This relationship was naturally opposed by Lin Xun. Lin Xun hoped to cultivate Chen Yekai, let him teach in Colombia and act as his assistant. However, in the course of being a teaching assistant, falling in love with undergraduates will greatly affect Chen Yekai's future.

Liang Jinmin encouraged Chen Yekai to recognize his feelings, so as long as he recognizes his feelings, he should not be afraid, quit his job voluntarily, or change to another university, or even give up his studies and re-plan his life.

Chen Yekai was worried about gains and losses for a while, and Long Sheng also realized that although there was only Chen Yekai in his world, Chen Yekai's life could not be the only one. Long Sheng did not understand feelings and never expressed it. He chose to avoid and retreat. He decided not to drag down Chen Yekai and was preparing to drop out of school and return to Japan. Just before submitting his withdrawal application, he asked Chen Yekai to accompany him to Argentina to see the Iguazu Falls.

During that trip, Chen Yekai finally faced his feelings. To him, Longsheng was like a dose of medicine that could make him forget everything, indulge in it, and feel true happiness. He seemed to be born for him and lived for him.

After returning to school, the effect of love was over, and Chen Yekai had to face Lin Xun's anger and students' complaints in Liang Jinmin's class. On one hand, it was the major he loved since childhood, and on the other hand, it was Long Sheng's future. Finally, under Lin Xun's sentence, the school finally opened up and removed Chen Yekai's position and allowed him to continue to follow Lin Xun to study for graduate school.

Lin Xun considered to match Chen Yekai and let his favorite disciple marry an old friend's daughter. As a result, Chen Yekai did not talk about it with an undergraduate, but also came out of the closet at home. The quarrels caused a shocking fuss and almost cut off family relations. When it comes to homosexuality in China, he always understands and tolerates, but it doesn't work to fall on his son. Chen Yekai insisted on his own. After resigning from his teaching assistant position, he lived with Long Sheng.

After the relationship stabilized, Lin Xun asked Chen Yekai to spend more time on study and topics. After Chen Yekai passed the sweetness of the initial period of love, he began to gradually calm down and consider his future plans.

But Chen Yekai and Longsheng are like all couples who have ended their passionate love period. They begin to face various problems in life, such as... Longsheng needs to be with him, and Chen Yekai has to do research in school most of the time; Chen Yekai occasionally ignores Longsheng's emotions; different attitudes towards family, towards friends, relatives, and mentors... etc. Chen Yekai was in love for the first time, caught off guard by the problems that emerged in an instant, and ignored Longsheng's feelings.

He needed time to study and was used to being alone. In fact, in the past many years, he spent a lot of time studying and rarely cared about the ideas of the people around him. The act of living with Long Sheng was tantamount to entering a marriage, and he had no clear understanding of how to run a marriage.

"I still remember that Long Sheng would always wake up in the middle of the night." Chen Yekai thought for a while and said, "turn around and hug me. He was too afraid of losing me..."

Yu Hao and Zhou Sheng listened quietly, the coffee was already cold.

Chen Yekai said again: "I was very tired, very tired at that time. I hope he will be a little quieter. I am always tired during the day, but I can't get enough sleep at night. Sometimes I am in the laboratory and I'm even a little afraid to go back. During that time, we said very little, and I'm always afraid of being afraid. I don't know when he will suddenly get angry and yell at me... You have never been in a relationship and don't understand that feeling very much."

The responsibility of "home" has become heavier and heavier for Chen Yekai. He tried to communicate well with Long Sheng, but every time he talked about it, everything would return to its original state in a few days. Then something happened, which caused a devastating blow to their relationship-

——A friend of Longsheng borrowed his mobile phone and discovered their sex videos, which were uploaded to his mobile phone, and then circulated them in a small way. In the end, someone posted them on Tumblr, which caused a lot of sensation.

Yu Hao: "..."

Zhou Sheng: "…"

"It's been deleted." Chen Yekai said, "There are still some people who have been downloaded. When they were together, they were stunned by love and took a few pictures. Later, I almost shot Long Sheng's friend... Fortunately, he was dissuading him and stopped... Sometimes I feel that in my personality, I am born with a kind of hysterical violence, but in most cases I hide it very deeply."

Yu Hao suddenly remembered Chen Yekai's way of solving the problem that night.

"Actually, many foreigners like to shoot." Zhou Sheng said, "The same sex and the opposite sex are the same. What's wrong with wanting to keep his memories of youth?"

Chen Yekai laughed and said, "You shouldn't be interested. Yu Hao, don't search. It's too embarrassing, but you probably can't search."

Yu Hao hurriedly said awkwardly: "I...I promise not to search!"

