Lying on the snow, Rin closed her eyes and was still breathing heavily. Her pretty face was stained with a red glow due to the dual effects of alcohol and exercise.

This was the first time that Shenji felt that this girl was indeed a little bit cute and good-looking. She was no longer just a paper character who watched anime and played games in her previous life.

——She is a living girl, and everyone in this world is a living person.

"Really," Shen Er touched his head and sat up, showing a somewhat helpless expression, "How come I didn't realize this until now."

Lin Zui, who sat up, asked dimly: "What are you talking about?"

"No, it's nothing." Shenji stood up little by little, holding on to the cold snow, "Go back, otherwise you will catch a cold. Today I will be a rare gentleman and send you home."

"You don't need a reason to send a drunk girl home, okay?" Rin retorted, then got up unsteadily, put one hand on her hips and pointed the index finger of the other hand at Shinji, "This is common sense!"

"A guy who secretly drinks before he is old enough to drink has no right to talk about common sense!"

...

After sending Rin home, it was already two o'clock in the morning.

At half past two o'clock, Shinji finally returned to his home, but before he even got close, he saw Sakura standing outside the door holding an umbrella, waiting.

"Welcome back, brother."

"Um."

Shenji responded casually, seemingly unconcerned, but secretly he noticed Sakura's little hands that were red from the cold, and her feet that were wearing sandals that were red from the cold.

The thick snow on the umbrella proved how long this sister had been waiting for him in the ice and snow.

What a silly girl, Shenji sighed inwardly.

"Take a shower first, brother, don't catch a cold."

"Um."

Shenji still responded calmly, but added another sentence when he stepped into the house.

"You too, don't catch a cold."

Hearing this, Sakura was slightly startled. This seemed to be the first expression of concern for her from her brother in a long time.

"Yeah!" Sakura responded solemnly.

…

Tohsaka family.

In the bathroom full of steaming mist, Rin, who had woken up from alcohol, was curled up in the bathtub with her knees in her arms, her face so red that it looked like she was about to bleed.

"What on earth am I doing..."

The shameful attitude when drunk constantly washes away the girl's shame.

At least tonight it will be difficult to get over those things and fall asleep.

...

The last day of the holiday is January 8th.

Less than half a month after Shinji changed his view of the world, a phone call came from Fuyuki Shinto, conveying the news of Tsuruno's death to the Matou family.

It was a call from a certain hotel where Tsuruno often stayed.

Standing at the door of the hotel room, Shenji looked at his father in this life who was lying on the bed in the room wearing pajamas provided by the hotel. He had stopped breathing and had no vital signs. He was just silent.

On the side, a woman in her mid-twenties who was well dressed and with a good figure and appearance kept saying something to the police while crying.

It has nothing to do with me. I also mentioned that I should take the medicine according to the dosage. When I woke up in the morning, I found that the other person had died or something.

Several police officers also took the trouble to comfort the lady, as if she were a family member.

"Mr. Matou Shinji, right?"

"Yes." Shen Er nodded in response.

"The cause of your father's death has been found out. It was indeed an accident. He took aphrodisiacs at a dosage that far exceeded the prescribed value in order to pursue stimulation..."

Shenji didn't listen to what the police said behind him.

There was just one thing that caught Shinji's attention at this time, and that was that after she took her father's body to the funeral parlor's car prepared downstairs, the lady changed her previous attitude and handed him the funeral certificate with a smile on her face.

Got a business card.

And secretly told myself that there are many good young ladies and so on.

Shen Er burst into laughter. This strong sense of reality made Shen Er deeply feel the reality of this world once again.

Seeing Shenji accept the business card, the woman stepped on her high heels and left with a satisfied look on her face.

A woman who fantasizes about having the opportunity to meet such high-class people never imagined that she would soon be forced to leave Fuyuki City.

...

At the funeral, Shen, who was wearing a black Western-style dress, calmly looked at the tombstone with the words Matou Tsuruno engraved on it.

Ren Shen'er never imagined that his father, who secretly used spiritual energy to comb his body and secretly added ingredients to the wine he drank from time to time, would meet the end of his life in this way.

