Ji Yu felt that her tears suddenly couldn't stop.

Perhaps in her life, the role of "mother" has been absent for too long, and Chu Nanxing's mother is too approachable, completely in line with all the images of mothers in Ji Yu's mind - she will help her child when she cries.

, appear when you are hurt, and use your gentle embrace and voice to soothe all the scars the other person has suffered in the outside world.

Ji Yu never thought that she would confide these unbelievable things to the gentle lady who appeared in front of her. She also couldn't understand what kind of mood she was feeling at this moment. Maybe she just couldn't bear these heavy burdens.

If the overloaded bad energy is not poured out immediately, she may die in the haze day after day.

"I...no one bullied me...but I did something bad..."

She felt the steady, calming power in Yu Su's body, and tears kept falling from her face. When she spoke, Ji Yu's voice contained a strong sense of remorse.

Yu Su's voice was still that gentle, without any hint of reproach: "What is it?"

Ji Yu was at a loss and didn't know how to describe it. Only tears flowed down like broken beads. Her fingertips moved. She seemed to want to hug him back, but in the end she was too timid to move forward——

This kind lady is not her mother.

Ji Yu felt a strange guilt, as if he had stolen someone else's family affection. He gently licked his lower lip and said: "I, I once had someone I liked very much, but we didn't really meet him at that time.

noodle."

She said: "I thought I liked her enough... But after we lost contact for a while, I accidentally met her in real life, and her personality changed a bit. Maybe she just didn't recognize her.

She is out of me, so she is not as familiar with me as before... Anyway, I have been with her for a long time, but I didn't even recognize her as the person I liked before."

When Ji Yu thought of this, she felt as if her heart was entangled with some thorny thorns, so that every breath she took brought a kind of pain rolling into her blood, causing her limbs to tremble slightly involuntarily.

She shed more tears silently. Obviously in the past four years, she thought that there was nothing worth being sad about, but looking back now, Ji Yu saw many things hidden in the details of life.

"When we lived together, I felt that she was arrogant and arrogant. She didn't even know the real way to treat someone well. She just blindly gave me the things she liked... I looked on with cold eyes countless times and was glad that I didn't

Fall in love with this person."

"But, actually, I am the one who is truly arrogant..."

Ji Yu lowered his eyes slightly and saw his tears falling on Yu Su's shoulders. He couldn't help but raise his hand to wipe the area around his eyes. Only then did he realize that her face was already full of tears. She wanted to leave for a while to prevent herself from being rude and offensive again.

The other party, but Yu Su thought that she didn't feel safe enough and didn't dare to confide in him anymore. He only closed his arms, hugged her tighter, and even patted her back comfortingly, saying softly:

"it's okay no problem."

Ji Yu was strangely coaxed by her voice again, and choked up. Now she was almost masochistically hurling those unpleasant adjectives at herself, as if this would make her feel better, just like she still felt the same on a snowy winter day.

Believers who insist on walking barefoot and heading towards the Holy Land in a penance way.

"It's my fault...I treated her very badly when I didn't recognize her. I didn't refuse some things she gave me that I didn't actually like, so she mistakenly thought I liked them, and then I

Watching her go further and further down the wrong path, it seems that if I leave like this, I won't have to bear the consequences of deceiving others' sincerity."

"I also don't let her see my true hobbies, or even let her know my real thoughts. Every time I get along with her, I wrap myself in a turtle shell and only pretend to show another side to her.

look."

"But... I obviously have many opportunities. If we meet at that time, I will treat her sincerely, get along well with her, and even let her see the things I have learned with her, maybe she will recognize it.

mine."

After Ji Yu turned sixteen, she never regretted anything.

But now.

But she wished she could turn the time back to the time when she first came to this world. On that winter day, when she was shaking her arms with the cold, she met Meng Rendong coming out of a fashion banquet.

If she had smiled and said to the other person: "I fell in love with you at first sight, would you like to try to have a relationship with me?"

Will everything be different?

A relationship that could have been a beautiful relationship started in the wrong way because of her original idea of ​​finding a substitute for "Si Tian", so the fruit was astringent and bitter, making both of them miserable.

The more Ji Yu thought about it, the more she collapsed. She almost couldn't stand still. Finally, she completely gave up the burden of being an idol and fell on Yu Su's shoulder. She cried so sadly, like a child who had done something wrong and was at a loss to tell her parents.

I regret it, but I don’t know how to save it.

…

Ji Yu cried until he almost choked, but finally recovered and continued:

"It's not good of me to do that...but she still likes me."

"She obviously didn't recognize me, but she had begun to like me. But because of my fear and resistance, I refused her further advances and ran away from her. I didn't want my previous longing for my sweetheart to change.

She was cheap and fickle, so I left quickly, but now, I know that she was the one I had been looking for for so long."

"When she didn't recognize me, she didn't know how to love anyone, and she didn't do anything to hurt me."

"But what about me?"

"I seem to be very nice to her, but in fact I don't care who she is or what she is thinking. If someone with the same appearance is in front of me, I can treat that person like this... I pretend to be gentle.

His appearance deceived her sincerity."

"I'm always hurting her...why have I done so many bad things?"

