201 A little bit of helplessness behind deep affection
He said with emotion: At this time last year, we were about to set off and return to our hometown, right?
I said: Yes, time is so fast, and a year has passed like this.
He said: Yes. Yes, my mother asked you some time ago, asking you how you are now?
I said oh, I thought, my miscarriage should have made his mother feel irritated. I said: Where is her, is she in good health now?
Xu Cheng nodded and said: It's quite healthy.
I responded, and we walked slowly. The place where I live now was once our love nest. But now, I am alone. In winter, the sycamore trees are depressed, just like our love, only dry branches, without any greenness or nutrients.
Xu Cheng said: That's right, there's something I want to tell you.
I turned around and said: What's wrong?
He let out a big sigh and said: I'm going to the United States for a while, about three months.
I was very surprised that he had flew around on business trips before, but it had never happened once, so long.
I said: What should I do there? Go before the New Year? Or go after the New Year?
He said: Just take a few days, and you will set off immediately after you have confirmed it. Go there to study for a while and find out whether the technology can be introduced to our company.
I said: Oh, will it take so long?
He nodded, and we had already walked downstairs of my house. He looked at me and said: In that case, can I go up and sit for a while?
I said yes, and then went upstairs together. There was a heavy feeling between the two of them. I always had a word that I didn't ask, but I didn't want to ask, nor did I dare to ask, because I was afraid I would be sad.
I turned on the door and turned on the light. He walked in and looked around. He said: At that point, it was still the same, and it had not changed at all.
I smiled and said: I'm lazy and I'm too lazy to move anything. I just asked my aunt to come here to clean every week.
We chatted all the time, and I walked to the kitchen. He liked to drink coffee. I made some coffee beans and started grinding them. He stood behind me, and the natural aura made my heart tremble. I found that he still had a fatal attraction to me.
This time I came to the fairy for dinner, and he should have dressed up in a khaki shirt. The inside was a striped shirt I chose for him before. The lower body was light blue jeans and casual leather shoes. He sprayed the perfume he always liked. The faint fragrance made me a little confused.
After I didn't go to work, I wore casual clothes in cotton, very casual. My hair was already very long and I picked it up casually. He suddenly leaned against my ear and said: That's it, you are so beautiful like this.
My whole body shook for a moment. For some reason, I took the initiative. I turned around, hugged his neck, and looked at his face carefully. His eyes were so charming, his lips were so thick, and the deep affection in my eyes almost fascinated me.
Seeing that I was moved, his eyes couldn't help but get wet. He hugged me in his arms, and I hugged him tightly. He said: By the way, I really miss you.
I am not the same. We have been suppressing for so long, and too many suppressed emotions have spread out like an explosion at this moment. This love nest of our past has left too many lingering memories of the past. At this moment, holding the same man and feeling a completely different state of mind, I admit that I am greedy.
I didn't want to say anything, just wanted to do it with him quickly. I have been suppressing it for too long, I don't know if he is like this, I don't know how he has solved his own *** this year. In short, at this moment, I am lonely, I want, I have to.
When the emotions moved, they were out of control. I couldn't remember what he carried me to the bed. In short, we fought very fiercely, from the kitchen to the bedroom, all the way was clothes scattered.
He said: Are you already very thirsty?
I squinted my eyes and said: Yes, I'm quite thirsty.
He said: OK, I'll come.
After saying that, he took off my inner ku and directly penetrated into my body. I felt like I was floating up instantly. The feeling of emptiness that was suddenly filled with a long time made me scream excitedly.
He kissed my mouth gently, kissed my tongue and then went down affectionately, and my moan turned into three words in the end: Don't stop...
Maybe Xu Cheng hasn't exerted his strength for too long, and this is a rhythm that can't stop. I touched the muscles on his chest and thought that he wouldn't be working out all year, and when will all his eight-pack abs come out?
He was afraid that my screaming sound would affect the neighbor next door, so he quickly stuffed his fingers into my mouth. When I was so happy, he bit his fingers. The harder I bite, the harder he would do...