"Long Sheng has been apologizing to me for that matter." Chen Yekai sighed and said, "I am so upset that I am so upset about my classmates' attitudes and the comments behind my friends... I can't stand it. Many people have gone to my INS to leave messages..."

"Longsheng should be the most uncomfortable," said Yu Hao.

"Yes." Chen Yekai said, "But later, I suggested that we should separate for a while and calm down. I wanted to finish my graduation thesis, and then take him to the South America we have traveled to Machu Picchu in Peru, and to many places... to get married at the southernmost white church in the world."

Speaking of this, Chen Yekai stopped, raised his hand, and pressed his eyes with his wrist.

Yu Hao stretched out his hand and covered the back of Chen Yekai's hand holding the coffee cup. Zhou Sheng also stretched out his hand, and the two of them covered him together.

"Thank you." Chen Yekai smiled, "After that time, I kept it all in my heart and didn't say it to anyone."

Not long after, Long Sheng came back. Chen Yekai realized that Long Sheng's mental condition was a little wrong, so he took him to see a doctor and found that he was suffering from depression. The genetic factors of family history, insecurity and anxiety in love, and the videos that eventually spread made him blame himself and faced all the "kind comfort"... This is a physiological problem and needs to be paid attention to taking medicine. During that time, Chen Yekai was so busy that he wanted to give up his graduation thesis, but Long Sheng insisted on letting him be busy, otherwise he would not stay with him again.

Chen Yekai had no choice but to supervise him to take medicine on time and buy tickets, and prepare to take Longsheng with him after the defense. However, on the day of the defense, Longsheng did not come as promised and had a date with Chen Yekai for dinner.

He left home alone again. Chen Yekai immediately called the police, but the police refused to accept the case, because it did not constitute a disappearance. Chen Yekai learned that Long Sheng had changed his air ticket and flew directly from New York to Argentina that day. He chased him to Argentina and came to the small hotel they had booked...

"He has committed suicide." Chen Yekai said calmly.

"When I arrived, the scene was cleaned up. The hotel changed the sheets and invited several workers to paint the walls. The police asked me to see a gun he bought from the black market and put it in a plastic pocket." Chen Yekai said in a daze, "I remember every little detail of that day... His body was covered with a white sheet, and the blood was drained..."

"Don't think about it, Kaikai." Zhou Sheng said, "It's not your fault."

Chen Yekai smiled and said, "There is a wide Cuju field outside Chichen Itza. Legend has it that in the ancient Mayan customs, in the Cuju competition, the captain of the victorious side will become a sacrifice, beheaded and presented to the gods."

"Longsheng likes to watch me play football. That day, I scored a goal for him in front of the tourists." Chen Yekai murmured, "Kick the ball up from the square and pass through the iron rings used for the game. Maybe at that time, I already fell in love with him... willing to dedicate the rest of my life and even my life to the only god."

"There is a well in the middle of Chichen Itza. Longsheng said that he believed that it was the Mayan path of reincarnation. He always wanted to come from this life to that life. He knew that I didn't love him, but he wanted to make a wish with me by the well and be my best friend in this life. In the next life, he would go one step further. He wanted to be my lover."

"I feel that his love for me is so deep that he can reach the other end from this end of reincarnation. But I think, the saying "I love you too" is enough to say in this life, why do you have to wait for the next life?"

"Okay, the story is over, I have to leave."

Yu Hao was silent for a while. After Chen Yekai drank the last little coffee, he stood up and said, "When sitting in the medical room and listening to your story, I want to comfort you. Yu Hao, but I understand that the power of words is limited after all, and I can only say that you can treat me as your friend and as a big brother who is willing to listen to you."

"I also know that that night, I didn't know how to comfort you; just like you did not know how to comfort me this morning. Everything you said is pale and powerless, but our souls can have a faint resonance at this time and here, which comes from the hardships we have suffered." Chen Yekai smiled, "From my failure to another soul, the mistakes I made, there is no chance to recover, and your life is still long, and there are more possibilities and sunshine."

"Now you want to comfort me, just like my mood at that time. I think, this may be enough."

Chen Yekai had only one backpack for his luggage, and the rest were sent away. He walked downstairs and the car was waiting outside the back school gate.

"I'm leaving." Chen Yekai said to the two, "Hold one?"

Chen Yekai and Zhou Sheng and Yu Hao hugged each other. When they hugged Yu Hao, they patted him hard on his back and said, "Remember what I said."

Yu Hao's eyes were red, but Chen Yekai got into the car and left the back school gate.

Yu Hao and Zhou Sheng sat down in front of the steps of the teacher's dormitory building. They looked at each other, and Zhou Sheng's eyes were also a little red, saying, "This sunshine is so fucking dazzling."

