"Yeah... I want to leave." I don't know what to say, but I know that leaving is inevitable. Instead of apologizing to Sister Monina in a tactful way, it's better to say it outright. I know that long pain is worse than short pain, and long strokes are worse than just...

But the price of saying this is to take away my courage to face Monina and my embarrassing crying... Well, it's embarrassing, my tears can no longer be controlled. Isn't it shameful to sniff frequently and the slight sobs that I can't help but laugh at myself. I've obviously cried, but I have to pretend to be stubborn and nothing has happened...

"Why?" Monina continued to ask me tremblingly, as if she was crying. Sister Monina, who was confident and strong in the past, is like this now... I never thought that Sister Monina would cry. It turns out that everyone's heart will have a weak place...

Did I hurt Sister Monina? But... I can only say: "I'm sorry..."

"Why?" Monina asked again, a heartbreaking prayer in her sob: "Why? Why don't you give me a chance to remedy? Things have not started yet, we can still save it. Ye Xi... Give me a chance, I will definitely not do this..."

I believe you... Sister Monina... Monina's prayer shook my heart over and over again, and he forced these words to the deepest part of his heart without any cut. I really want to forgive Sister Monina, or what can I forgive?

In fact, Sister Monina did not make any mistakes at all... The contradictions made me unable to make a choice, but it was like there was guidance in the dark that I chose to stick to my principles - or rather, I was not controlling myself. Gradually, I felt that I was really an absolute bastard.

Holding the discomfort, I said ruthlessly: "No, Sister Monina did nothing wrong at all. If it were me, I would do this too. I have no other intentions. For the sake of overall interests, it is best to do this. Sister Monina doesn't need to apologize, really doesn't need to apologize..."

I wiped away the tears from the corners of my eyes and continued, "And, once Sister Monina changes her plan at this time, the result will be the same, right? Moreover, forcibly changing will only lead to a greater disaster. This is a thankless thing. Sister Monina, you should stick to your own plan..."

"I don't want... I just want Ye Xi, you can stay!" As soon as I finished speaking, Monina yelled at me. Suddenly, a pair of hands surrounded my waist, and a warm body pressed against my back. The cheeks with warm liquid were on their back.

The faint warmth, mixed with unknown emotions, seemed to be the resonance caused by the two sadness, which made my body tremble uncontrollably, and what followed was more guilt and sorrow.

I didn't push Monina away, just quietly felt her warmth - maybe, I won't have this opportunity for a long time...or, for a lifetime... or... even forever...

Isn't this what I hope? I want to immerse myself in this warmth, but I don't allow myself. From just now, a series of pain and sorrow have made me unable to find my direction. Now, it seems that I only know that I want to leave, and I don't even know why I want to leave. But the voice of "leave" is stubborn...

"Ye Xi, forgive me, no, I will never do this again..." Monina said in my ear with a crying voice, and warm liquid often dripped into her neck and slid down along the curve of her body...

"Sister Monina Ji, you are not wrong... I don't blame you..." I wiped my tears again, looked at the ceiling and pretended to be strong, "I'm just afraid..."

"I'm afraid of seeing the imperfect sister Monina, so I want to leave for the time being. If Sister Monina could do that day, I might come back... At that time, Monina would still be the perfect sister Monina, and the image of Sister Monina will always be perfect in my heart..."

"So... Sister Monina, please let me leave?" I said with a forced smile: "Then Sister Monina will do her own business again. Is it okay for us to compete?"

"..." Monina didn't say anything, only a soft sob. I smiled hard and said, "I believe in Sister Monina, and I also believe that we can meet again..."

"No...I just want Ye Xi, you..." Monina finally spoke. She said in a low voice, and I actually heard that kind of strength again. "I don't care about the speaker, the queen, I just want Ye Xi, don't leave..."

"Why……"

"Because, I won't allow you to leave..." Monina's tone gradually became firm, as if she had made up some determination. The feeling of being strong was so familiar, but it made me feel uneasy. She repeated her words and hugged me tighter.

"Ye Xi... you can't leave..." Monina murmured, gradually becoming crazy: "You can't leave... Ye Xi, you promised me to be with me forever, see the birth of a new world together, watch the sun set in the garden together, and enjoy each other's warmth together... Ye Xi, you can't break your promise!"

With Monina's words that shocked my soul countless times, the soul seemed to be hit by waves, and the dreamy scene slowly emerged in front of her eyes. But it was spinning and swallowed by the darkness...

I wanted to reach out my hand, but I couldn't grasp it... I only grasped the beautiful silk thread, and then slid out of my hand, and what replaced it was my own tears...

"I'm sorry..." I gritted my teeth and said, "I can't stay here...I lied to Sister Monina for too many things..."

Now, I have a desire to tell all my secrets. Although I have had it before, it is so strong today. Sister Monina's love for me has no reservation, but how much did I deceive her? Dreams are always dreams, and reality is the winner. Every time I can beat the dreams to pieces...

If Sister Monina knew all my details, could she allow me to stay with her? Slowly, I felt that I was particularly cruel - I don’t know if it was cruel to myself or to Sister Monina. If I dig out that memory that was unbearable to look back on, I would collapse...

"Sister Monina, do you know that I lied to you a lot of things, really... a lot of things..."

"I don't care... No matter who Ye Xi, you are, no matter how you were before, you are my Ye Xi, forever!" Monina roared, hugging me tighter. Kuku could no longer bear the pressure and jumped out of my arms and looked at us both worriedly. However, my desire was tighter...

I ignored Monina and continued to say lightly: "Sister Monina, after listening to my past, you won't think so..."
Chapter completed!