After an hour of battle, this guy finally released his last little motivation, then he rolled over from me limply, lay beside him, hugged me tightly in his arms, and then said: So tight... So wet... So comfortable.
My face turned red with embarrassment. He bit his chest and didn't say anything about me. He just laughed and said: I'm so unrestrained just now, but I'm shy now?
I said speechlessly: It’s a long drought that has a rainy rain, it’s true. Women have reached this age, you know.
He hugged me tightly for a while, then touched my arm and said: Yes, when I come back from the United States, we will get married, okay? I never want to be separated from you again. It feels so uncomfortable to be separated from you...
I was shocked and couldn't believe my ears. It's been almost a year since I asked for marriage. Is it appropriate to ask for marriage?
I said: Ah?...But you are so busy now, let’s talk about it, will it be very hasty, right?
He said lightly: When I come back from the United States, I will not be very busy. Dear, I don’t want to miss you anymore.
I sensitively smelled something strange, and I said: If we didn’t get together at night, would you still mention getting married?
He nodded calmly and said: Yes, I plan to pursue you wholeheartedly after the United States comes back, and I must recover you back.
I was a little happy when I heard this. I said: Then what are you going to deal with the relationship between you and Mian Fur?
I finally asked about the doubts in my heart for so long. I really want to know how he promised Mian Fur so that Mian Fur would help him through the difficulties with all his heart.
As soon as I asked this, his face became solemn. He said: When I met you, I will be destined to be sorry for her in my life.
My heart suddenly sank. This sentence made me hear his deepest guilt towards mink. If a man feels guilty towards a woman, then he must have affection for her.
Since I had already asked, I simply asked all of them. I said: So, tell me the truth, how has your development been between you?
He immediately stammered and said: At the same time, she is almost forty years old, and has been affectionate with me for so many years, never got married, and has always held hope for me. When I was the most difficult time, I didn't think about asking her for help, but she resolutely chose to tie up with my company to overcome the difficulties.
The more he spoke, the colder he saw my eyes getting colder, and he couldn't say anything further. I said: I understand, you are a man who doesn't like to owe others or something. But you think you owe her and owed her a favor.
He nodded and said: That's it, so she drank a lot of wine that day and said a lot of things to me. I sent her home. She pulled me and refused to let me go. I drank too much, so we just...
I heard a heart-dead voice in an instant. These days, his evasion at me had made me notice his strangeness. Now he confirmed it with his own words, which made me even more difficult to accept. I was silent, sat up, put on my nightgown, and continued: So, I have never dared to see you. I have been wandering at the door of Jingba several times and dared not enter. I feel that I have done something sorry for you. Every time I want to call you, I feel that I have no position.
I lit a cigarette, took a sip, and said: What's the relationship with you now after you get out?
He said: I showed my love for you in my heart, and she said it was okay. But it was certain that she was injured. She went abroad for vacation alone and we haven't contacted each other for a long time.
I sighed and said: Actually, maybe she is more suitable for you than me.
He heard me say this and immediately hugged me. He said: In this way, love is not suitable or not, only love, or not.
My tears flowed quietly, and I said: I understand, but I really can't forgive betrayal. If I had sex with another man, could you forgive me?
He still hugged me, hugging me so tightly. He said: I can't do it, we are all people who love them too absolutely. It's just men's bad luck, sometimes it's not as easy as women. In other words, I understand that no matter how you choose, I respect your choice.
At that moment, my heart was broken. I didn't know what he was feeling when he said the words "I respect your choice", but his warm and desperate kiss had already told me his heart.
As clear as he was, in fact, after the night he and Mian passed by, I realized that I and him had no room for maneuver. So he deliberately did not contact me, and stayed at the corner of Jingba several times but did not dare to see me. I always felt guilty about wanting to see me but not daring to see me. Proposing marriage may be the only bargaining chip he thought could save our relationship.
Chapter completed!