Many times, I have seen Heye complaining about his high pressure when he was alone in secret, and drank to drown his sorrows.

Obviously I only did some trivial auxiliary work, and the work I did was several times more than that of Heye, and I never felt that there was much pressure.

He is really a man with poor ability to withstand stress... Shenji thought to himself.

Are you disgusted with this man?

Probably not. Although this man cannot bear any pressure, he is just as disgusted with the devil and this decadent family as his true self.

Perhaps in a sense, he is indeed not a very qualified father, but for such a magical family, he does not seem to be that bad, and he even does a much better job than most fathers in magical families.

Much more.

At least, I never really rejected him in my heart, and always regarded him as my father.

Memories from his childhood, before he could recover his past life memories, came to Shinji's mind bit by bit...

"I said it was a long time ago, right?"

"Just like the library you often go to, the Matou family has lost its ancient power!"

"You're just an ordinary person now!"

"Matou can no longer use magic!"

"There's no way you can become a magician."

"You have no idea how lucky you are! Shinji!"

"There's no need to use magic or anything like that."

"Forget about magic and just be an ordinary person."

"do you understand?"

The words He Ye once said kept flashing through Shinji's mind. This man had also taken the trouble to persuade him again and again.

Father, I'm really sorry. Until the last moment, I still couldn't let you know that your "son" was actually not interested in magic at all like you.

In fact, his nature is exactly the same as that of your father, he just wants to be an idle cloud and a crane.

Feel sorry......

Looking at Shinji who had been standing there in silence for more than three hours with his head lowered, Sakura, who was still wearing a black dress, finally stepped forward and stood next to Shinji, perhaps hoping to soothe Shinji's emotions in this way.

Sensing Sakura's arrival, Shinji took one last look at the brand new tombstone, turned around and left.

No one knows how tightly Shen Er's hand in his pocket was clenched, or how many times Shen Er almost couldn't hold back his emotions.

Shinji knew in his heart that Lord Chong was just an invisible microcosm of the demonic world without morality. Tragedies like Sakura's were common in this demonic world.

Perhaps as a two-dimensional person in his previous life, Shen Er was fascinated by such a world, but after coming to such a world, Shen Er didn't like it at all.

The putrid world where all kinds of desires are intertwined, the smell of pedantry is disgusting.

Magicians are not worthy of praise at all.

Even some magicians, like the Virgin Mary, have the ideal of eliminating human evil, eliminating all human karma, and fundamentally saving humankind.

...is not worthy of praise either.

Evil, at its root, is something like desire. If desire were completely gone, human beings would probably really be destroyed.

There is also karma. This word is a little troublesome to explain. It is the earliest philosophy that emerged from religion in India. To simply understand, "karma" is what a person does, and "karma" is what is caused by repetition.

"Habits" formed by doing things, for example, a person often curses, and finally opens his mouth to speak, forming "spoken language". This "spoken language" is caused by "karma" (habit).

The "elimination of karma" mentioned in Buddhist practice refers to the "elimination of karma". Karma cannot be eliminated, but karma (habit) can be eliminated. And "karma" (habit) is the biggest obstacle to practice.

, it is the habit that we have developed over a long period of time that the mind comes first and the principles come first. This is a habit that practitioners must first overcome.

As for a certain "Holy Mother" who said that the ideal of eliminating all karma is to eliminate all "facts" in the world, that is, what everyone does, in Shinji's opinion, it is pure nonsense, not only big and empty, but also completely unrealistic.

thing.

Turn all human beings into immortal soul bodies?

Don't go to so much trouble, just research and turn human beings into stones that cannot think. Then all karma and evil will be gone, and there won't be any disputes.

The idea that these magicians are superior to ordinary people and think they are good is what Shinji rejects the most.

Whether it’s FZ’s Kiritsugu, Zouken, or Einzbern, Shinji doesn’t agree.

...It would be nice if it disappeared! It would be nice if everything related to magic and mystery disappeared from this world!

Shenji couldn't help but be startled by such an idea that suddenly popped up in his mind.

After dispersing such thoughts in his mind, Shen Er breathed a sigh of relief and cursed secretly.

Mad, almost possessed!
Chapter completed!