Chapter 190: Home and Road, No Hesitation(1/2)
In this life, people always have to face many choices. Some choices are painful, but as long as you are alive, you must face them.
Shisheng had forgotten the specific scene when he first met Xiaobai, but he only remembered that Xiaobai was dressed in rags and his eyes were flashing with firm tenderness. She was so kind that she was even out of place with this world. In order to avoid the lives of the villagers of Qin Village in his hometown, even if she was criticized, she still resisted everything on her shoulders without any regrets.
Even if she cried, she had to keep tears in her heart. Time flies. The thin little girl back then had grown up, but time did not take away her original intention. Although she was not good at expressing herself, she has always been like this. She silently, silently, behind the world, supported him with little love and action, so that he could still stand up in the most difficult and helpless times.
As long as the home is still there, there will be no darkness in this world. Shisheng is a person who urgently needs a sense of belonging. For Shisheng, the little white behind him is the first and last "home".
That was his last haven.
And compared to Xiaobai, the kite is more like a road.
Shisheng still remembers her heroic appearance when she first met. No matter who she was, there will always be someone in this world who can understand you. For Shisheng, that person is Li Zhiyuan. Although she is fierce and a little impulsive, when she is with her, Shisheng will feel no burden because she understands herself and understands herself.
It is indeed a bit wonderful to say. At the beginning, the kite was eager for freedom. It was Shisheng who paved the way to the vast world for him. Many years later, Shisheng slowly discovered that his path was paved with kites.
That dark night four years ago was a nightmare for life. While he knew his life experience that night, he also lost his "home" as he had always been.
He was forced to escape, escape from Doumi Temple, and became a masterless wandering soul. When he was most confused and panicked, it was Zhikali who illuminated his way home.
People always need home. Because a person’s life is either at home or on the way home.
Home and Lu. The most important thing in Shisheng's heart. No matter which one he lost, he will be lost in the end of the world of pain in the future. At this moment, Xiaobai and Zhiyuan's faces kept flashing in his mind. From the beginning to the present, their faces have gone from immature to maturity. It turns out that such a long time has passed in the blink of an eye. This is the first time Shisheng thought deeply and seriously about everything about himself and the two of them. The more he thought about it in his mind, the more painful it feels in his heart.
He suddenly realized how slutty he was. In the past years, subtle scenes came back to his mind. There were so many things he owed to the two of them.
Why do people always cherish it when they are "lost" or "lost"?
At that moment, the power of apocalypse and magic weapons in troubled times had become waste. Because those things could not help him, Shisheng felt powerless all over. At that time, he was standing in front of a double fork intersection. No matter which one he chose, the future he led would be painful.
You cannot seek, can't let go, can't get, can't forget, gain and loss are the true meaning of life and the root of pain.
Shisheng thought he was very strong, but at that moment, he cried. He couldn't help but burst into tears, and he didn't even go through his mind and snatched the frame.
This is the worst result and the worst choice, especially for a person who is extremely protective.
When Fan Xiaoxiao saw Shisheng staying there expressionlessly, she couldn't stop the tears on her face, so she smiled and said, "The ghost can even cry? Haha, this is really unexpected, but little brother, you can't solve the problem. Now that I have thought about it enough, I should be able to tell which one you like more. Tell me, who do you choose to live?"
"No." Shisheng sat decadently on the ground, weak all over, but his tone had become much calmer. He said softly: "I don't want them to die, nor do I want to choose."
"Just!" Fan Xiaoxiao Xing said with wide eyes and wide open, "Do you think you have this right? Choose which one you like more, otherwise they will both die!"
"I said I can't choose it!" Shisheng suddenly jumped up, then clenched his fists and shouted fiercely, "They are both my favorite people! They are both my most important people! No matter who dies, I can't live anymore!! Do you understand?! Do you understand!?"
At this moment, Shisheng was finally able to bravely shout out his thoughts. Although he knew that it was too late now, he could not resist his heart. His roar echoed between the mountains, and there were endless sounds.