Ji Yu couldn't talk anymore. She was about to be overwhelmed by the mountain of guilt, especially when she thought about the many times Meng Rendong tried to save her, but she hurt him again and again.

That time I was fishing in the sea.

What would have happened if she had left Meng Rendong behind and chosen to rush after Si Tian?

Ji Yuguang felt scared when she thought about it. Among so many choices, she wanted to leave Meng Rendong behind countless times without even thinking about it, but Meng Rendong... Even before she remembered the matter, a hundred times, she...

The ninety-nine choices I have made have all been tilted in the direction of Ji Yu.

After the breakup, Ji Yu didn't save any face for her, which made the proud Meng Rendong suffer a huge emotional blow. She realized that she was just a stand-in for Ji Yu to place her feelings on——

Rao is so.

Later in the swimming pool, she came out as soon as Ji Yu encountered danger.

Meng Rendong tried so seriously and hard to save the mistakes he had made, but Ji Yu was the only one who was still immersed in his own world, escaping from everything.

…

Yu Su actually didn't quite understand this story.

After all, she was getting older, and some things were too difficult for her to get around, so she had to understand that Ji Yu and another person had met online, and then met in real life, but the conversation ended up not being pleasant.

She sighed softly and didn't know how to comfort Ji Yu, because in her eyes, Ji Yu was just a child who hadn't grown up yet, almost like Jian Yu. Who would have thought that he already had such a complicated child?

Emotions experienced.

Yu Su looked at this from the perspective of an experienced person, and she could roughly understand that this was a slightly unexpected emotional experience between two young people, and in a relationship, the most important thing is - "Do you still like her?"

"

"If you like her, admit your mistake frankly. If she still likes you, wouldn't that be a good thing?"

"All good things come hard, and sometimes life likes to play some tricks on us."

When Ji Yu heard her calmly clearing away the fog and pointing to the core issue, he shook his head in confusion:

"I...I don't know anymore."

"Now I feel that my love is so cheap. I am not as affectionate as I show. Otherwise, no matter what she becomes, I should have recognized her."

When Yu Su heard her words that severely criticized her, she suddenly laughed softly. While letting Ji Yu calm down, she said softly:

"Silly boy."

"How can there be so many pairs of souls in this world who fall in love at first sight and go smoothly? How can there be so many pairs of souls who are just right and can never be separated for life after they meet?"

"Most people are just in an ordinary relationship, their enthusiasm and confidence are whittled away by the exchange of firewood, rice, oil, salt, soy sauce, vinegar and tea. Then when difficulties arise suddenly again and again, they either hold hands with each other and grit their teeth to get through it. Sometimes,

You will encounter the same problems as before, so you become discouraged and unwilling to persist, or suddenly, one party lets go, and the other party just doesn't catch it. This fate... it breaks up.

Already."

This is why human beings have always praised those beautiful loves.

It's not because of how intense and full those feelings are, but because the triviality of life and the length of time are enough to carve a person into a completely different image. And in the process, how to firmly refuse the habit of liking the new and hating the old, how to

In the different appearances of poverty, wealth, hardship, and success, maintaining your original intention, remembering that you want to go down with the other person, and persisting until the end, this is what is worthy of praise.

Human nature is greedy, selfish, seeking advantages and avoiding disadvantages, and laziness...

But a long-lasting love needs to go against this instinct again and again. At first, the novelty and impulse can make dopamine secrete happiness and make people greedy, but this novelty cannot be repeated in one thing.

, from a kiss or a hug that can make your face blush with your heartbeat, it has gradually become a habit even if your skin touches each other, and your ears and temples rub against each other. And habits are the most terrible things. It can make people mistake the original treasure for gravel.

…

Yu Su hoped that everything would go well for Ji Yu and not suffer so many hardships, but she was also afraid that she would encounter many difficulties in life even if she got back together with him.

This is the real mentality of a mother. If she puts her child in a greenhouse, she is afraid that if there is a hole in the greenhouse one day, and if there is no careful care, a little rain and wind outside will cause her to wither; but if she completely lets it go,

She didn't feel at ease when she went out into the wild, fearing that a jackal, tiger or leopard might come and snatch her away, so she was in pain no matter what.

So I could only follow the child step by step, teaching her how to protect herself, and at the same time hoping that she could handle all the difficulties she encountered. I wished I could hold up the entire sky and take away all those terrible injuries for her.

Block it first, leaving only some gentle ones, enough to teach her to grow.

After saying the previous words, she did not continue to ask any more questions. It seemed that she completely respected whether Ji Yu wanted to give up or continue. Now she just wiped away Ji Yu's tears little by little with her handkerchief, and then asked her with a smile.

:

"Would you like to come inside with me and have some tea?"

"How about I take you to try the Yuqian Longjing I just bought from someone?"

Ji Yu looked at her smiling face and felt like crying again. She was wondering why she didn't have such a good mother. However, she soon realized that her mentality was too fragile, so she laughed at herself in her heart, and on her face,

She wiped away her tears, folded Yusu's handkerchief, and prepared to go back and wash it before returning it to the lady.

"good."

She laughed through tears, and her whole body seemed to feel more relaxed.
To be continued...