I didn't. I left and bought it the next day.

A train ticket to this city.

My mind immediately sketched out a picture of them back then. No matter what, both of them must have felt pain in their hearts.

I patted his shoulder, and he shook his head to indicate that he was fine, then took a puff of cigarette and continued: "I was young at that time and had a very decisive personality. I think she killed my child and I will never be able to forgive her in this life."

, so I cut off all contact with her. Of course, this approach seems childish and extreme now. But that year, it was really with hatred.

I worked hard alone in this city. I moved bricks on construction sites and worked in factories. Later, I met the right master in the factory and he was willing to teach me skills, so I learned from him. At that time, I

I never thought I would be where I am now, so I just focused on learning technology. Later, the master said, you have a flexible mind and you are young. Take advantage of the energy now to apply for night university. I only have a good foundation in high school. After hearing what the master said, I

I really went. I chose to take the self-study exam, and I took the exam step by step from junior college to undergraduate. Really, I was very perseverant at that time. I didn’t think about anything, I just focused on thinking hard and working hard. It took me four years to take this exam.

."

I was completely surprised. I never thought that his academic qualifications were obtained bit by bit through self-examination. He is so perseverant!

He continued: "In the past four years, my job has been constantly changing. By the time I got my undergraduate degree, I had transformed from a worker to a salesperson in the company. At that time, being a salesperson was a hard job.

Many people don't want to run away. My master is very supportive of me. He said that I am motivated and can succeed, and strongly recommends that I go.

So, I started running a business. During the years when I was running a business, I came into contact with a lot of girls, and I was also frightened by the darkness of society. When I entered the society and met all kinds of girls, I suddenly discovered that she used to be like that.

Her behavior at that time was normal, we were both so young, and it was really immature to have a child at that time. She aborted the child for her own sake, and her starting point was right, but my breakup was too irresponsible.

At that time, I had already made a little money. I came home for the first time in four years just to find her. As a result, she got married early. When I saw her again, she was already the mother of two children.

No longer. Her eyes no longer had the sparkle of the past, and her whole person became very dull. She just kept mumbling, "You are back."

Later, a classmate told me that that year, she had some mental problems, and her family did not provide treatment. They arranged a marriage early and got her married.

My whole body ached when I heard that. I gave her all the money I earned, and she laughed at me stupidly. She still remembered my name. She said, Xu Cheng, you are so kind, you are so good.

A good man.

When I returned to the city, I could never forget her current miserable situation. I was really crazy in those days. I worked like crazy and found many girls to meet my physical needs, but I was not in the mood to fall in love at all. Because

This has also broken the hearts of many girls.

Later, I gradually became the sales manager. Then the company encountered some problems, so I took a group of my subordinates to work alone. The situation was good in those few years, and I gradually became what I am now.

Later, my mother called me to urge me to get married. I thought after so many years, I should really calm down and find a suitable person to get married. But because I was rich, I looked around and all the women were so material.

I want a pure and beautiful relationship, but in today's society, it is really a luxury.

I simply won’t look for you anymore. As you can see, if we get along well, we can be together everywhere. It doesn’t matter about falling in love, let alone feelings.”

At this point, he asked me: In addition, do you think my thoughts are incomprehensible?

My whole heart has been deeply shocked. I never knew that there were so many thoughts hidden behind this resolute man. Sure enough, no one can succeed casually.

I said: I can understand, because although we have different experiences, we have many similar feelings. I can understand you, really.

His eyes lit up, and then he continued: "Come on, I met you. On the day I interviewed you, I felt that you were no different from the girls I knew. But you are very courageous, so I decided

Try you out.

But the more I get in touch with you, the more I find that you are different from other women. I can guess other people's thoughts, but I can't figure it out with you. You will not take the initiative to cling to me, and you will rush forward like a man when you encounter any problem.

We have socialized so many times, but I have never seen you be seduced by anyone. I began to feel that you have a strong heart.

But that time you almost ran away with someone when you were drunk. I asked you if you weren't worried. You also said that people die for money and birds die for food, which surprised me. I thought you had a bottom line, but that night, I discovered

I was wrong again.

Later, after a little contact, I found that our acting styles are very similar, and we have a tacit understanding most of the time. But you never take the initiative, so I can't take the initiative either.

I don't want to be emotional, I'm afraid of being sincere, so whenever I find out that I have feelings for you, I start to try my best to transfer it.

I also tested you, but you didn't give me an answer. I don't think I can guess what you are thinking at all. Having lived to my age, I have passed the age of wishful thinking. Do you understand, Yi Zhizhi

?”

At that moment, I felt as if my whole heart was going to explode. I never thought that Xu Cheng would tell me so much, even tell me how he felt about me. I have always known that he is a person with stories.

And he is also a man who hides himself very deeply. I never thought that I would be a listener of his past events; I never thought that he was longing for me to understand.

At that moment, I burst into tears. I felt that these alone were enough to move me. I couldn't help but throw myself into his arms. I said: Because I understand, I am compassionate. I never thought that you and I would have a relationship.

Same feeling.

He was also overjoyed and embraced me in his arms. He said: "Well, I always thought you understood me, but I never dared to think that you really understood me."

In fact, I am not the same. This quiet night, this tender man under the cold appearance, makes me particularly grateful. What virtues and abilities do I have to make him cherish me?

I said: OK, it’s very hard for us to walk like this.

He said: All the waiting is worth it, what do you think?

I said: But after talking for a long time, I still don’t understand why you don’t want me.

He was startled by my sudden frankness, and then he laughed instantly. He said: Don’t you understand yet? Because of my recklessness and willfulness, I ruined a woman’s life. So, I swear that if one day I

When I meet the love of my life, I will never act hastily. I must give her a sufficient sense of security before I can let her truly become my woman. Now, the time has not come yet.

Ah...my little heart, it’s been so long since I’ve heard love words, is it beating wildly because of his heartfelt love words?

I said: But you can be so casual with other women...

He ticked my nose and said: It's all about what you want, it's different. For men, sex and love can be separated. With them, it's as simple as that, without any extra thoughts.

I said weakly: Well, I thought you couldn't do it...

Hearing what I said, he pressed me down fiercely, deliberately letting me feel his huge hardness, and then gasped and said: Do you still think I can't do it? Do you want to give it a try?

I looked at his evil smile, and immediately kissed him on the mouth regardless. That was the territory I had always wanted to capture, and I finally succeeded...

He probably didn't expect this move from me at all, he just let my flexible tongue penetrate deep, then he hugged me hard, and responded to my kiss hard.

I feel that I will never have a deeper kiss than this in my life. It is not just the collision of lips, but more of the attraction of soul to soul...

I hugged him too, so hard and so affectionately. I had been looking forward to such an ending for so long that I almost thought I would never wait for it in my life.

Nowadays, isn’t it time to wait until the clouds clear to see the moonlight? The best man always stays in the final outcome. At that moment, I thought that my decision to wait for him alone for so many years was the right one. Xu Cheng, I
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