Seeing Shisheng like this, Fan Xiaoxiao was also stunned. She might have never seen such a person before, but because of this, her expression began to become more and more ferocious. Obviously, she hated Shisheng's reaction, so she said to Shisheng fiercely: "Fuck! It's all nonsense! No matter who dies, you can't live? Okay, don't you have backbone? Then I'll give you another choice, you don't have to die. As long as you destroy the qi and veins in your body, then use your hands, and then pick one of your eyes off for me. If you can do it, I'll let them out. What about, Wushan Three Ghosts?"
The most toxic woman's heart is that Fan Xiaoxiao, who has been hurt by men, believes that there are no unselfish men in the world. When facing beauties, although those men always talk about their own interests, they immediately change into a different look when they really involve their own interests.
In the face of life and death, what I once thought was immortal often becomes a flash, what I once thought was beautiful often becomes extremely ugly, this is love, this is human nature.
The reason why Fan Xiaoxiao did not let Shisheng live and die was probably because he wanted to make Shisheng even more afraid. After all, in this chaotic world, only strength is everything. Indeed, if there is no power, Shisheng will become an ordinary person, even worse than ordinary people.
Isn’t he able to do what he is today?
Fan Xiaoxiao has a deep understanding of human nature, and she understands that the most sad thing in the world is not that it cannot be obtained, but Shisheng has "lost". Especially everything that once made you brilliant. The fame, reputation, property, love, etc. that you once had. People are selfish. While pursuing the future, they also want to hold on to everything they have.
Especially for people like him, it is really harder to make him a useless person than to kill him.
Also, that is, the most important point. Shisheng has unfulfilled wishes in this fashion, which is why they struggled to find the Three Treasures in the Troubled Times. They want to end this Troubled Times and complete these things. They all need strength.
After hearing Fan Xiaoxiao's words, Shisheng was stunned, his eyes flashing, and this was exactly what Fan Xiaoxiao wanted. She wanted Shisheng to become more and more desperate, and then she revealed her shameful nature. Everyone is selfish and high-sounding. If you can see this hard bone and say the words of the person you see, it would be the most satisfying thing.
Fan Xiaoxiao smiled, and saw her face full of spring breeze and said proudly: "How is it? Are you scared? It's really not worth it to ruin your future and dreams for two women, right? You are the same in your heart now............?!"
Kala!!
Shisheng didn't say anything. He just lowered his head and chopped his left arm without hesitation! With a loud noise, the bones on his left arm were broken into two sections, and the arm instantly showed a strange arc.
This is Shisheng's answer to her.
Fan Xiaoxiao's words were frozen in the middle of his speech, and a drop of cold sweat oozed out from her forehead. She couldn't believe that compared to before, Shisheng had no hesitation this time, so she asked her to swallow all the words she was ready to use to criticize and mock him. In the end, only one word was left to blurt out: "You......"
"How good would you say that earlier?" Shisheng looked up and smiled. His face turned pale because of the severe pain of his broken arm, but his expression became much relieved at that time, but Fan Xiaoxiao was really shocked. At that moment, she felt that her position and Shisheng were quietly exchanged, and that she, who had always had the upper hand, became passive at this moment.
No, shouldn't people be selfish? How can he do this? How can he do this? Thinking of this, Fan Xiaoxiao hurriedly cursed: "Are you crazy? Do you know the consequences of doing this? Your status, your reputation, and all your dreams will be scrapped! Your future is destined to live like a useless person and like garbage!"
"Maybe you're right." Shisheng gritted his teeth and smiled, his eyes extremely firm. Fan Xiaoxiao was right, but he didn't hesitate. He said calmly: "I haven't lost anything. Although I will become a useless person, I still have them. Now I understand that they are my dream."
At first, Shisheng lived just to fill his stomach. Later, he grew up slowly. In the process of growing up, he gained a lot and lost a lot. His original intention began to change. He wanted to protect and protect everything. After Master Xingdian died, Shisheng could no longer accept the departure of anyone, especially these two people who were the most important to him.
Yes, he hasn't lost anything, has he? It would be too cost-effective to exchange his future for the important things in his heart.
"How can your dream be so cheap?" Fan Xiaoxiao yelled at Shisheng: "Is it just for the so-called 'love'? Farting, all love is fake and illusory! Only the benefits are real, do you understand? You crazy! Is this really worth it?"