Yu Hao said: "He has no safe haven in his heart now."

Zhou Sheng asked: "Where are you paying attention to the express delivery?"

Yu Hao calmed down, took out his cell phone and said, "I took a photo."

"Check the address." Zhou Sheng shook the cigarette box, leaving the last one.

"Stop pumping." Yu Hao said, "It's not good for the heart."

"Take a few sips." Zhou Sheng pinched his nose and said, "I got my nose blocked, so I just took a few sips. He still didn't say what happened that night."

Yu Hao: "Can it be because of Long Sheng's conflict in the past, and Teacher Liang was abused by domestic violence, so he..."

Zhou Sheng replied in a deep voice: "He speaks and does things very well. Long Sheng's death is not Lin Xun's fault. Domestic violence will not make him so angry that he wants to kill Lin Xun... Remember that in his consciousness world, there are lightning everywhere. He wants to destroy himself. This is a more intense behavior than actively falling into the subconscious mind. He must drag him back and ask clearly if it is what we guessed."

Yu Hao lowered his head and looked at Chen Yekai's express address, thinking about Zhou Sheng's words. In the sun, Zhou Sheng looked at Yu Hao quietly, his eyes were very complicated, and his eyebrows frowned.

"What's wrong?" Yu Hao raised his head from his phone and said blankly.

"It's nothing." Zhou Sheng turned his head, took out his cell phone, thought for a while, picked up the cell phone, stretched out his hand, and took selfies for the two of them.

Zhou Sheng: "Smile?"

Yu Hao: "Are you sick..."

Zhou Sheng: "Smile."

Yu Hao looked at the camera and was taken by himself with Zhou Sheng. His expression was like crying and laughing, and it seemed like he was stabbed by the sun.

"Is life always so painful? Or is it only when I was a child?" Zhou Sheng said.

"Always like this." Yu Hao replied casually. He found the address of Chen Yekai's express delivery. When he went upstairs, he paid special attention to the express delivery that was transported away and said, "This is the address of a public welfare organization... It's strange..."

"Not surprising." Zhou Sheng said, "he wanted to donate things."

Yu Hao: "Where will he go? I saw him put on his passport."

Zhou Sheng: "I should go back to the United States. He has cut off relations with his family and will not go home. He has cleared his belongings in the room and donated them. He always feels very dangerous... Go to bed, go and go back to get his ID card and check in with the room outside the colonel."

"Are you sure he will sleep later?"

Zhou Sheng said: "He didn't sleep for long last night, so he must be very tired now. I guess he has to sleep on the plane. If not, I have to sleep too..." As he said that, he yawned: "I always felt like I didn't sleep much last night."

Yu Hao said stubbornly: "You took a nap, what if you can't sleep at night?"

Zhou Sheng: "Take sleeping pills!"

The two boys bought sleeping pills and made an appointment to check in the room. It was so weird, Yu Hao thought to himself.

At noon, Chen Yekai arrived at Yingshi Airport, passed security checks, and entered first class.

"I won't eat anymore." Chen Yekai said to the flight attendant, "Don't disturb me later, I'll sleep for a while, thank you."

In the world of consciousness.

"Look! I'll just say it!" Zhou Sheng said, "I'm going to fall asleep!"

Yu Hao: "Where to find him?"

Zhou Sheng: "Drive first!"

Chen Yekai's words confirmed Zhou Sheng's speculation that this three-story building would not be a safe haven. They must find Chen Yekai who stayed here as soon as possible. When Yu Hao went downstairs, he looked at the dark clouds and thunder and lightning in the rainforest world.

There are more fires in the rainforest than yesterday.

The trees are still collapsing, showing the trajectory of a huge creature passing by. Yu Hao said: "Zhou Sheng?"

"What?!" Zhou Sheng had already left the hotel and shouted outside, "Jump down! Yu Hao!"

Yu Hao: "Something is coming!"

Zhou Sheng: "Run!"

Yu Hao turned over and came out of the rooftop guardrail, stepped on the window on the third floor, jumped out of the awning on the second floor, and slid down. Zhou Sheng's off-road vehicle drove, steadily holding Yu Hao.

"Are you okay?"

"Stop making trouble!" Yu Hao picked up a gun and pulled the safety bolt. Zhou Sheng drove around the front door of the hotel, put one hand on the back of the seat, and turned around and reversed.

Yu Hao: "How did your clothes... change?"

When Yu Hao saw Zhou Sheng's top, it was the navy blue shirt that Chen Yekai wore when he took a photo with Nakagawa Ryusho in front of the Iguazu Falls!
To be continued...