Silence does not embarrass them.

When standing face to face like this, they can't help but reach out their hands. Li Yuezhen held her hands behind her back.

"For now..."

"yes."

"...Will you stay in the capital?"

Li Yuezhen has just finished her six-month field service. Logically speaking, she will temporarily stay in the capital to do back-office work.

Chunxiang narrowed her eyes and looked up at Li Yuezhen.

"If there are no accidents, it should be..."

"……Yeah?"

Chunxiang's pursed pale red lips seemed to reveal a smile.

Li Yuezhen tried her best to look away naturally and looked at the willow tree beside the road.

If... Chunxiang marries a woman.

"Chunxiang..."

"What?"

"Are you planning to get married?"

In desperation, he asked bluntly, but then bit his lip because the question was too abrupt.

At this moment, he caught Chunxiang's stiff expression from the corner of his eye.

"...Did you hear anything?"

"ah?"

"I refuse, I clearly refuse..."

"..."

When he couldn't help but look back, he temporarily forgot the censor's principle of "being invisible".

"Sure enough, there is someone..."

"ah?"

"Oh...it's okay, I just...listened to what others said..."

Chunxiang frowned, as if someone knew an ulterior secret.

"Last time...two...officials...asked me...to marry me.

…”

"..."

"So, I refused, both of them..."

He couldn't help but feel angry at the two strange officials. Chunxiang said that he had rejected them, which made his heart tighten even more.

He felt jealous, but then felt relieved...

"...Why refuse?"

"what why……?"

What on earth are you asking? What will happen if you ask?

Chunxiang lowered her head, her cheeks flushed.

"...I decided not to get married because I like the job of a maid...If I can, I hope to serve the Queen for the rest of my life, but..."

"..."

"I don't mean...I will never marry..."

The wind blows Chunxiang's bangs.

……wind……

At that time, the cold wind blew in from the rotten wooden door...

"I also... decided not to marry."

Li Yuezhen could feel Chunxiang raising his head next to him. He looked at the willow hanging to the ground and glanced at Chunxiang from the corner of his eyes.

"I don't know where I was born. When I was sensible, I lived around with my parents. The two of them were thieves, and sometimes they would rob and hurt people."

He often smelled the smell of blood and alcohol on his parents, and he thought this was what parents should smell like.

"When I was a child, my parents taught me to steal. I often stole things, and when my parents broke in, I would help look after them. If everything went well, they would reward me; if everything went well, they would beat and kick me. I hated that.

They live a kind of life, but they don’t know any other way of living, so they keep running around with them.”

Deep down in his heart he wanted to escape, but he didn't know how.

If he successfully steals something valuable, he will be given a good meal; if he fails, he will be beaten and treated as a punching bag.

He would always stay in a dilapidated abandoned house in the middle of the night, waiting in fear for his parents who had gone out to steal to come home.

"...When I was eight years old, I realized that I was not their biological son. When they passed the checkpoint, they encountered a large-scale inspection. They thought they could successfully pass the checkpoint with a child disguised as a businessman, so they abducted him

I picked up a child who happened to be playing nearby and kept it with me ever since. After I learned about this incident, I resisted them and cried and asked them to send me back to my biological parents. They said that as long as I stole a large amount of money by myself,

If you have enough money, you are willing to send me back."

He recalled that his parents were drunk at the time, their faces were red and they laughed and said: If you can do it, go for it!

"So, I sneaked into a big house secretly. Before I could take action, I was caught by the son of that family... the Zhuge family in the capital."

He thought that in such a big house, he would never bump into anyone, but he didn't expect to be discovered by a boy about his age.

When the other party asked him who he was, he answered honestly that he was a thief.

"Are you a thief? You're lying, right?"

After the boy finished speaking, he laughed, then grabbed his hand and shouted happily: "Thief, thief." When the boy's family arrived, he felt that everything was over.

"The masters of the Zhuge family listened to my words and immediately arrested my parents, but they also forgot where they abducted me. My parents were punished, and I lived in the Zhuge family and was taken care of by them...

What is grateful is that they also let me learn to read and write, and on the recommendation of the master, I became the censor."

He thought that someone like him who walked a lot at night could not become a supervisory censor, but Zhuge Ciyun told him that precisely because of his past, he was more qualified for the job of a supervisory censor.

Because this job is to doubt others and see the ugly... ulterior side of human nature.

He has seen too much of the ugliness of human nature.

If he could serve the country, he decided to do it.

"...I am very grateful to everyone in the Zhuge family, and I am also very grateful to the emperor and my colleagues in the Yushijian. Therefore, I have decided not to have any extravagant expectations, not to marry a wife, and do not need to have personal property. I will spend my whole life to repay these

The benefactor who saved me from the quagmire of life."

Something flashed in the corner of his eye, and Li Yuezhen turned his head slightly...and immediately turned pale.

A line of hot tears flowed down Chunxiang's cheek.

"I knew it before..."

"What……?"

"Master Zhuge Qing told me before."

...It turns out she knew.

This time, Li Yue really looked at Chunxiang's face.

"So, I have known it for a long time...but I pretended that I didn't know, because I thought that maybe one day, you would be willing to tell me personally..."

"now that……"

...Then why is she crying?

"I have also decided not to marry for the rest of my life...unless the person I want is willing to marry me."

"..."

"Now...my wish has disappeared."

Despair gradually took shape before my eyes.

Why do you want to smile when you are obviously crying?

"Life is really empty without expectations."

"..."

"Although I hope you will tell me what happened in the past, I am afraid of hearing it. I always feel that I will hear things I shouldn't hear...bad premonitions are often very accurate."

"I……"

Li Yuezhen interrupted her, but didn't know what to say.
To be continued...