Shisheng shook his head and smiled, then sighed: "I don't understand anything, but I think cheap dreams are also dreams, and illusory love is also love. It may not be worth it to you, but for me, I feel that measuring them with these tangible things is a blasphemy."
Everyone has the most important things in their hearts. Your love and dreams can be worthless or worth a thousand gold. In fact, these are all right, because love is something that has no specific weight.
The weight of love and the value of dreams vary only from person to person.
Fan Xiaoxiao suddenly found that she couldn't speak. She suddenly recalled her past. She was like Shisheng, thinking that love was all? But later he discovered that all love was an illusion. His husband did not like her. Being with her was just greedy for her family and status. After Fan Xiaoxiao knew all this, she found that she had been living in an illusory lie. So in anger, she killed her husband and began to despise all the love affairs in her heart.
Those are all fake.
She thought everyone was the same, but Shisheng once again subverted her perception of everything. It turned out that there were really such fools in the world who could give up everything for those nothingness.
Just when she was panicked, Shisheng stretched out his right hand and pointed it on his eyelids. At the same time, he said to her: "Is one enough? As long as you let them go, why don't I give you another one?"
His voice was very light, but extremely firm.
Seeing him like this, Fan Xiaoxiao instantly looked like a defeated rooster, and her expression shrank. She glared at Shisheng fiercely. After looking at each other for a while, she sighed a long time, and then said with a wry smile: "Okay okay. You win."
While speaking, she saw her right palm flipped open, and there were two stones in her palm. Fan Xiaoxiao shot two stones backwards. The stones shot into the grass behind her. Two snaps, then the two beautiful figures stood up and ran towards this quickly. Shisheng was stunned at the time, and only felt a warm feeling in his arms. When he looked closely, he looked like a dream in front of him. Who would be the one who hugged him and cried. If it weren't for Zhiyuan and Xiaobai?
Xiaobai and Zhiyuan cried like a tearful person in Shisheng's arms, and this sudden change made Shisheng unable to relieve Shen'er. So much so that he forgot the severe pain in his left arm for a while. He said to Xiaobai and Zhiyuan who were crying bitterly: "You......you?"
"You are lucky, you have not been lucky." Before Xiaobai and Zhiyuan spoke, Fan Xiaoxiao cursed with a calm face: "It's also my fault. I have met a lunatic like you."
Zhiyuan looked up at Shisheng with tears in her eyes, her eyes full of love, and she choked and said, "Why are you so stupid? How can you be so stupid?"
It turned out that when Fan Xiaoxiao was "playing games" with Shisheng, she also made a bet with Xiaobai and Zhiyuan at the same time.
All of this starts from last night.
Speaking of which, last night, Fan Xiaoxiao and Zhiyuan went out to duel for the inn. Both women had very high abilities and had been fighting for nearly an hour. In the end, Zhiyuan was slightly better with their fast sword. In the end, Fan Xiaoxiao was picked up by Zhiyuan, but she didn't look like she was defeated. Instead, she laughed again. Zhiyuan asked her what she was laughing at, but Fan Xiaoxiao said to her: "Your skills are indeed very high, but what's the use of this? I'm so stupid to laugh at you, two girls, and I feel at ease with that piece of wood."
"What do we do with you?" Zhiyuan shouted at the time: "We like it, can't we?"
"Okay, of course." Fan Xiaoxiao smiled, then changed the style and said playfully: "But I don't know if he likes you?"
"What does this have to do with you?" Zhiyuan said with a frown, but although he said that, Fan Xiaoxiao's words really hit her sore spot. She really didn't know what Mutou was thinking. The state of being inseparable between them had been maintained for many years. Zhiyuan originally thought that this would be good, but the facts proved that she was indeed guilty at this time.
And just then, Xiaobai, who was standing beside him, saw her clenching her fists and saying, "Sister Zhiyuan, don't listen to her nonsense. Brother Shisheng, he must have ours in his heart."
"Even if I talk nonsense," Fan Xiaoxiao smiled at that time, "But have you ever thought about who he likes more in his heart? How high are your status in his heart? Sister, don't look at your martial arts skills, but we are all women. I know men too well, don't tell me you don't want to know this answer."
Fan Xiaoxiao's power is more intelligent than martial arts. Although Zhiyuan doesn't want to admit it, she really wants to know what Shisheng is thinking?
Which woman in the world doesn’t want to know her position in the hearts of her beloved?
So at that moment, she hesitated, and Fan Xiaoxiao saw that the time was right, so she spoke to her, "It seems that I'm right. I admit that my martial arts are not as good as you, but do you dare to gamble with me again?"
"What are you betting on?" Zhiyuan said subconsciously.
"Didn't you believe that the boy likes you? Then let's take a bet with him." Fan Xiaoxiao sneered.
What she wanted to bet was whether Shisheng would really sacrifice one of them to save the other.
If Fan Xiaoxiao originally wanted to revenge Shisheng in a variety of ways, he came up with this conspiracy because there was no answer to this question, no matter how you choose, it was wrong. This was exactly what Fan Xiaoxiao wanted. Sure enough, after hearing her words, Zhiyuan immediately became confused and said, "How can this be done?"
"I think you dare not, you don't have confidence!" Fan Xiaoxiao laughed dryly. She was waiting for this time. Just when Zhiyuan was in a mess, Fan Xiaoxiao suddenly took action and pointed at the poop on Zhiyuan's body. Zhiyuan was not prepared and was hit. After subduing Zhiyuan, Fan Xiaoxiao pinched Zhiyuan's neck and said to Xiaobai: "If you don't want her to die, then don't let your strange bird go, do you understand?"
Speaking of which, Fan Xiaoxiao has been observing them secretly over the past few days. She was a person who had experienced it, so she naturally saw the tricks of several people.
It is precisely this that she came up with this sinister plan. Shisheng once humiliated her, and she wanted to make Shisheng worse than death, and Fan Xiaoxiao's interest was to trample on other people's feelings.
In the past few days, she found that there were a few people and had no ambiguous relationships. She immediately became angry. You must know that she hates men, so only by doing this can she feel happy.
He originally thought that Shisheng would be forced to compromise under the pressure of mountains, and that would prove that this kid was also a kind of evil spirit. At that time, she would really kill one of them as he wished. But she really did not expect that this kid would withstand the pressure and sacrifice himself without hesitation in his subsequent choice.
We also said before that the reason why Fan Xiaoxiao hated men was because he felt that everyone in the world was hypocritical and untrustworthy. Although they were glamorous on the surface, they were dirty behind their backs. However, this time, Shisheng shocked her extremely. It turned out that there was still such desperate love in this world.
It turns out that people are really different.
When he saw Shisheng choose to sacrifice for the sake of the two of them without hesitation, Fan Xiaoxiao felt sad. They really fell in love. This "cheap" dream of being a madman is called love.
How great would it be if I met such a person back then?
At that moment, Fan Xiaoxiao really felt that she had lost, she was a mess. She was not a bad person, and there were no bad people in this world, but all she had were all kinds of inner demons and various interests.
Therefore, Fan Xiaoxiao had no intention of gambling anymore, so he untied the two of them with flying stones. At that time, Xiaobai and Zhiyuan were lying in the grass. They heard Shisheng's words in their ears without saying a word. After Shisheng shouted the words echoed in the valley, the two women had already cried.
They really didn't choose the wrong person, this hardwood is so happy about them.
It is indeed a blessing to meet such a partner in this life.
So, after regaining freedom, the two of them rushed into Shisheng's arms and cried bitterly. After understanding all this, Shisheng couldn't help but feel very moved. At this moment, Fan Xiaoxiao sighed to them: "Okay, you kill me, I lost, if you lose to a lunatic like you, you will accept your fate."
Shisheng looked at this fierce woman, and for some reason he couldn't hate her at this time. Yes, it was because of this person that he understood the importance of Zhiyuan and Xiaobai to him. It was she who woke him up, so why did he hate him?
As long as they did not leave, their home and the road would be there, and there would be no darkness in Shisheng's heart.
Thinking of this, Shisheng said to Fan Xiaoxiao: "I won't kill you, you can go. If possible, don't kill people like this in the future."
To be continued...